Honeymoon Period

one week have passed since school start.. honeymoon is over.. time to shift up a gear for some serious business..

so far, ive only 2 things to voice out..

- lectures.. i know.. is unavoidable.. sigh..
- printing of lectures note.. what the hell.. ask us to buy textbooks still need to refer to lectures notes and print it out.. we can refer to the internet.. download in laptop and study at our own freetime.. so far i have done some experiment where i didnt print out the lectures notes but have referred to the laptop for it.. no problem.. now i want to see how long it takes before the lecturers find out..

first week nothing to do.. never expect my weekend is to see time pass without doing any activities..

Sabotage (2)

is there a way to stop nominating me as a leader?? kana twice already.. different modules somemore.. again the girls were the culprits.. they write my name first as im the only guy in the group.. then they were like, "ok, since you are the only guy, you will be the leader.." what a logical reasoning!!

im not very optimistic about the other modules as well.. as the first module was my class group.. the chances of been a leader and not been one is like 90 to 1.. with the remaining 9 to other guys in my class.. as if i like to volunteer to being a leader..

"eh.. cannot like that lah.. must give other people the chance.. dont always push to me leh..!!"

"can lah.. can lah!!"

no chance to vote.. 4 against 1.. walkover.. no need to talk.. just accept the role..

at the start, i only have one msn conference chat every night.. now im going to have 3 msn conference chat every night..

Sabotage (1)

woohoo.. got to know my class mates liao.. though not all, as we are forced to form a group to analyse and solve the problems..

damn.. of all people.. i kana been the leader.. nice arrow there from the ladies..

today was the first time in class able to chat with friends on msn.. then one of these girl will just push down my laptop screen to an angle where she can see all the contents.. lucky i minimised it before she could see what i was chatting about.. imagine my mouth and my eyes widen when she do this..

already the third day in school.. and only thing i going to suffer for the next 3 yrs will be the lectures.. damn dry.. the lecturers could just go on and on and on without taking a break.. wah lao!!

i cant wait for next week tutorials..

First Day in Poly

yesterday was the first day of school.. only lectures.. no tutorials..

i was totally wrong about these bunch of kids.. 16-18 yrs old compare to a 23 yr old.. sigh..

they are not the nerdy types like the JC, neither are they playful like the ITEs.. they are right in the middle.. time to play.. time to study.. cannot play play with them..

there are several factors i didnt think of it till i see it with my own eyes..
- The desire to do well in their studies..
- Good "O" level result to admit in a business course..

Good thing was my worst fears never came true.. if not, i will have gone crazy.. on the other hand, i haven even touch my books yet, there are already some surprises.. these surprises will only revealed in due time.. wait lah, i haven even know my classmates yet.. only know my orientation group..

I think i can finally score a point in communicating with younger girls.. so far so good.. hope can maintain, if not better.. another thing to foresee is to teach people with no accounting background.. did someone mentioned "big brother ma??"

Full picture of a story

in order to get a full story, one must know both sides of the story.. not just by listening to what other people have say and jump to your own conclusions.. if people want to view me in a bad light just because i dont want to say anything and somehow shift the entire burden to me.. by all means even to the extent of misunderstood..

till now, i have not tell anyone about it.. although is not a secret anymore, but i will be very appreciated if someone dares to come and clarify with me.. rather than giving hints for no apparent reason..

yes, i did blog about it.. but wont it better to hear from the horse's mouth rather than just viewing my blog for the latest developments??

im not bothered about it.. but i just want to set the record straight because of one word: principle..

Poly Orientation

argh.. can someone pls kill me??

the orientation was a no-brainer.. dont even mention to me about the ice-breaker games..

for once, i have difficulty pronouncing 2 unique girls' names.. let alone spelling out here..

still have 3 days to go... argh!!

New chapter of life

hai.. thought my enrolment will hit a snag.. but never expect to see 8 letters flashed across the screen.. "ENROLLED!!"

wah kao.. 4 days of orientation.. do what sia.. the way i see it, 16 apr is not going to be relaxed.. straight away hit the lessons liao..

updated on my chronicles of life..

Gossip-mongers

come on.. give me a break.. to think that i have done the necessary precautions.. yet the gossips still going on strongly even after i left the company..

i have stay away from her.. maintain a distance.. didnt talk to her.. didnt do anything to her.. didnt even bother to call her.. heck, the day i left, i give her my blessings to find her true love.. and now, i got people come and tell me the latest news.. sigh..

i feel so disgusted..

True Friends

" Many people will walk in and out of your life but only true friends will leave footprints in your heart.." want my smelly feet?? haha..

i donno about how others view friends as.. but to me, i classified friends into 3 groups according to my trust..

1st outer circle of friends - colleagues, acquaintances, etc.. these group of friends will get to know me very little or none at all.. they will get to see my bad points most of the time.. and this is also where i will guard my privacy as much as possible..

2nd circle - normal friends.. these group of people will know both my bad and good points.. as for privacy and trust is concerned, it will be only at my discretion..

3rd circle - buddies, best friends.. this is where my trust is held in the highest regard.. these people will also know the funny side of me, a very relaxed person in me.. these people will also get to know my secrets..

Red Tape

i feel like cursing ngee ann poly and CPF board for the unnecessary red-tapes.. i could have settled the application on the first day when i went there.. they could have just given me a hardcopy of it rather than telling me to apply it online..

but i never knew the extend of the problem even though i applied online, until i went today.. they cant send the most important email over to me despite informing me that it will send to me in 2 working days.. even as im typing now, no email have been received yet..

in the end, they ask me to submit the hard copy to ngee ann.. waste my time, waste my transport expenses..

never ever recommend me to work in the civil service.. especially the presence of red tape..

Double Job

my studies was nearly in tatters.. because of the past my family have done.. these 2 days was definitely a test for me.. from hopeful to despair.. from despair to hopeful once again..

on monday, i went to the poly to submit my application.. and once again i make a wasted trip.. this is not the first time as i went earlier last yr the first time to defer my studies due to NS. on the other hand, i recce on how to get to the destination faster..

yesterday, in order to make up for the past they have done, my surrounding family members help out to pay for the misc school fees.. the tuition fees will be pay by cpf..

now is 2 down 1 to go.. im currently waiting for the cpf board to call me.. the poly ask me to do it online but the cpf website was not user-friendly at all in the first place that i make a complaint email to them..

if all went well, apr 16 will be the beginning of my 3 yrs suffering.. what im hoping for is the time table to be good to me.. so that i can contact my agent to find a part time job that is flexible to my timing..

Last Days in Warehouse

yes.. 2 more days to go..

7 months have passed since i started working in this warehouse.. whatever changes the warehouse went through, i seen it already..

i think the person im going to miss most is my supervisor.. especially his curses and swears.. i going to miss hearing that.. he is also the person i respect the most.. taught me some invaluable lessons in life..

whoever work with him long enough will sure kana the "sam syndrome".. must find work to do or else mind will go mad..

i know i might sound abit late blogging on this thing.. but who cares.. the way i see it, the more suspicion i have.. is like the moment i blog something about work, the next day these 2 people will somehow know what to do, to the extend i find it very surprising and coincidence.. i have 2 very good examples..

- admin staff.. i blog that i sms her misc stuff and work stuff but she wont reply.. then the very next day when i sms her, she reply.. now i cant be bothered to sms her anything.. no particular reason..

- warehouse co-ordinator.. i blog about her way of treatment with a high level of double standards.. the next day whoever do wrong, all kana scolding.. as usual, i still dont talk to her that much as my colleagues..

i wonder if these guys really read my blog, are you all going to be faithful followers of this blog?? lol.. i doubt so.. after i leave, i think im already forgotten in their memories..

Memories of warehouse experience

ever since i started working in this company, i have seen people leaving and coming at the same time.. to me, i considered my batch the first.. followed by the 2nd batch of newcomers to come and do stock-take at the end of the yr.. these are people who having finish their studies and waiting for their results..

then the 3rd batch.. i considered them the worst of all.. never do OT, pick wrong books.. by the end of one week, they quit themselves.. they are students who just finish their studies in ITE..

currently the 4th batch and also the last before i leave, i find them to be pro-active.. once they know what are their responsibilites, they will know how to do.. this batch is also the one that brighten up my day with a joker in it.. willing to experiment how is it like to be raincoated with plastic wrapped around him.. no struggle and raincoat him the tighest.. imagine a person trying to lose weight with plastic wrapped around him.. this batch are students who graduated from poly and are waiting for national service..

look, i already give the assurance to my supervisor that there will be someone better than me..

