Life in TRACOM (6)

yes!! yes!! shoot 2 frames in one week..and both got marksman..hahahaha..but is in toa payoh range..got laser wor..haha..sigh..but the last frame is the final test and is held in PA..hai..donno lah..dont wish to think so much..hope all will turn out will be good..

nowadays i feel that im getting childish..haha..maybe is because i dont want to encounter any more "JOE" in my phrase of life..once is enough..but somehow, this personality will always stick with me wherever i go especially my squad mates..what they say to you can be very hurting, you just feel like slapping them, punching them....argh..and in some ways, i ignored their comments, and they return this commment, "eh..why you so petty?" i was like, "aiya..cant be bothered with you all..just want to provoke me with this kind of comments..try harder next time.." but in my mind, it hurts alot..having build this trust among the squad suddenly been backstabbed isnt a nice feeling to deal with.. to me, if you want to tell something to me..tell me straight in the face..not beat around the bush then stuck your dick up my ass..

about the gal, hmm..not much of development..still waiting for her to give me her hp no..hahaha..hopefully she will give.. today book out..saw her at the bus stop..but didnt identify myself to her because my squad mates was there..didnt want to create a high profile out of nothing considered that she was the "no. 1" in my training ground..

but i have definitely given up on another girl whom i have pursued for the last 4 yrs i should say..my fault from the start..hopefully i have learnt my history lesson and not to commit it again..

Life in TRACOM (5)

sorry for not updating for a long time..computer down again..and have to reformat..sian..all files are gone and have to dl again..sigh..

hey hey..i finally got to know one of them in a low profile manner..hehe..i hope my squad mates doesnt know about it..

she is the one that most guys will like to know..but thanks one of her squad mate who happened to be my sec school classmate who help me to get to know her..

the new intake is here..and yesterday do sentry saw a number of them report sick..some of them as if got heat stroke and some of them take off the shoes as if they got blisters or bruises..kao..one of them even get 3 days mc because of pulled muscles..wah..not even 10 days yet..they get to go back home liao..and i 10 days also never got it..chao kin kings..

argh..my shooting is getting from bad to worse..we have to shoot 7 frames and already shoot 4 frames..2 pass 2 fail..how to get marksman like that..hai..sad sad..

physical wise..is getting slacker and slacker..my instructor got course so he ask other instructors to tire us out..and we realise that our instructor gives us the harshest physical training than other instructors..the others PT got no kick at all..no sweat even..sian..hai..wish for our instructor to come back quickly..

Life in TRACOM (4)

time indeed flies very fast..now already 7th week..still got 13 weeks to go before POP..and next week got new intake coming in..haha..can suan them liao..when they come in and we march pass them..we shout, "POPO!!!" as in left right left right... hehe..

leopards indeed never change its spots...my squad mates all slowly showing their true colours liao..and also starting to have some politics groups...malay with malay..chinese with chinese...

last week kanna confinement for 3 hours because the squad never march properly.. =/ some more is spotted by our CO-BTC (Commander of Basic Training Centre)...sian 1/2..

spotted some regulars very chio..haha..feel like knowing them but scared kanna high profile..few days ago..help a mdm who is the same age as me..MSO Elaine Seah..Ministry of Support Officer in TRACOM...kakaka..chio bu some more..

Life in TRACOM (3)

wow, long time never update liao..kaka..whose neck is very long now ah..haha..sorry guys, but my computer is down and have to change my display card and sound card..haha

ok, back to my ns life in police..activities is getting tougher and in a way gradually toning up the tempo...these 2 weeks i have learn alot of things..

such as sentry (guard duty for 24 hours) get to play with walkie talkie at night until dont want to play with it,

get to shoot a gun but never get marksman(sigh, but never mind, first time still got 6 more to go)

learn unarmed tactics..kaka..we have to shout "PULL BACK SIR" whenever we excuated a move..next week we will get to touch the T-baton...

