Unreasonable Warehouse co-ordinator

first time show face, ok, nvm.. second time show face, i begin to doubt already..

what the use of asking people to pass msg when im the one who is doing it?? i wonder if my colleagues like to do that in the first place?? by doing so, it only create more confusion and misunderstanding.. though it's not happening at the moment, but i believe it will..

now i dont have the enthusiasm in working anymore..

Working world

hai.. look like what i learned in NS is not forgotten in the working world..

- never ever trust anyone.. this rule is only exception to some people..

- politics exist.. yes, but i dont play..

- never treat everyone as friends.. this rule have draw the line very clearly.. once work is over, that it..

breaking the ice in my working place is like the ice is made of diamond.. that is how difficult it is until recently.. the common topics are......guy topics!! lol!! 10 hours of endless talking.. from the moment i step in to work till i step out of work.. my mouth is damn tired lor.. somehow i just show them a games list that is coming out soon and the ice is broken.. i use the wrong weapon to break it.. =/

by the way, im going to change the status of the co-ordinator that i need to report to as the admin staff.. hehehe..

Different personalities

argh.. two contrasting worlds of working personalities.. different wavelength of frequency.. one end to another end and im stuck in the middle.. instructions given from both sides, im the one who is confused right from the start.. who to listen? the one that is in charge? or the one that is helping out at the moment?

i dont want to go into details about it.. there are some things that people doesnt want me to know.. fine with it.. but im definitely not naive to go and believe it.. the way people express themselves and the body language gives it away.. im just turning a blind eye or deaf ear to it..

Funny warehouse executive

there is some incidents which i intend to blog about it but was totally forgotten about it until recently.. all these happened during the 3 days where the co-ordinator went on cruise.. anyone recall that i have to report to another co-ordinator.. today post will be all on her.. wahahaha..

all i can say is she is good to bully, child-like behaviour and a priceless expression..

i dont think i need to say about good to bully as it is very obvious.. 6 of us bullying her during the 3 days in charge..

priceless expression: every day, for these 3 days, the quantity of the books is not tallied..and everyday i have to tell her.. by the end of the 3rd day, she gives an expression which is priceless!!

child-like behaviour: ok, she wants it fast and accurate.. no OT.. and i was surprised that the dept give us the books during the 3 days was like all come up at one shot.. i was alone and doing it myself while my colleagues was doing some cleaning.. and the next thing i knew, she and my supervisor come and help.. so i take a short break and stand there, watch them doing when something caught my eyes..

just imagine.. she was sitting down on a moveable chair, with books on her laps and use both hands to tap on the books (the action was like playing piano).. i was stunned and when she realise that i was watching her doing that action, i quickly turned my head away trying to control my laughter..

got 2 more points to add, i find that i have a great working chemistry with her.. she doesnt have to say anything and i know what she wants me to do..

basically i have to communicate with her if i have any problems at work, hence i have her contact no.. imagine when i get to know her nickname.. i disturb her through sms sia.. hahaha..

but i dont think i will last long in this job.. currently there are 5 of us.. 2 of them is waiting for NS.. if 1 leave, still manageable.. if both gone, i will follow them..

Bond building

i feel that my supervisor is either trying to be funny with us or want to make us angry..

he told us that if very busy, he will ask one of us to help.. but in the end, he call other sections to help.. Saturday is a perfect example.. we already agreed that we will do it all and finish it all as a team.. but instead he call one from other section to help.. and this section is starting to busy with those packing.. and they have not finish it.. what the heck? i wish to say some more about this particular girl from the packing section but on the other hand, i decided to keep it within our team..

since the incident, i find more comfortable working with my team than from other sections.. maybe the bond is starting to build up..

and lastly, the way some people treat me, i will treat back the same way back to these people..

Implemented working plans

did i mentioned that the working environment situation was solved DURING the co-ordinator's cruise??

our team have a discussion about it during meal time.. and i was surprised to see her asking me when she was back.. since she ask me, i just told her lor.. ok, maybe i was harsh in the conversation, i apologised for that.. the very next day, to my horror, show me faces.. that very minute, i dont give a damn anymore..

i shall give a better scenerio about my working environment..

in the morning, other departments will bring up small quantities of books.. i still can manage on my own, take my own sweet time to finish until lunch time.. if other sections were to come and help, i will have a lot of free time.. is like you want to savour an exotic food for all the time that you want, but the moment you turn around, the food is no longer there.. the help that i need is permanent.. not as and when others see it fit to do it..

after lunch time is a nightmare.. the dept will bring up large amount of books.. that where i need help already..

one thing my colleagues all agree on was the time management.. it really sucks.. anyway, the situation is more clear cut now.. if the quantities is really alot, then they will come and help after lunch time.. if is small amount, then they will do their own things.. through trials and tribulations, my colleagues and i have a better understanding on our individual duties..

but we cant wait for the day to come when the evil plan shall come into play..