One against all

hai.. look like im not the only one who is complaining.. 6 months into this job, i finally saw my colleagues' patience been tested..

for this whole week, my colleagues turn to me whenever they got a scolding for nothing by the warehouse co-ordinator..

they do out of goodwill, with a good intention.. the end result was a scolding.. i chuckled as i think about it.. hehe..

the only comforting message i could tell them is, "you first day know her?"

i still have 2 weeks of suffering to go..

Final straw

one baseless remark prove to be the final straw..

"you never check whether you got receive or not, anyhow send.. later JT kana scolding again.."

first of all, whenever i receive any books for shipment, i will tick against the title, or write on a new piece of paper.. if i never receive, what for i write..

if the way i do is questionable, then i might as well leave.. the longer i stay, the more troubles i create..
since i already leave a bad impression to the ware-house co-ordinator, i might as well give a lasting one..

i know that im not close to her in any other way, but why the double standards the way i do and the way other people do??

out of goodwill, admit to her that i do wrong.. kana scolding.. but my colleagues different.. do wrong and all they get is, "you ah!!"

Happening in Chinese New Year

this chinese new yr, i saw more than what i bargain for.. all happened in the same day..

first, i was at the bus stop waiting for bus to meet my friends for movie.. sitting there, observing people when i noticed a girl wearing sleeveless shirt, alighting from a bus.. she hold her hands up to put her bag.. then my eyes zoom into her armpit area.. wah lao eh, armpit hair!! there's goes my new yr mood..

so my bus came, and board the bus.. along the way, i was disturbed by a loud cries of "Oh Shit!!" and i look into the direction of most communters are looking at.. a taxi nearly knock down an elderly jay-walker.. the elderly jay-walker was alright though was in shocked.. the taxi driver offer his help to the elderly jay-walker..

quite an eventful new yr i ever had..

ok, i think everyone is waiting for me to say whether did i confess even though the chances is zero??

the answer is yes.. i confess well knowing that the chances is zero.. at least i have nothing to hide now, nothing to lose, nothing to afraid of..

if you all insist on rating the chances i had, then i shall give some examples why i rate it zero..
- call but no answer..
- sms but no reply..

dont tell me the moment i confess, my chances will be 100%.. then i will be in for a surprise..

Love Horoscope

My LoVe Horoscope
CANCER....

Your positive traits:

You're intuitive enough to know what's going wrong in a relationship early on
A total sweetheart - you're often the most caring person anyone knows
You are a generous and devoted partner to whoever you fall in love with

Your negative traits:

Insecurity - you tend to need a huge amount of comforting from your partner
You tend to be overly sensitive and easily hurt, which make loving you difficult
It's difficult to predict your moods. One minute you're up - the next you're down.

Your ideal partner:

Someone equally sensitive, who wants to take time to get to know you deeply
Dreams of an everlasting love - complete with marriage and a family
Loves to take care of you. Being a good cook and masseuse doesn't hurt!

Your dating style:

Slow. You enjoy dates that last all day, with plenty of time to talk and get to know one another.

Your seduction style:

Quite tender and loving, once you are comfortable in your relationship.
Coy. You tend to play it cool to drive your lover wild.
Orally talented - you're known as the best kisser in the zodiac.

Tips for the future:

Be a little less sensitive. Not every little mistake should hurt you.
Spend time away from your partner every so often - independence is a good thing.
Find ways to take care of yourself. You'll be happier if you put yourself first.

Mind and Heart

the reason why i took so long to say out was because my mind and heart dont agree with each other..

heart say like but mind want to take a longer time to decide.. if both agree, i would have taken the action way before the rumors have even spread..

most prob i rather take it as a crush or puppy love... because i doubt we can develop to the next stage of the relationship..

unless someone wants to prove me wrong..

Conflict of interest

look like im not very good in convincing people.. or telling some lies to get out of the way.. but i have to do it as i dont like to have attention focus on me.. i rather to be in low-profile..

i have only two questions to clear..

what if i confess?? will she accept me??

if no, then lan lan suck thumb.. if yes, it will be another problem to brainstorm another day..

Blacky's birthday

today is Blacky's birthday.. assigned to take care this dog during my stint in NS.. today he is 7 dog years old.. and that is equivalent to 49 human years old..

Blacky, you are an old dog liao..

oh.. finally i got car to drive on chinese new yr.. erm, i forgot how to drive liao leh.. how ah.. the last time i drove was like 9 months ago.. driving dog truck for deployment of duties..

Insecure

i donno what is my supervisor up to these few days..

every once in a while, he will ask this question, "when you leaving??"

i replied, "march!!"

is he scared that once i leave, there is no one to take over??

my answer to him : there is always someone out there will do a better job than me.. humbly speaking..

Peak period

what is the definition of peak period?? busy until no time for tea break??

but our definition of peak period is busy until can read newspaper.. busy until can go and play magnetic dartboard.. busy until can go for tea break.. busy until can walk up and down the warehouse.. busy until can go to the air-con room to get tibits and eat..

nothing to do.. so have to do something to keep our minds occupied..

Frequencies in communication

ever since i tell people that i will be going for further studies in poly this coming april, i received lots of advice.. thanks.. but the most wanted advice i wanted to hear didnt arrived..

i heard this line, "xiao mei mei likes da kor kor.." alot of times liao.. actually im not worried about it..

what i more worried about is the frequencies in conversation between me and those female classmates.. by the way, im pursing banking and finance services course.. dont tell me there is no girls lor.. i have a very bad record against those young girls whom i have communicated with.. dont ask me why.. maybe my expectations is higher?? maybe i should lower my expectations then.. haha..

any advice on this.. hur hur hur..

Handphone Technologies

as i mentioned previously about the handphones that im using, you could see that all are quite a jump in technology.. if i were to change a hp now, it will be another jump in technology..

nokia 8250 to nokia 8310.. an addition of FM radio..

nokia 8310 to nokia 6610.. an addition of MMS and GPRS..

nokia 6610 to those new phones on the market.. an addition of camera and 3G..

im not into gadgets very much.. as long got things to do and to occupied my mind, i can be very outdated about the latest gadgets.. even with consoles games like PlayStation and X-box, i dont owe them all.. i have Playstation 1, X-box.. but dont have Playstation 2, X-box 360 or Playstation 3..

just now i did this survey about my personality.. and this is what i had..

"you have a very strong will, not dependent on others and gives an impression of being a lone-ranger. you are extremely curious and sensual, living a clear-headed, modern life. at first glance you place yourself on a pedestal, and are difficult to get along. but once others talk to you, they know you are easygoing. and when the relationship develops, they realise you are affable (good-natured and friendly). you have an androgunous charm, which makes you popular with all genders. But you dont like your weak side to be seen. you might look cool on the surface, but beneath it all, you are really passionate. only people who know your true self can maintain a long lasting relationship with you."

all i can say is very very true..

that all i have for today.. need to have some coffee fix..

History of Handphones

i had my first phone, Nokia 8250, when i was in secondary school.. that phone was very popular at that time.. blue LED lights and a unique X-shaped keypad..

after that i upgrade to Nokia 8310.. this is my most favourite phone.. if i still have it, i wont upgrade for any other phone.. but sadly, i lost this phone.. it can hold so many smses that it can hang!! but the phone slowly used to it liao then never hang as much as it was in the first place..

i went without a phone for 3 months.. and i was still in a comfort zone.. doesnt feel lost or whatsoever until my friends began to complain to me.. they are having difficulty to find me.. haha.. then i give in and got myself the current handset im still using, Nokia 6610..

this phone have been with me for 4 yrs already.. now it is going to die on me any time liao.. and i have no choice but to relieve of this phone torture by getting a new one next month.. actually is my parents help..

me: "Nokia 6610, hang in there.. you will be relieve of your torture with a few weeks to go.. dont die on me yet as i still have some important data need to retrieve it from you.."

Nokia 6610: ".......!!"

lol.. sound corny!!

Warehouse politics

frankly speaking, i thought that i could fight again despite all those rumours in the warehouse..

because in NS, i fight on my own.. and prove it to those people..

but now this is a different ball game, different environment.. at least i learnt how to deal with it.. lucky the environment is in warehouse.. not office.. office even much more harder to deal with..

if i always go to the admin staff, complain this, complain that, say this, say that, she might as well be my nanny.. i wont get to learn anything in the working world..

now i dont bothered about it.. at least now i still have 2 months to go, what keep me busy is work..

Blog matters

some additions to my blog.. link up with some bloggers and their blog..

when i first started this blog, i wanted the add to be like, garylee402.blogspot.com or cool402.blogspot.com.. but somehow both add have been taken up.. so i have to come out with something unusual.. hence the x-surfer.blogspot.com.. last i check, both add that i intend to use is not there anymore.. kns.. but well, as i say, the rest is history..