my squad is really getting on to my nerves..one of them..his character is damn same as the one in my ite class..he smiles like him..make fun of people like him..only thing is that he is malay..but act like my ite classmate is none other than JOE..my nemesis..my squad make fun of him, he not happy..machim think he very mature like that..nearly got a fight with him..concidence? i dont know..

food in the police life is getting a bland taste in my mouth..same food every now and then..only once in awhile got some new taste to try it out..

now my whole squad all kanna cough and a few exception have flu..but i got the both of it.. =/ last wednesday after booking out went to see a doctor..i dont know why the waiting time was damn long as my booking in time is going to be late liao..so i fed up and tell the nurse that i want to cancel the appointment..

erm, i cant remember much liao..haha..got to refresh my memory before typing it in again..that all for today..got to enjoy myself while outside PA...

Life in TRACOM (2)

book out liao lor..kaka..this week quite alot of happenings sia..haha..sprained my ankle but not that bad lah..need to get it "push" tomorrow..and hopefully can walk, run, jump as per normal by sunday..wednesday i did book out but didnt update my blog because out for a few hrs then book in again..this is to let us have outside food once awhile.. but i didnt go out and eat..but come back and pack my things..

need to take a rest now..feeling drowsy liao..from the medicine that i take to cure my cough..

Randomness (7)

Saturday, 07/08/04
went to PS see I,robot..quite nice..before buying tickets, saw one of my bunk mates..lol, singapore is indeed small..he and his gf watching the village which he later comments not nice.. today i donno why my appetite so good, maybe is because of the training..hmm, went to fish & co. order a set meal, finish all..after the show, meet my friends for a game of pool..i lost most of the games because i very long never play liao..like a newbie..sigh..then went to have dinner alone before playing again, because my friends are playing so i dont want to disturb them..had chicken rice.. then come back and play again..
my friends ask where i go, then i say i have my dinner..then they say i never jio them..kao..nvm..after that i went back home and slp..very tired..book out never go home and rest..straight away go out and enjoy myself..lol

Sunday, 08/08/04
this morning never go to church..feeling abit sick..so never go..continue sleeping until in the afternoon before going to beach rd to buy stuff for police..again saw another of my bunk mates..yet never saw my squad mates..hmm..no fate i think..haha..then after that went to PS carrfour to buy starch and toileties..after that went to watch House of Flying Daggers..lol, the female character, no matter how you stab her, or hit her, she died for a few minutes before waking up again..tot she will finally died infront of the one she like, she wake up again..knn..overall ok lah..only that part leave a deep impression..haha..this show is just like Infernal Affairs show..someone be a mole in the good company(for those who haven watch, i think you will know the mole is who..just like in the Infernal Affairs..lol)

Life in TRACOM

woohoo..finally back home after 10 days of going through hell..first day damn boring..orientation, take uniform, clothes, PT kit, etc..until in the evening then can go to bunk and rest..haha..the food is catered by CIAS, which is under SIA..overall ok lah ah..haha..then hai, first day see mr ungentleman liao..sian 1/2..
then the second day which is wednesday, is the first day of confinement, torturing starts liao..pump push up until the last few days before going back home, we can do without any sweat..haha..serious..
the third day to today, the training relaxed as in the PT, so the FI(Field Instructor) trains us on our drill..the schedule is almost the same every day..wake up at 5.30am to clean up the bunk and to clean up the whole company(ECHO) then go for flag raising ceremony..after that, drill or PT..then breakfast, after that, drill..then lunch, lesson from 1 - 5..then lastly dinner..after that, we have our free time liao..

booking out feeling is damn shiok..never tasted outside food for 10 days, never see PRETTY girls for 10 days..hmm..later will go and enjoy my booking out session till monday..i will book in at 2130 hrs which is 0930pm..good ah..hahah

Randomness (6)

woohoo..botak liao..kaka..feeling abit weird leh..haha.. still got 4 more days before going to hell.. hai..these few days been offending alot of people due to family problem..to those who i have offend, sorry..is just that i facing all these problem and find it difficult to provide a good solution to my parents..sigh..