Middlemen

look like my colleagues are in for a tough time.. they have to pass messages between me and the co-ordinator..

since this incident, the co-ordinator have the intention to ask my colleagues to do what im currently doing.. but the funny thing is, my supervisor's instructions overrule it.. so is practically back to me again..

my colleagues and i have an evil plan in mind.. hahaha.. will not disclose about it.. but waiting for the prefect time to carry out..

Working arrangements

just by stating some facts on work, i pay a price for it..

- heard from my colleague that i was rude to other colleagues.. ok.. i accepted the comment before adding on that in the midst of working, they come in and ask me what to do.. but they know how to do..

- when i need help in work, the help is not there.. when i no need help, other sections will come and help.. before i voice out, i was working alone.. the work required at least 2 persons to do in order to meet the deadline..

by voicing out, the only consolation that i got from my supervisor is the help will be mobilised within our team if i cant do it alone.. and not from other sections.. im actually quite happy with the arrangements..

want to know what consequences i got by voicing out??

a standoff with a full time co-ordinator..

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Bless me that i wont go mad tomorrow..

Bless me tomorrow that i wont go mad..

Hope i wont go mad tomorrow, bless me!!

Hope tomorrow i wont go mad, bless me!!

i think im really go mad now.. =/

IMF/World Bank Meetings

hello.. im still here.. im blogging right now.. im playing computer games now.. im chatting with my friends online right now..

why everyone asking me why im not involved in the IMF? ask the government lah.. ask me for what.. kao..

if im really involved in it, i will not be here blogging.. i will not be working as well.. i will be in Suntec area from last Sat onwards..

who want to go and secure the place for 2 weeks without going home?? who wants this kind of job?? pls inform me, and i will have ways to tell the government that someone will like to do this job in the future..

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argh.. i find it very funny interacting with people.. when i tell the truth, no one will believe.. when i tell a lie, the whole world believe... wth.. hai.. my expression of bewildered eyes said it all..

look like im a person who no one understand.. the way i work, the way i talk, whatever the way i do..

- im a person who is easy going.. really.. as long as it is within my limits, i will help all the way..

- when "push" by people, i still can accept.. i give some leeway.. but when come to shove, the person will be out of my radar.. "once bitten twice shy", this saying will be permanently on my mind..

- whatever i do, i do it fast.. i dont like to idle till the last min and rush things through, purposely just to pull down the pants and get others screwed..

- if something is going to happening according to my gut feeling, dont freak out when it indeed happen.. and dont even say im oversensitive or jump to conclusions.. i cant explain why i able to do it.. dont ask me.. i can only say that it's either a curse or a gift..

- if you all want to make fun of me, or joke about me till the cows come home, go ahead.. dont just because of my look, you all freak out.. as long as it doesnt involve my family directly.. i will definitely appreciated the jokes and the fun, be it cold jokes or just pure fun..

any more questions that want to know more about me.. ask, and i will gladly answer..

Clarifications

wait.. some clarifications to avoid misunderstanding..

- firstly, i dont considered the previous post as a personal problem to me.. my only personal problem, i will not disclosed no matter what.. some things are better left unsaid..

- secondly, i did not blame anyone or point any finger.. it just that the essential ingredients for the relationship isnt there.. communication, trust and faith.. none was there..

- thirdly, acting as a spiritual support doesnt means that i wont rule out her in the future.. maybe in the past, i was naive to think that she will be my future partner.. but now is the time to move on.. if she have found hers, i will gladly give my blessings to her.. who knows, maybe i find mine in poly (hahahahaha) or in the working world..

7 yrs is not a short time.. but i find it ironic that in the bible, God also say that a slave can only work for his master for 7 years before he is free.. or how about this, a debt is to be clear by the 7th yr or it will deem void?? haha, just joking.. dont link it, if not all relationship can only last for 7 yrs..

Letting go after 7 years

im writing this post with a heavy heart.. but the blow is not that hard as i have pondered about it for quite a long time..

i decided to let go a person whom i hold so dearly for 7 years.. if there is a reason to give, i cant find a reason.. but i find that for a relationship to grow, there should be give and take.. and it also take two hands to clap.. both are not present in this relationship.. firstly, i find myself giving all this while.. and secondly, i send 10 emails to her, none replied.. thirdly, she say she want to have fellowship, i tried to get her msn address to chat with her when she was in overseas, also no answer.. i did tried to call her, but trying to find a topic to talk was hopeless for me..

if people were reading this post that im foolish.. i have every reason to argue back.. firstly i only go in a relationship which is the first and the final.. what for go for so many? gain experience or going 'shopping'? secondly, financially stable.. if you go on a date, money for dinner, movie comes from your own pocket or parents' hard-earned money?

i have shared this with some of my friends.. when she is in overseas, she is another person.. but back in singapore, she will take me as a spiritual support.. if she have any chance to read upon my blog.. only words to say to her is, if im still regarded as your spiritual support.. i will gladly be one, that all.. nothing more nothing less.. i better make a stand or else i will be taken for a free ride.. yes, i do know that im not in a state to go into a relationship.. but i do not wish to wait in such a way the blow will be harder and a much bitter pill to swallow..