Stubborn Leopard

A leopard will never change its spots.. kan cheong people will forever kan cheong.. i dont like to rush, be it in work or any other things..

i prefer to take it slow and have the patience to wait.. im not ashamed to say that i didn’t go into any relationship as im still holding onto this belief of having the one and only partner in my life..

i admit been playful as to sending those sms to the admin staff.. but these sms are send by girls leh.. dont tell me i have to see who like me.. like that i will be very busy leh.. seriously speaking, i cant find the link to it as to why they are speculating that i like the admin staff.. she also not close to me.. just a working colleague.. not even friends lor..

so far, i have not say anything personal to the admin staff.. i send an cryptic msg to her thinking that she might get it.. alas, i think im wrong instead.. look like i will tell her when i leave the warehouse..

i still holding onto that belief..

Observation

phew.. lucky i didnt go one step further if not im might hurt pretty badly..

i have been observing and at the same time maintaining my stand.. i didnt say anything or confess to the admin staff.. and all along, i maintain a work-related relationship..

look like someone have shown the tail.. and stop jumping to conclusions!!

Warehouse environment

wah.. so coincidence hor.. just post something about the sms thing yesterday, and today the admin staff replied back my sms..

very ironic hor.. very fun hor..

im sian is not because of the people around me.. im sian is because of the environment and the way work is been done.. work now is like a chore.. whatever we do, we must do it within the time frame given.. but the people who say it, doesnt do it lor.. is like you preach but didnt sow it.. and somemore the instructions given to us is like doing double job..

if given a choice, i preferred the former management..

Warehouse reporter

i never knew the warehouse where im working got reporter..

i encountered it twice sia.. hai..

once i report for work, i came late.. not once in a blue moon but everytime.. haha.. but somehow on this day, i saw this reporter go and report to the admin staff through lotus note chat!!

another time was doing OT after work.. i was the last to have dinner at the air-conditioned room and i overheard this loud and clear, "Gary is having his dinner now.."

hai.. i wonder does it really have to go to such extent of taking care people??

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remember all those sms interaction between the admin staff and me?? now whenever i sms her, she die die wont reply back sia.. but call her, she can pick up immediately!! i think she is afraid that i can understand her msg too easily already..

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look like my sianzation mood is not going away at this moment of time.. hai..

Rushing deadline

pissed off today.. and this kind of people is included in my dislike list..

i dislike people who rush me for nothing.. as long as i know the deadline, i wont waste any time and will finish it as fast as possible and as soon as possible..

somemore got my supervisor to help out.. i donno people kan cheong for what.. then what for i write, "work with him is a breeze?.."

Speculation

oh no.. i think what i say really come true sia... siao liao..

by the way, if i can understand what older girls are telling me.. then younger girls shouldnt be a problem right??

if that the case, i have every right to say that the girl whom i meet in NS, likes me..

Work in Warehouse

when i first started out this work, i didnt know what is peak or super peak period means.. i dont even know how many titles the other dept will bring up for the day.. i do have one colleague who help out in the work.. but he last only one week before i do it on my own.. initially, i struggled with the work load and somehow had an argument with the warehouse co-ordinator..

but as the days and months goes by with experience learnt the hard way, i use one of the talent that God have given to me, and apply in the work load.. and that is fast and accurate..

the most i had was like 35-38 titles to do.. more will be expected when super peak period comes..

but now, sianzation have hit me at the wrong time.. maybe is the change of boss?? i donno..

what keeps me going till 23rd march is my colleagues and my supervisor..

Style of working..

different people have different style of getting their work done.. i have my own style and here it is..

i have a weird habit.. whenever i work, i prefer to work alone.. but if die die have to work with colleagues, i will work with those whom i familiar with.. donno why..

secondly, i have post some complaints about work in the past.. but now i decided to let my hands do the work.. even if i want to complain, i rather tell my colleagues..

thirdly, no matter how much the workload, i wont take the credit for it.. im not a person who only work for reward.. do i look like this kind of person?? i rather claim the credit from God the work i done on earth..

Different instructions

three people giving out different instructions.. in the end, i kana for nothing..

is not as if i dont want to do lor.. i did do lor.. but very little..

hai.. if only communication could be a little more efficient..

Warehouse marathon

i thought that by going through some camp marathon is the extreme.. that was 4-5 yrs back where i have to go for my church camp and then straight to my leadership camp at desaru, malaysia..

but now the most extreme i feel is the deprived of sleep 3 weeks back where the company had an accident.. and i experience how lack of sleep can affect a person..

- easily irritated..
- easily lost count of the quantity of books..
- just want to find a hiding place to sleep.. haha..

ever since one of my colleague went to army, i have been helping my supervisor.. and i find it a breeze working with him but only thing is that i have to help him double check and double count.. he also help out in my workload.. all i can say he is an interesting old man.. he curses and swear like no body business.. he dont even bother to apologise if he accidentially step onto your leg..

Happy New Year 2007

happy new yr to everyone..

yesterday is a past, today is a new start, tomorrow is the future..

these few days been eat, sit, drink, sit, watch movie, sit.. think my bum have been flattened..

the movie, a night at the museum, damn funny.. nice show.. haha..

got a rock talking to the main actor, "i want gum gum, you dumb dumb.."

monkey pissing on the main actor, monkey and the main actor having a slapping match..

dinosaur become a dog.. wah lao..

Loudhailers

one mouth is big enough liao.. now got 2 mouth.. hai..

i dont want to say what is it regarding.. if my observation is not wrong, i think i know who is the mastermind liao.. not surprised at all since that person started it in the first place..

now i know what to do if im out of job in future.. and that is to be a ballet dancer.. why?? because i have to tip-toed past those narrow pallets to get my stock..

my supervisor, the admin staff and the warehouse co-ordinator.. out of these 3, guess which the only one that ask me to do the above request?

finally all work for 2006 have finished.. and the reward for all these hard work is 4 days of rest.. what a way to usher the new year!!

Curiosity kills the cat

look like my curiosity get the cat out of the bag liao..

i ask my friends and buddies on how they see themselves if they were in a relationship with older guys or girls??

majority of them is fine with it.. right~~

for me, im a conservative, traditionlist or even old school.. so i rather stick with girls within my age between 2 yrs younger or older.. for me, it take time for me to accept the fact.. but im not changing tact or whatsoever.. im just asking for opinions..

Final Date in Warehouse

i have pencilled on the date i leave this company.. and it shall be 25th march 2007.. exactly 3 months from now.. before going back to studies..

wonder how am i going to survive in school when there is no income coming in for the next 3 yrs?? hopefully the schedule will not be so heavy as im thinking of taking up a part time job..

Long working hours

last week was a mental torturing test..

let me show you an example of my working time:

tues: 0900 hrs - 2300 hrs
wed : 0900 hrs - 2400 hrs
thurs:0900 hrs - 2300 hrs

lucky by fri, there was no OT as there is D&D.. and also 3 days of holiday.. all the way sleep and sleep and sleep..

Bad feeling

today damn suay.. the moment i step into the warehouse, i have a feeling that something will happen.. but i just shrug it off..

today pick books for bulk area, the carton that im looking for is always at the bottom half of the pallet..

then after that my supervisor handling the stacker, got problems.. the machine can move by itself without touching the controls..

and this is the best of all.. going home soon.. finish everything liao and no OT.. thought tomorrow can breathe a little bit easier.. but who knows accident happens at the unexpected time? one of the shelf started shaking and all the books come falling down like dominos.. luckily, no one was seriously injured although my colleagues was on top putting the books at that particular shelf..

donno what are we going to do tomorrow??

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wah, i never knew so many people read my blog one ah.. all come and ask me what kind of girl i like.. just a simple one will do.. im not a person who go for beyond expectations..

1) mature thinking.. not mature looking girls..

2) pleasant personality..

i prefer to understand the girl's character than to go for the beauty.. i do have some past incident which i dont want to mentioned, where the girl is pretty but sucks in character.. i did post in the blog.. it was like 2 yrs ago.. and it pretty obvious who the girl is..

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i find it very funny and very interesting to see how people lie their way through..

the way some people lie is so obvious lor.. what for lie to other party to make that person happy??

first sign to see when the person is lying is through his eyes.. once his eyeballs turn to the right, he is lying liao..

another sign to see is his body language.. ask a simple question but hard to give an answer..

Happy Day

yes.. after months of hard earned pay give to parents, finally i have the chance to get a new hp.. maybe a christmas present for my own self.. haha

i think i need a vacation after my stint in a warehouse environment.. maybe a getaway to somewhere serene and zen like..