Beginning of family problems

woohoo..excatly one week to hell..sigh..donno how life gonna be when i in police..tough or relax as what my friend say? hmm..better to have a worst expectation than to have a expecatation that cant meet..

hai..these few days been solving problems for my family that i starting to get used to it..sigh..how to help my family once and for all..how to end their sufferings...i see them suffer, my heart hurts as well as they are afterall my parents..is also my responsibility to take care of them one day when they are old or sick or facing problems..

Problems solved another comes..when is it gonna to end?? sigh...~~~

Randomness (5)

Last two days been really busy that i have no time to blog..haha..

on thursday, go to esplanade library to meet my friend and teach her accounts..as she is weak in this subject and need my help to teach her..yup..that's all for thursday..

then on friday, which is yesterday, went out with my friends to eat, play pool and see movie..is been a while since i have play pool but after my friend comes, then i know how to play..haha..after that, went to cineleisure and see king arthur..storyline abit funny leh..but overall quite good..haha..that my review..and i came back home at 6 in the morning..my goodness..sigh..still feeling very sleepy as i blogging..kaka.. still got 10 days more before i go to police academy.. =/

Randomness (4)

ahhh..feeling much better now..haha..dont wish to talk about it either or blog it out..just treat it as a nightmare will do..haha..

hmm..slacking at home the whole day..sleep and sleep and sleep..never really bother about ns life in two weeks time..haha..donno why..dont wish to have expectations after all..or else will regret..so what if people say good choice, good life..is all crap once you get in..oh well..time to zzz liao..good night..kaka..

Randomness (3)

Go out and have sushi with my friends..damn..donno why my mood was very down..maybe is the dreams or other things..i donno..sigh..feel like crying..yes..crying..guys do cry..i mean c'mon on, guys do have a sentimental side of them.. no mood to blog..kao..

Weird dream

i had a weird dream that "she" has choosen another guy..and i saw it, i gone bonkers..wah..got so jia lat leh me.. i wake up breaking into cold sweats.. sigh..how come so coincidence one..my friend tell me to give up since i waited for "her" so long and this weird dream..mood is the lowest right now..argh..any professional girl can help me to solve this problem..kaka..

Key to freedom

My magical day had gone just 2 hrs ago..but these few days been getting some pleasant surprises..haha.. last saturday go to fish and co and eat with my buddies and one of my classmate's brother whom i invited along, ordered a chocolate ice-cream cum chocolate hot muffin for me,very nice and yummy... (free one lah) and sang birthday song.. then today also go and eat, for dinner with my buddies..think i really like their food or is it because of chio bu..haha..cannot be lor..'cause though im available but taken..kaka.. shit lah..i have to treat one of my buddy because he came late and no more food can be ordered...

then today, my friend give me her blog add..kaka..wah..see her blog from the day one until now, i know alot of her secrets..haha..but i promised her i will not link or in a way, publish her blog site here.. but hor, she say her class guys are all childish leh..wah..do someone(C.O.O.L) really that childish..not referring to "him" hor..hope you know who hor..hahaha..

Thank you to all my friends who sent me warm and nice greetings for my birthday..though not really a good day to begin because of rain, have to stay at home until in the late afternoon then go out..

After all the celebration and walk back home..not no money, but no bus liao..so have to slowly walk home from lavender mrt station..my friend ask me about relationship problem about "her"...i find it hard to answer as most of my friends are not in the same religion as me.. and they asking me to do things that isnt right in my conscience..like asking her out alone..i was like, "how can? isnt it better to go out in groups then we get to know more gals and know who is the one suitable for you?" sigh..speaking of this topic, i really sian 1/2..though i mentioned earlier that "she" was the one for me, im tired of waiting and also wanted to tell her how much i miss her... but i cant.. *sob sob*

back to a happy note, been 21 is an age of freedom..kaka..can do alot of things without parents' consent, but of course is legally lah..however i feel that im standing on the edge of the cliff..because once i do the wrong decision..that it..no more turning back unlike during the younger days where we did something wrong, we can still learn.. how i wish i could never grow up..just be a baby with all the attention that you want..