Trusting face

im feeling very amused right now.. do i really have a look of trusting face? or did my forehead got write, "trusting guy!!"??

haven even know my colleagues well enough, one of them tell me a secret.. she still add in this disclaimer, "dont worry, the others donno.. you are the first.." sure or not, i give her the benefit of doubt..

is like there are some details i didnt even think or want to ask, it will just fall onto my laps prefectly.. but there are some questions which i want the answers, till now still no answers.. how ironic..

First day of work

Tuesday was my first day of work.. understudy as i get to learn the ropes.. tired and muscle ache due to long holiday at home.. haha.. NS do nothing mah.. sit down stay with dog and sleep..

slowly i get the hang of the work through the last 2 days plus today.. my body also slowly adapting to the work load.. and also good thing was i get to know my colleagues fast and able to enjoy the working environment, if not i will be very lonely.. haha..

oh ya, by the way, before the first day of work, the person who interviewed me say i need to multi-task.. the words are good to hear.. but i was wrong.. i need to do 3 person's work and i only got paid for one person's work.. hai.. now i know why there are still so many people who are jobless..

New chapter of life

Today first day of work.. i take some emotional lugguage with me in the first step on the corporate world regarding about the previous post..

the punishment i received is double.. the pain is double.. and the time to erase the pain also double.. hai..

at least im better now.. the previous post, i was thinking of where is my happiness, my smile, my carefree mind, etc.. so you all could imagine how bad it was.. hai..

hopefully the new chapter of my life will able to let me lessen the emotional lugguage, ease the pain, and forget the past.. but the scar lingered.. =/

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sigh.. yesterday night cannot sleep.. donno why.. every few hours wake up and eyes will stare blankly at the ceiling.. even today go for work also dont feel tired, but very restless..

the space around me seem closer and closer.. im grasping for fresh air around me.. but all i find is rope on my neck, people crowding around me expecting me something which i donno what is it..

last weekend went to church, i felt very at ease and very peaceful as if something heavy have lifted off my shoulders.. but after a few days, the peace is no longer there.. i feel so lost..

i wanted to shout to get some attention, but my mouth is gagged.. i need help, but it deserted me.. i want it my own way, but it goes the other way.. i want a listening ear, but advise and scoldings are upon me..

i did promised to myself that i wont ask anyone for help anymore if not, it will only sink me deeper into oblivion and also escaping the problem.. why i didnt saw the escape route earlier, im now on highway, on the route to death..

dont ask me what is it.. for my mouth will never speak out what i have done.. it will remain in my heart, my mind, and a lesson learnt till the day im gone..

no other people are involved in it.. is my full responsibility that i started it and i shall be the one to end it.. but i cant take it anymore.. im tired, i want a rest, but i cant..

only hope i have is, for the month of August to end..

alone in despair.......................................

sign off with a heavy sigh, with a troubled mind plus a reluctant heart..

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eating snake at the moment, using my friend's office computer to blog..

wah.. i find this world very practical sia.. yesterday sent out 10 resumes.. and only 1 replied.. thurs interview.. hai.. have to wear formal liao.. have to bring relevant documents to secure the job even though the caller didnt specifically mentioned it..

even though im working part time at the moment, the income supplement is not enough.. $5 per hr.. and is only a few days per week.. that why i need to find a full time job.. i need to refresh my memories what i have learn in ite is fully forgotten in the 2 yrs of NS.. argh.. going to do some crash course in accounting..

IMF/World Bank in Singapore

woohoo.. im not involved in the world bank.. hahaha.. phew.. i have been dreading for the call for days.. kind of acted too fast in applying for it..

now i can concentrate of securing a full time job while working part time for my tuition teacher at the moment..

Missed Blacky

i miss blacky!! i dont think other dogs can replace him in my heart already..

i miss his whining..
i miss his salute upon command..
i miss his one kind of attitude when giving commands to him.. he will give a 'hack-care' attitude but will still do it.. haha..
i miss his car-sickness that he will vomit in the car everytime.. and im not complaining that i have to clean up the mess..
i miss his loyalty that he only listen to the handler's command and not other people..
i miss his way of greeting people.. stick out his arms to shake hand without fail..

when i first take him, only a few people know that this dog was first handled by Chee Kok Jin.. after passing out from the basic handling course, more and more people get to know him and love him until the dog trial.. after that, everyone all knows him.. i dont even mind he is taking all the credit.. he deserve it after all.. he is way too special.. he shouldnt have let us handle him in the first place.. only special people like Chee Kok Jin deserve to handle him.. i dont deserve to handle him.. i merely taking care of him all this while..