Distance Trust

the previous post have given me the thinking that no one can be trusted.. if i were to tell them a secret, i think the next day the whole warehouse also know..

lucky i never tell them anything.. even if i do have, i rather keep quiet and bide my time..

Wrong impression

look like i know what is the reason behind it where people want to talk to me something but yet dont want to tell me..

i have a reliable source telling me that i've given the impression that i like the admin staff..

to set the record straight, i think i have given the wrong impression to the people working around me..

firstly, i did say that the age gap is too big.. i dont think my eyes is glue with stamps ba?!?!

secondly, i got her contact no. is easier to contact, if not, i have to go to the air-conditioned room to make a call.. so troublesome..

thirdly, im helping her to do her work which i have to come in contact with.. hence the need to get her contact no.. maybe in a way, i have an advantage where i can disturb her through sms.. somehow, i dont think i find it fun to disturb her as the impression is there..

i hope i have set the record straight and clear the mis-impression.. wrong impression can kill..

and to turn the table around, the admin staff told me that she doesnt interested in me.. girls dont like to tell the truth or say it straight face to face, aint they?? they like to say something which they doesnt meant it and also like to beat around the bush..

Networking

the world is so small.. working colleagues can be linked to ITE friends and NS colleagues..

last friday, one of my colleague say he drove army tank during NS.. and somehow, i have a feeling that he might know my ITE friend who had an accident in overseas while in an army tank.. and that when the link is connected..

second link is when my NS friend msn me whether i know this colleague.. and the obvious answer is yes..

Wary people

i donno why i have this feeling around my workplace.. and i have been starting to get wary people around me..

is like some people want to tell me something but on the other hand, it is holding them back from telling me..

what is it that you all want to tell me? just say lah.. is not as if i cant handle it.. hmm..

i think i better stay at my workstation is and keep a low-profile..

Self-praise is disgrace

i think i should come up with a series where i never get to see this kind of person in my life before.. i donno this one is episode what already lah.. hai.. slowly go and check through the archives then add in a title in.. hahahah..

i have never seen a person who self-praise himself handsome.. if he is asking as a question, i still can tell a white lie.. self-praise is downright disgraceful..

if this person who finds himself handsome, why work in a warehouse?? go and apply for a job as a model or actor..

imagine a big boss is not around, and you are in an air-conditioned room with 8-9 people working around you, while you sitting down watching a video.. what will people think of you??

plus, he think he is a junior executive.. need to be arrogant abit to show some wings.. oh come on, he need to work smart, not look to be working hard..

since he claims to be so handsome, i believe he got the ability to call someone on his own side to help him do his work.. not us..

Accident

wah lao.. early in the morning received a sms saying that my friend is involved in an accident.. what a good time to start my day..

my mood of course was not good while working..

thanks goodness he is out of danger now.. he has transferred from CGH to TTSH.. tomorrow will go and visit him..

New System sucks

LOW MORALE!!!

hai.. because of a new system to clock the time in and out, the privileages are gone.. no more coming in late.. no more flexibility..

now we have to make good use of the time that is given to us for OT.. we have to use it fully to the extent that not even a sec is wasted..

i dont want to say how we have to spend the time fully as i believe there are some people "monitoring" my blog..

hai.. tough times ahead..

She doesnt meant what she say

erm.. what girls say, they doesnt meant it.. right?? i donno whether i should state an example to it..

this girl.. her status was "Single" before she went overseas.. after coming back from holiday, she put "It's complicated.." i dont have to say where i see it in the internet..

secondly she casually mentioned to me in sms that she want to get married within 2 yrs and become a full time housewife.. but on the other hand, i dont see her other half or any pic to prove it.. just a ring on her right hand is the proof.. but i saw on several occasions that she doesnt put the ring on.. forgetful?? i doubt so..

is this girl playing a game of bluff with me?? or is another case of "she doesnt mean what she say"??

70s and 80s lifestyle

received this email.. and i should add what we are doing in this new century.. 45 things we did in the 70s and the 80s..

1. You grew up watching He-man, MASK, Transformers, Centurions, Silver Hawk and Mickey Mouse. Not to forget Ninja Turtles, My Little Pony and Smurfs,Visionaries,too..

(now watch reality shows and singing competitions which is more sucks than the cartoons)

2. You grew up brushing your teeth with a mug in primary school during recess time. You will squat by a drain with all your classmates beside you, and brush your teeth with a coloured mug.The teacher said you must brush each side 10 times too.

(i donno whether is there such a practice in primary school now)

3. You know what SBC stands for.

(what about TCS?? i know now is mediacorp)

4. You pay 40 cents for Chocolate or Strawberry MILK every week in class.

(haha, that what i used to do back then.. but after primary 4, no more supply coming in liao..)

5. You watch a very popular Malay dubbed Japanese drama on RTM1 about schoolgirls who possess powerful skills in volleyball called Meoro Attack and Oshin.

(huh.. i dont watch these kind of show back then..)

6. You find your friends with pagers and handphone cool in Secondary school.

(now primary school students take the latest hp liao.. still secondary school..)

7. SBS buses used to be non-airconditioned. The bus seats are made of wood and the cushion is red. The big red bell gives a loud BEEP when pressed.. There are colourful tickets for TIBS buses. The conductor will check for tickets by using a machine which punches a hole in the ticket.

(all air-con liao, people complain what to do and bus company rich ma, still increase fare.. now is ding dong.. not BEEP!!)

8. Envelopes given to us to donate to Sharity Elephant every Children's Day.

(i think this charity closes down liao as the donations is less than 2 dollars..)

9. You've probably read Young Generation magazine.You know who's Vinny the little vampire and Acai the constable.

(ya.. now we read FHM, Maxim, Newman..)

10. You were there when they first introduced MRT here. You went for the first ride with your parents and you would kneel on the seat to see the scenery.

( now MRT is a new place for those who want to kill themselves.. )

11. Movie tickets used to cost only $3.50.

(now $9.50.. but still considered cheaper in other countries..)

12. Gals are fascinated by Strawberry Short Cake and Barbie Dolls.

(now girls are into maplestory and chasing idols..)

13. You learn to laugh like The Count in Sesame Street.

(only crazy people will laugh like that..)

14. You longed to buy tibits called Kaka (20 cents per pack), and Ding Dang (50 cents per box), that had a toy in it and it changes every week. Not forgetting the 15 cents animal crackers and the ring pop, where the lollipop is the diamond on the ring.

(no more supply liao.. )

15. You watched TV2 (also known as Channel 10) cartoons because Channel 5 never had enough cartoons for you.

(the trend still continues.. now show those repeated movies, american sitcoms, reality shows, and football matches..)

16. Hardy Boys, Nancy Drew, The Three Investigators, Famous Five and Secret Seven are probably the thickest story books you ever thought you have read. Even Sweet Valley High and Malory Towers .

(now not books liao.. all go internet liao.. or play LAN games.. )

17. KFC used to be a high class restaurant that serve food in plates and let you use metal forks and knives.

(try that before, much more delicious back then.. chicken portions also bigger.. now so small, must buy 2 sets then eat full.. now all paper and use your hands.. KFC is a restuarant, not a fast food restuarant.. hai)

18. The most vulgar thing you said was asshole and idiot and THE MOST EXTREME WAS 'super white'... you just couldn't bring yourself to say the hokkien relative.

(now even parents also bring into the equation liao.. small kids also saying that now..)

19. Catching was the IN thing and twist as the magic word.

(mention the word 'DoTA' now, everyone crowds around you..)

20. Your English workbooks was made of some damn poor quality paper that was smooth and yellow.

(now all Double A paper.. no wonder school fees is on the rise..)

21. CDIS were your bestfriend.

(who is that? i donno who is CDIS..)

22. The only computer lessons in school involved funny pixellised characters in 16 colours walking about trying to teach you maths.

(now much faster, much more pixels, more colours..)

23. Waterbottles were slinged around your neck and a must everywhere you go.

(now water bottles are put beside the bag..)

24. Boys loved to play soccer with small plastic balls in the basketball court.

(lifestyle still the same, but ball bigger and harder..)

25. Teng-teng, five stones, chapteh, hentam bola and zero point were all the rage with the girls and boys too...

(now is all sit down and stare at computer liao.. no more sweating outside playing those games..)


26. Science was fun with the balsam and the angsana being the most important plants of our lives, guppies and swordtail being the most important fish.