Happy Birthday 2004

Today went to have a birthday celebration..go to fish & co. to have dinner and got a pleasant surprise from my friend..nice surprise i should say..after dinner, went to ktv and sing..kaka..from 11pm sing until 4am.. wow..a great way to celebrate my 21th birthday..though still not the actually day yet..haha.. on this day..i will be unlocked and to the land of freedom where decisions and responsibility are in your hands.. will be patiently waiting for the big day to come..haha..

Smitten

Ever since i saw her in church last sunday, my mind was not on the right mood because of the speeding matter, but my heart was beating faster than normal rate..haha..she is the same old brand new "her".

Before she went for her further studies, she was the old "she". Two years on, she became a new "she" whom i cant recongise whenever she is back for holidays..but now is different..she is back to what she is two years ago..with a new self confidence look..kaka..

I just cant forget the way she smiles, she laughs, she talks, she touches her hair..man..how i wish it could replay in my memory over and over again.. remembering the first time we get to know each other, it was an awakward situation..thinking of it, it was hiliarious. And i still remember that i confessed to her even though we still donno each other quite well..and she claim that i was "weird and irritating"..this is one quote from her which i can never forget.

3 years, since i set my eyes on her, was a challenging moment. It was a mind blowing roller coaster ride that the friendship, to say the least, is at last come to effect.At times i thinking of giving up, but the feeling just came back stronger till i want to tell her straight in her face that 3 "sweet to hear, hard to say" words, but something held me back..not the right time, eh? haha..

What i hope now is more communication between us as i feel we are more of like "platonic" friends. I donno what lies ahead along this route but im ready to take it on. But i have a strong feeling that she is The One.

Randomness (2)

went out with lionel today and have a late lunch at cafe cartel (city hall)..then go window shopping..saw some ite students..some poly students..hai.. then go to suntec..after that go to LAN shop play C&C General Zero Hour.. then home sweet home...

Longest Drive

Yesterday took the car from my uncle and drive..it's the longest drive i ever had until at the end of the day, my face was green..imagine driving from bukit merah -> woodlands -> tanah merah -> city -> changi village..but in between got rest at least better..

However, my uncle's car was caught by the speeding camera just because i sped on the expressway..argh..after that i have no mood to eat because i face the agony of telling it to my uncle face to face and not only that, i was afraid that i couldnt borrow his car anymore..

In the end, i got the courage out of nowhere, and told him today..lucky he say he will settled it himself and only need me to be more careful..Phew..

Today went to church feeling moody because of the speeding matter. saw someone back for holiday..sigh..too bad..not my usual happy self upon seeing that person.. can see that person really change for the better over the last 2 yrs..that for me to know..for you to find out..haha.. after that, went for the worship service..the message was really a hit in my heart..is about prayers..how we should treat prayer as a ministry, a labour..people nowadays praying just too general..stuff like bless the church but not meeting the specific needs of the church..we also need to know that praying is also to seek God's will..not just to tell God to help you when trouble comes..or asking Him to let you know who is your future partner.. Praying also need to know what you pray for..if not, someone ask you what you pray for last week, you say, "forgotten already"..then is not important afterall..write down a prayer list what you want to pray for and to continue pray for it that is concided with God's will..then God will work the rest..

Cleaning up

im so free that i started to do some cleaning up in my study room..happen to see a stack of letters..well..just remembered years ago, i have a few penpals..but have lost contact except one due to time commitments. i throw all the letters away is because i dont have their contact..or they might not know me anymore..whatever the reason, i just dont wish to see it again..not because of bad incident ..

is been a long time since i clean up that room, wonder what happen if i dont clean up again for 2 more yrs..haha..chuck all my previous school notes under the table to collect dust, spider web...

Randomness (1)

Lucky yesterday my area dont have blackout..hehe.. today go and see spiderman..worth the money and definitely will recommend it to my friends..hehe.. today my feeling is very sux..very boring.. though i dont have to wake up early to go to school as im waiting to go NS, this period of break i practically cant do anything, not even finding a job..hai..sian..