(im out of touch with Science subject.. so i got no comments)

27. Who can forget Ahmad, Bala, Sumei and John, eternalized in our minds from the textbooks. Even Mr Wally & Mr. Yakki. What abt Miss Lala??? And Zaki and Tini in Malay Textbooks?

(ya.. at least now better, with new names that are hard to pronounce..)

28. We carry out experiments of our own to get ourself badges for being a Young Zoologist/Botanist etc.

(im a lazy bugger back then.. now i dont think got this type of activity..)

29. Every Children's day and National day you either get pins or pens with 'Happy Children's Day 1993' or dumb files with 'Happy National Day 1994'.

(i throw away already.. i dont think there is any to give out now..hahaha)

30. In Primary six you had to play buddy for the younger kids like big sister and brother.

(everywhere is the same.. be it in primary school or secondary school.. working world also the same)

31. We wear BM2000, BATA, Double Happiness or Pallas shoes.

(hahaha, now more brander shoes can be wear to school..)

32. Your form teacher taught you Maths, Science and English.

(ya ya.. very true.. see the form teacher see until sian.. now got different teacher for different subject..)

33. You went to school in slippers and a raincoat when it rained, and you find a dry spot in the school to sit down, dry your feet, and wear your dry and warm socks and shoes.

(now people drive their children to school whether is rain or shine.. what luxury we had back then..)

34. School dismissal time was normally around 1 pm.

(i will find it surprise if school end at 1 now.. now school ends at 3 or 5..)

35. There would be spelling tests and mental sums to do almost everyday.

(now what kind of test also have.. CA followed by SA, followed by prelim, followed by final exams..)

36. Your friends considered you lucky and rich if your parents gave you $3 or more for pocket money everyday.

(now the sky is the limit.. the line is clear between rich student and poor students)

37. You see Wee Kim Wee's face in the school hall.

(now is S. R. Nathan's face)

38. You freak out when the teacher tells you to line up according to height and hold hands with the corresponding boy or girl.

(no such rule in my school.. i think if a boy touch a girl, girl shout molest liao..)

39. Boys like to catch fighting spiders.

(boys use it to scare girls.. not see spiders fighting with other spiders..)

40. Collecting and battling erasers was a pastime for boys.

(all those rubbers that got countries on it.. now is very rare..)

41. Autograph books were loaded with "Best Wishes", "Forget Me Not", and small poems like "Bird fly high, hard catch. Friend like you, hard to forget".

(now got internet, msn, friendster..)

42. Class monitors and prefects loved to say "You talk somemore, I write your name ah!"

(i have been a monitor during secondary school and ite.. but i not that of person to say this kind of thing..)

43. There were at least 40 people in one class.

(now 20 people in one class is already consider big liao..)

44. Large, colourful schoolbags were carried.

(now all kinds of slingbags which is black.. no more colourful schoolbags..)

45. You brought every single book to school, even though there was one thing called the timetable.

(now can go internet and check timetable.. no need to bring books also can..)

Passive Income

last week finally have 2 days of OT.. before that, there isnt any OT for 2 weeks.. people go ATM with a smile.. i go ATM looking at the figure with a shocking look..

but im looking forward to dec and jan.. that the peak and super-peak period.. good and bad about OT are, got OT but no time to spend.. no OT and the income is lesser..

im thinking of earning some income through doing some financial report like tax, costing or even accounting.. besides, im enrolling to banking and finance course to Ngee Ann Poly next yr and will like to get some knowledge.. it's been 2 yrs since i touched a calculator.. anyone willing to give me a try.. just tell me what to do and i can give the report the way you want it to be.. haha..

one of my colleagues have been shooting me questions on investments and savings.. well, there isnt any right or wrong answers.. i just give my views on what he ask me.. i did post regarding about this in Jul or Aug..

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heng.. lucky i got ask around regarding my friend's theory.. and is not proven to be correct.. phew..

look like my friend is gonna to get a scolding from me liao.. anyhow say..

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oh.. i didnt know that my contract have already been completed.. haha.. im quite comfortable with my working colleagues..

the admin staff.. also another funny person.. ask her about her working life.. she go and tell me about her personal life.. until i also interested in it..

wait, before anyone can say it, i want to make something clear about this.. yes, the admin staff is someone i can click with, but that doesnt mean that i have feelings for her.. the age gap is too big for me.. 2-3 yrs still acceptable.. i respect her loyalty in this company for so long.. i dont think i can last so long in a company where i can find new challenges in other companies.. like pay rise, travelling around the world..

Illogical logic

HUH!! got this kind of logic one ah.. i donno how my friend able to come up with this theory that if girls dislike you is actually liking you..

if this theory really do exists, then the first girl who dislike me that comes to my mind will be the ex-friend.. the girl who i knew during my NS days..

pls tell me this theory isnt true.. even if it is true, how to derive to that point?? i dont get it.. can someone pls enlighten me?? does that mean no matter how long the time have been, i still have a place in her heart?? oops, if the ex-friend is reading this, i believe she is cursing and swearing at my friend's theory right now..

i have a conversation with my friend on MSN and somehow 'Relationship' was on the agenda..

Blog updated

blog updated.. a new tag board and chronicles of my life..

today watch two versions of 'Infernal Affairs'.. lol.. both english and chinese versions.. both storyline are practically the same except for the ending..

'Infernal Affairs need 3 shows to make a story but 'The Departed' need only one to make the story.. remember Leon Lai character in the last instalment of the Infernal Affairs.. In The Departed, the cop who abused his authority, curses and swear is character play by Leon Lai.. somehow the ending in The Departed got to do with this character..

Unreasonable Warehouse co-ordinator

first time show face, ok, nvm.. second time show face, i begin to doubt already..

what the use of asking people to pass msg when im the one who is doing it?? i wonder if my colleagues like to do that in the first place?? by doing so, it only create more confusion and misunderstanding.. though it's not happening at the moment, but i believe it will..

now i dont have the enthusiasm in working anymore..

Working world

hai.. look like what i learned in NS is not forgotten in the working world..

- never ever trust anyone.. this rule is only exception to some people..

- politics exist.. yes, but i dont play..

- never treat everyone as friends.. this rule have draw the line very clearly.. once work is over, that it..

breaking the ice in my working place is like the ice is made of diamond.. that is how difficult it is until recently.. the common topics are......guy topics!! lol!! 10 hours of endless talking.. from the moment i step in to work till i step out of work.. my mouth is damn tired lor.. somehow i just show them a games list that is coming out soon and the ice is broken.. i use the wrong weapon to break it.. =/

by the way, im going to change the status of the co-ordinator that i need to report to as the admin staff.. hehehe..

Different personalities

argh.. two contrasting worlds of working personalities.. different wavelength of frequency.. one end to another end and im stuck in the middle.. instructions given from both sides, im the one who is confused right from the start.. who to listen? the one that is in charge? or the one that is helping out at the moment?

i dont want to go into details about it.. there are some things that people doesnt want me to know.. fine with it.. but im definitely not naive to go and believe it.. the way people express themselves and the body language gives it away.. im just turning a blind eye or deaf ear to it..

Funny warehouse executive

there is some incidents which i intend to blog about it but was totally forgotten about it until recently.. all these happened during the 3 days where the co-ordinator went on cruise.. anyone recall that i have to report to another co-ordinator.. today post will be all on her.. wahahaha..

all i can say is she is good to bully, child-like behaviour and a priceless expression..

i dont think i need to say about good to bully as it is very obvious.. 6 of us bullying her during the 3 days in charge..

priceless expression: every day, for these 3 days, the quantity of the books is not tallied..and everyday i have to tell her.. by the end of the 3rd day, she gives an expression which is priceless!!

child-like behaviour: ok, she wants it fast and accurate.. no OT.. and i was surprised that the dept give us the books during the 3 days was like all come up at one shot.. i was alone and doing it myself while my colleagues was doing some cleaning.. and the next thing i knew, she and my supervisor come and help.. so i take a short break and stand there, watch them doing when something caught my eyes..

just imagine.. she was sitting down on a moveable chair, with books on her laps and use both hands to tap on the books (the action was like playing piano).. i was stunned and when she realise that i was watching her doing that action, i quickly turned my head away trying to control my laughter..

got 2 more points to add, i find that i have a great working chemistry with her.. she doesnt have to say anything and i know what she wants me to do..

basically i have to communicate with her if i have any problems at work, hence i have her contact no.. imagine when i get to know her nickname.. i disturb her through sms sia.. hahaha..

but i dont think i will last long in this job.. currently there are 5 of us.. 2 of them is waiting for NS.. if 1 leave, still manageable.. if both gone, i will follow them..

Bond building

i feel that my supervisor is either trying to be funny with us or want to make us angry..

he told us that if very busy, he will ask one of us to help.. but in the end, he call other sections to help.. Saturday is a perfect example.. we already agreed that we will do it all and finish it all as a team.. but instead he call one from other section to help.. and this section is starting to busy with those packing.. and they have not finish it.. what the heck? i wish to say some more about this particular girl from the packing section but on the other hand, i decided to keep it within our team..

since the incident, i find more comfortable working with my team than from other sections.. maybe the bond is starting to build up..

and lastly, the way some people treat me, i will treat back the same way back to these people..

Implemented working plans

did i mentioned that the working environment situation was solved DURING the co-ordinator's cruise??

our team have a discussion about it during meal time.. and i was surprised to see her asking me when she was back.. since she ask me, i just told her lor.. ok, maybe i was harsh in the conversation, i apologised for that.. the very next day, to my horror, show me faces.. that very minute, i dont give a damn anymore..

i shall give a better scenerio about my working environment..

in the morning, other departments will bring up small quantities of books.. i still can manage on my own, take my own sweet time to finish until lunch time.. if other sections were to come and help, i will have a lot of free time.. is like you want to savour an exotic food for all the time that you want, but the moment you turn around, the food is no longer there.. the help that i need is permanent.. not as and when others see it fit to do it..

after lunch time is a nightmare.. the dept will bring up large amount of books.. that where i need help already..

one thing my colleagues all agree on was the time management.. it really sucks.. anyway, the situation is more clear cut now.. if the quantities is really alot, then they will come and help after lunch time.. if is small amount, then they will do their own things.. through trials and tribulations, my colleagues and i have a better understanding on our individual duties..

but we cant wait for the day to come when the evil plan shall come into play..

Middlemen

look like my colleagues are in for a tough time.. they have to pass messages between me and the co-ordinator..

since this incident, the co-ordinator have the intention to ask my colleagues to do what im currently doing.. but the funny thing is, my supervisor's instructions overrule it.. so is practically back to me again..

my colleagues and i have an evil plan in mind.. hahaha.. will not disclose about it.. but waiting for the prefect time to carry out..

Working arrangements

just by stating some facts on work, i pay a price for it..

- heard from my colleague that i was rude to other colleagues.. ok.. i accepted the comment before adding on that in the midst of working, they come in and ask me what to do.. but they know how to do..

- when i need help in work, the help is not there.. when i no need help, other sections will come and help.. before i voice out, i was working alone.. the work required at least 2 persons to do in order to meet the deadline..

by voicing out, the only consolation that i got from my supervisor is the help will be mobilised within our team if i cant do it alone.. and not from other sections.. im actually quite happy with the arrangements..

want to know what consequences i got by voicing out??

a standoff with a full time co-ordinator..

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Bless me that i wont go mad tomorrow..

Bless me tomorrow that i wont go mad..

Hope i wont go mad tomorrow, bless me!!

Hope tomorrow i wont go mad, bless me!!

i think im really go mad now.. =/

IMF/World Bank Meetings

hello.. im still here.. im blogging right now.. im playing computer games now.. im chatting with my friends online right now..

why everyone asking me why im not involved in the IMF? ask the government lah.. ask me for what.. kao..

if im really involved in it, i will not be here blogging.. i will not be working as well.. i will be in Suntec area from last Sat onwards..

who want to go and secure the place for 2 weeks without going home?? who wants this kind of job?? pls inform me, and i will have ways to tell the government that someone will like to do this job in the future..

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argh.. i find it very funny interacting with people.. when i tell the truth, no one will believe.. when i tell a lie, the whole world believe... wth.. hai.. my expression of bewildered eyes said it all..

look like im a person who no one understand.. the way i work, the way i talk, whatever the way i do..

- im a person who is easy going.. really.. as long as it is within my limits, i will help all the way..

- when "push" by people, i still can accept.. i give some leeway.. but when come to shove, the person will be out of my radar.. "once bitten twice shy", this saying will be permanently on my mind..

- whatever i do, i do it fast.. i dont like to idle till the last min and rush things through, purposely just to pull down the pants and get others screwed..

- if something is going to happening according to my gut feeling, dont freak out when it indeed happen.. and dont even say im oversensitive or jump to conclusions.. i cant explain why i able to do it.. dont ask me.. i can only say that it's either a curse or a gift..

- if you all want to make fun of me, or joke about me till the cows come home, go ahead.. dont just because of my look, you all freak out.. as long as it doesnt involve my family directly.. i will definitely appreciated the jokes and the fun, be it cold jokes or just pure fun..

any more questions that want to know more about me.. ask, and i will gladly answer..

Clarifications

wait.. some clarifications to avoid misunderstanding..

- firstly, i dont considered the previous post as a personal problem to me.. my only personal problem, i will not disclosed no matter what.. some things are better left unsaid..

- secondly, i did not blame anyone or point any finger.. it just that the essential ingredients for the relationship isnt there.. communication, trust and faith.. none was there..

- thirdly, acting as a spiritual support doesnt means that i wont rule out her in the future.. maybe in the past, i was naive to think that she will be my future partner.. but now is the time to move on.. if she have found hers, i will gladly give my blessings to her.. who knows, maybe i find mine in poly (hahahahaha) or in the working world..

7 yrs is not a short time.. but i find it ironic that in the bible, God also say that a slave can only work for his master for 7 years before he is free.. or how about this, a debt is to be clear by the 7th yr or it will deem void?? haha, just joking.. dont link it, if not all relationship can only last for 7 yrs..

Letting go after 7 years

im writing this post with a heavy heart.. but the blow is not that hard as i have pondered about it for quite a long time..

i decided to let go a person whom i hold so dearly for 7 years.. if there is a reason to give, i cant find a reason.. but i find that for a relationship to grow, there should be give and take.. and it also take two hands to clap.. both are not present in this relationship.. firstly, i find myself giving all this while.. and secondly, i send 10 emails to her, none replied.. thirdly, she say she want to have fellowship, i tried to get her msn address to chat with her when she was in overseas, also no answer.. i did tried to call her, but trying to find a topic to talk was hopeless for me..

if people were reading this post that im foolish.. i have every reason to argue back.. firstly i only go in a relationship which is the first and the final.. what for go for so many? gain experience or going 'shopping'? secondly, financially stable.. if you go on a date, money for dinner, movie comes from your own pocket or parents' hard-earned money?

i have shared this with some of my friends.. when she is in overseas, she is another person.. but back in singapore, she will take me as a spiritual support.. if she have any chance to read upon my blog.. only words to say to her is, if im still regarded as your spiritual support.. i will gladly be one, that all.. nothing more nothing less.. i better make a stand or else i will be taken for a free ride.. yes, i do know that im not in a state to go into a relationship.. but i do not wish to wait in such a way the blow will be harder and a much bitter pill to swallow..

Trusting face

im feeling very amused right now.. do i really have a look of trusting face? or did my forehead got write, "trusting guy!!"??

haven even know my colleagues well enough, one of them tell me a secret.. she still add in this disclaimer, "dont worry, the others donno.. you are the first.." sure or not, i give her the benefit of doubt..

is like there are some details i didnt even think or want to ask, it will just fall onto my laps prefectly.. but there are some questions which i want the answers, till now still no answers.. how ironic..

First day of work

Tuesday was my first day of work.. understudy as i get to learn the ropes.. tired and muscle ache due to long holiday at home.. haha.. NS do nothing mah.. sit down stay with dog and sleep..

slowly i get the hang of the work through the last 2 days plus today.. my body also slowly adapting to the work load.. and also good thing was i get to know my colleagues fast and able to enjoy the working environment, if not i will be very lonely.. haha..

oh ya, by the way, before the first day of work, the person who interviewed me say i need to multi-task.. the words are good to hear.. but i was wrong.. i need to do 3 person's work and i only got paid for one person's work.. hai.. now i know why there are still so many people who are jobless..

New chapter of life

Today first day of work.. i take some emotional lugguage with me in the first step on the corporate world regarding about the previous post..

the punishment i received is double.. the pain is double.. and the time to erase the pain also double.. hai..

at least im better now.. the previous post, i was thinking of where is my happiness, my smile, my carefree mind, etc.. so you all could imagine how bad it was.. hai..

hopefully the new chapter of my life will able to let me lessen the emotional lugguage, ease the pain, and forget the past.. but the scar lingered.. =/

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sigh.. yesterday night cannot sleep.. donno why.. every few hours wake up and eyes will stare blankly at the ceiling.. even today go for work also dont feel tired, but very restless..

the space around me seem closer and closer.. im grasping for fresh air around me.. but all i find is rope on my neck, people crowding around me expecting me something which i donno what is it..

last weekend went to church, i felt very at ease and very peaceful as if something heavy have lifted off my shoulders.. but after a few days, the peace is no longer there.. i feel so lost..

i wanted to shout to get some attention, but my mouth is gagged.. i need help, but it deserted me.. i want it my own way, but it goes the other way.. i want a listening ear, but advise and scoldings are upon me..

i did promised to myself that i wont ask anyone for help anymore if not, it will only sink me deeper into oblivion and also escaping the problem.. why i didnt saw the escape route earlier, im now on highway, on the route to death..

dont ask me what is it.. for my mouth will never speak out what i have done.. it will remain in my heart, my mind, and a lesson learnt till the day im gone..

no other people are involved in it.. is my full responsibility that i started it and i shall be the one to end it.. but i cant take it anymore.. im tired, i want a rest, but i cant..

only hope i have is, for the month of August to end..

alone in despair.......................................

sign off with a heavy sigh, with a troubled mind plus a reluctant heart..

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eating snake at the moment, using my friend's office computer to blog..

wah.. i find this world very practical sia.. yesterday sent out 10 resumes.. and only 1 replied.. thurs interview.. hai.. have to wear formal liao.. have to bring relevant documents to secure the job even though the caller didnt specifically mentioned it..

even though im working part time at the moment, the income supplement is not enough.. $5 per hr.. and is only a few days per week.. that why i need to find a full time job.. i need to refresh my memories what i have learn in ite is fully forgotten in the 2 yrs of NS.. argh.. going to do some crash course in accounting..

IMF/World Bank in Singapore

woohoo.. im not involved in the world bank.. hahaha.. phew.. i have been dreading for the call for days.. kind of acted too fast in applying for it..

now i can concentrate of securing a full time job while working part time for my tuition teacher at the moment..

Missed Blacky

i miss blacky!! i dont think other dogs can replace him in my heart already..

i miss his whining..
i miss his salute upon command..
i miss his one kind of attitude when giving commands to him.. he will give a 'hack-care' attitude but will still do it.. haha..
i miss his car-sickness that he will vomit in the car everytime.. and im not complaining that i have to clean up the mess..
i miss his loyalty that he only listen to the handler's command and not other people..
i miss his way of greeting people.. stick out his arms to shake hand without fail..

when i first take him, only a few people know that this dog was first handled by Chee Kok Jin.. after passing out from the basic handling course, more and more people get to know him and love him until the dog trial.. after that, everyone all knows him.. i dont even mind he is taking all the credit.. he deserve it after all.. he is way too special.. he shouldnt have let us handle him in the first place.. only special people like Chee Kok Jin deserve to handle him.. i dont deserve to handle him.. i merely taking care of him all this while..

Life in K-9 (74)

hai.. Blacky go back to HQ to be trained by the kennel hand.. but somehow the person who come and take the dog back is none other than Chee Kok Jin.. i dont think Blacky will be hand over to the kennel hand permanently.. but merely handle him just to take the handling allowance.. haha.. whatever the actual reason is, i believe that Blacky will still be under the care of Chee Kok Jin..

im having a mixed feeling right now.. one is sad, as though someone whom you with together for the last 1 and 1/2 yrs, suddenly just leave you without notice or answer.. the pain is there.. but hope through working will able to ease the pain.. another one is happy that in a way or another, Blacky is back to the rightful owner..

today i thought i can ord peacefully.. thought can get IC and go out celebrate.. but to my horror, i have to go back again tomorrow just to collect the IC.. not only that, today went 3 places.. SOC, K-9 HQ and changi base.. just to collect signatures.. pengz.. but at least tomorrow i can go and collect my IC with peace..

ORD

some great news to announced..

1) ORD lor!! =p

2) Blacky wont be going back to HQ as the kennels there are full with those new dogs coming in.. will go back one of these days to see him and give him a good scrub.. he on holiday so song until no one want to bathe him.. ee, blacky smelly!!

3) had a heart to heart talk with someone who have not been very good terms with him since TRACOM.. found out that the things i did in HQ that spread to other sub bases were like a forest fire.. well, you all know what happened when i transfer to changi sub base.. no one give me the chance to redeem for what i did in HQ.. i earned back the chance in these 7 months in changi base.. i pull out the fire on my own.. and proved them wrong.. and also say to them, "dont believe in gossips!! it move people to prove them wrong all the more.if you want to know the person from the start, start afresh and dont listen from gossips and make judgement!!" this lesson doesnt learn from book one hor!!

Cab fare increased

2 weeks have gone since the cab fare increase, and i only took 4 times.. and i dont want to take.. die die also not taking.. yeah, i know that Singapore cab fare is the lowest compared to Hong Kong, London.. but im not working.. why should i be the one that is paying for the cab diesel cost..

i rather wake up early, take a bus or the train, add in some sweat-smelling armpits that struck in front of me, to my destination..

let do some calculation.. say we take the maximum transport expenses of $4.. $2 to office, another $2 back home.. 1 month is about $120..

taxi.. "uncle, changi!!" uncle hear already, grin from face to face.. reach destination, uncle's bright white teeth showing you and say, "kao liao.. $10.. thank you! eh, want me to fetch you to and fro everyday? hehehe.." one month can help him pay his cab rental and diesel liao.. $300..

if i reject uncle's offer, and instead opt to save about $180.. what do you think the uncle will say?

i give up on friendster liao.. hai.. add friends but the number of friends still the same or will be lesser by the day..

Happy Birthday 2006

right.. happy birthday.. a day of celebration and happiness.. but to me, i find this day normal leh.. haha.. maybe i miss the boat of celebration 2 yrs back.. other than that is pretty mundane to me..

Overall experience in NS

As at this time, i hereby announced that im an ORD personnel.. hehehe..

2 yrs of National Service.. im finally a man.. hahaha..

6 months of Physical Training in TRACOM, 1 1/2 yrs in Dog Unit.. learn alot of things where books cant teach.. im happy that my last days in Dog Unit was happy memories.. but sad to leave Blacky.. now im hoping they wont take Blacky back to HQ.. if not, i will never have the chance to see him again..

Dollar and Sense

Yesterday watched the debut episode of Dollar and Sense, hosted by Bryan Wong.. this is a game show where 4 celebrities have the same amount of money which they can invest.. as times goes by, they face some difficulties like big problem, small problem, bankrupt or good news..

as a person who went through a course where money is mattered in ite, these are tips to be shared.. there is only one lesson that i shared but yet never applied on my own.. =/

1) dont apply for credit card.. the interest is the highest among housing loan, car loan..

2) in case of emergency, you must have at least 3-6 months of savings..

3) the lowest risk and lowest investment is fixed deposit.. this is the one that i had shared before.. but didnt applied because i dont have the minimum savings that required for the fixed deposit.. i remember got one newspaper report saying that now alot of elderly people are putting their savings in fixed deposit just to earn interest.. shake leg also got interest coming in.. eh, can share some interest to me.. i no money leh.. hehehe

4) if want to buy a car, make sure your salary is above 2k.. eh, i think i go and sleep and dream about it.. hai.. when is this dream going to be granted..

5) want to save, save more than 50% of your salary if can.. this is the most difficult lesson people can ever applied in life.. im not excluded as well.. but because of my family problems, i have to help them.. unless you are high-flier like some celebrities or businessman.. you never know when is the rain will come.. think for yourself instead of the materialistic things that you intend to get..

for me, as long as there is shoes, clothes to wear, food to eat, bed to sleep.. im contended.. i dont care how outside people look at me.. even handphone also want to gone case, i not complaining either.. my intention now is go through the storm with my family..i cant blame my family for the cause that they have gone through..i can only trust God who deliver.. the tips that i given is 100% harmless.. it will definitely come in handy..

Moonlighting

jobs are all out there to find.. in the internet, in the newspaper.. apply through agencies..

but the job im currently doing is slave work for my tuition teacher friend because i could only work until end of Aug.. after which, the World Bank Conference in sep, i will somehow be there.. not as a policeman or reservist.. hahah.. only certain people know.. think will surprise my former colleagues in the dog unit.. hehehe..

only then, im free to work outside.. this is what i call bumming around.. haha.. from helping my tuition teacher to world bank conference to outside job..

minci, i donno what job you looking for.. maybe i can help you.. only thing i cant help is resume.. is damn hard to write lor.. hai..

the last 2 weeks are hell to me.. watch world cup then go to work.. off days also go and work.. then i think it to myself, "wah, if like that work, i dont have time for myself.. no no.. cannot.." after that, discuss with my tuition teacher friend..

Tuition Teacher

few days back, i went to see a teacher who is currently teaching at a tuition agency as i was looking for a job, hence on the way meet up with her..

the last time i saw her was like in year 2001.. i donno her age but she is in clubbing scene since the first day i know her at a private school.. she look totally different now leh.. my curiousity overwhelms and somehow the conversation goes like this..

Me: "wah, so long never see you, you change alot.."

she: "Ya, you also what.."

Me: -___- "ya ya.. but i dont think you teach until stress and your look change overnight.."

she: "no lah.. you know that i was in clubbing, right? aiya, just say that, too much clubbing ruin my youth..."

me: "huh.. i dont get you.. "

she: "personal problems lah.. then went to pub to drown my sorrow lor.. drink too much, that why i look quite terrible now.."

me: "orh.. binge drinking.."

she: "yeah.. sigh......... dont learn from me.. you still look quite young despite your age is 23.."

me: "wah pian, always meet up kana suan.. never suan me one day cannot one leh.."

she is one example where in the newspaper reports that girls are on the rise of binge drinking.. nowadays, girls dont really look like their age have stated.. but look over-matured.. just walk down the street, i can see guys and girls walking together in a relationship, my impression of that couple would be, "is that girl his sister or what? or the guy is her brother??"

i donno whether i should count my youth as a blessing or not.. =/

Looking for jobs

Now looking for jobs at the moment.. make some phone calls, send some emails.. Basket, all calls and mails come in at the same time, at the same day.. and ask me for an appointment at the same time, at the same day which is tomorrow.. what the hell.. eh, i cant appear like 2 places at a time, provided i have a person who look exactly like me, or i have a clone machine.. that wont be a problem..

World Cup 2006

World cup is here again.. held in germany from jun 9 - jul 9.. 32 teams fight over for the ultimate prize.. think will create another blog for it..

here is the address: http://cool402-worldcup06-germany.blogspot.com/

Dog Handler Required

hai.. my request is denied yet again.. sigh..

WANTED: A dog handler who is able to maintain or better still, improve Blacky's obedience..

REQUIREMENT: Top 5 in Dog Assessment every year.. (this one not i say one, is the mdm from changi base..)

INFO on knowing the dog better: Ask Chee Kok Jin or myself.. wahahaha..

this dog has already earn a place in my heart.. dont think any dog or any person can take away this place..

SI Chee's Retirement

today went for SI Chee's retirement dinner.. though my request for him to handle Blacky is rejected, but at least i give him a gift that is dear to him.. a photo of Blacky..

i still harboured the hope that he can still handle Blacky.. im not giving up the hope..

Life in K-9 (73)

wahahaa.. i just couldnt help it.. i dont have anything to post at the moment as i already in ORD mood.. productivity is already in mid level after the dog trial.. even worse when it comes to jun.. completely no productivity already..

this morning, saw a snake at the DO office.. donno how it come in.. but we have a fun time catching it, we still managed to catch it with a dog catcher pole..

other than that.. nothing liao.. so the next posting will post when the blue moon comes.. ahhaha..

Dog Trial Competition

dog trial results was abit unexpected.. think quite alot of people was expecting my dog and another dog's name Jack to be the champion.. but alas, it was not to be.. is another case of underdog to be the champion once again.. i got third overall..

at least i dare to say i try my best liao.. i try my best not to let Blacky know that im nervous.. took deep breath and did the whole exercise.. i lose to a better handler, that all..

now i can ORD in a peace of mind.. but i doubt about my DY-CO about the promise that i requested.. this is one request i would like to fight for it before i ORD..

Life in K-9 (72)

long time never blog leh.. been busy lately.. just to take time out for a break..

i have make a request to my unit DY-CO that Blacky to be hand over to the very first handler to take care of him.. firstly, is because of the respect i have for the handler.. secondly, is because whenever i went back for In-service, he will always ask how is Blacky.. lol.. and also partly is because i find that the SC nowadays just take the dog for granted.. i feel that i have completed my duties in taking care of the dog that he once attached to and also in a way, improve Blacky's weakness.. in this coming dog trial, i hope to do my very best and present him the best present ever.. whatever the outcome, i will grab it as a bonus to me.. the handler is none other than SI Chee..

secondly, i find my posting from HQ to Changi Base is a blessing in disguise (again).. if i still staying in my current team in HQ, i dont think i will survive mainly is because of those reshuffling of manpower in between those 4 teams.. Changi Base is, as long as you are happy with the team that you are in, no reshuffling is needed..

in these 1 1/2 yrs that i in dog unit.. i learned alot of things that textbook will not provide us with.. human relationship, leadership qualities are put to the test every day, every hour.. there is no point in showing your stubborness when management at the top want to make a change.. and as a basic manner in human relationship, there should be at least a "give-and-take" attitude.. and not just show the ranks that those people are holding.. there is no way you can please anyone but as long as you have your own kakis.. the environment might be a better place to work in..

will blog more about it later..

Freak accident

i dont think anyone will believe that Blacky accidentally bite people.. but it's true, and it just happened to be a freak accident.. one of the trainer act as a baitor and let Blacky bit on a sleeve.. and Blacky bit on the spot where the sleeve have no cover.. the wound was quite deep.. i was kind of feeling bad about it..

after that, we did some obedience exercises using tennis balls as a guideline.. and i found out that Blacky's bite is getting harder and harder.. one of the tennis ball was on the verge of been bitten off and have his bite marks very deep obviously..

Friendster

Friendster damn sucks.. upload photo yet upload so many and now i have to delete those extra copies.. i donno why they want to put so many things in.. from a simple add-friends site to a rubbish chute site.. got mtv, videos to upload, horoscopes, classifieds jobs to look for, testimonials now becoming more funky.. what next..

i heard they are coming up with friendster radio stations.. and post private photos!?!? erm, whatever.. i just want a simple Friendster website, tat's all.. is that hard to do meh??

Pre Dog Trial

11th May.. Dog Trial..

just gone back to HQ for refresher.. all the people are speculating that i might get the top prize.. haha.. i dont think so.. i dont even dare to think so far ahead.. initially i just want a pass on my assessment, that all.. to get into top 5 is a bonus and also Johnny's way of assessing.. i didnt bribe him for goodness sake.. i dont think i stand to gain anything from it..

hai, after this week's refresher and gone back to sub base, i have to put in extra effort during my shift work to train Blacky for the big day.. not too much or else Blacky dont want to do on the day itself.. it will be very malu..

Draw a pig

http://www.freaknfunny.com/files/upload/draw-a-pig.swf

try this, guys.. you have to draw a pig and answer 6 questions.. and you will know the personality through drawing the pig..

this is my results..

-Toward the middle of the frame, you are a realist.
-Facing left, you believe in tradition, are friendly, and remembering dates (birthdays etc)
-With few details, you are emotional and naive, you care little for details and are a risk-taker
-With 4 legs showing, you are secure, stubborn, and stick to your own ideals.
-The size of the ears indicates how good a listener you are. You are a good listener.
-The length of the tail indicates the quality of your sex life. You have a poor sex life.

quite true leh.. hehe..

Eight Below

watched eight below this afternoon.. all i can say is that, if the actor were to be me, i will also do the same as what the actor did.. the bond is there.. i will risk the dangers just to save them.. just that the ending abit sad.. should have all 8 dogs been saved will have a nice ending..

recently, i did some mental calculation about how much i use per month.. i was shocked when i saw the figure.. its about 800++++.. i think i need to cut down the costs liao..

things to cut down :-
- transport (especially taxis)
- entertainment ( movies, pool..)

by cutting down on these 2 things, i think i able to save about 300 dollars per month.. in 3 months time, i dont even have any ns allowance coming in.. lucky got the progress package.. hope the money can tide me through while looking for a part time job..

Life in K-9 (71)

i was not prepared for the good news that mdm have in store for me.. Blacky is in the up coming dog trial.. and come out top for this year assessment.. i was flattered to hear that.. now im more prone to anxiety attacks as the dog trial is just round the corner..

and i also know who is the one that tag my message board as "A" : "Try lah".. guess i have underestimated her.. i refrain from saying anything.. think those who read my blog will know who is it..

Driving in the rain

hai.. i hate the weather.. when i want bad weather, they give me hot and humid weather.. when i want hot weather, they give me cold weather instead.. never once in my driving, i ever have a bad weather to drive in.. not even when i went for driving lesson.. not even when im driving when im on duty.. the most i got is a light drizzle.. not heavy rain that last for a few hours..

i love driving during a heavy downpour.. i donno why.. but i just love it.. maybe i drive too long in the sun, and the glare is getting sick of it..