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It was a game of "True or Dare" that went very wrong.

All I wanted is to salvage a very simple friendship but yet I get in return are all lies. It's doesnt help either when friends are siding her. I stop the argument with one of her friends before it got worse.

This friendship is not meant to be despite 3 years of good memories. Even though I never get to speak to her on a regular basis during these 3 years, it wont change anything.

I dont deserve a tear from her, neither do I deserve this kind of treatment from her.

All the best and wish you happiness.

World Cup 2010

I am taking a break from penning my rollar-coasting life due to the on-going World Cup matches. Will be back after the tournament.

Cold comfort

I guess I have been way too optimistic that I could change the way it was 3 years back, in 1 day.
I guess all the memories in the whole of 3 years are all memorable to me, no matter how bad or how good it turns out to be.

No anger or a tinge of sadness from me, just feeling very numb.

Odd one out

Can someone tell me what's wrong with this picture?

Settled

I am more or less settled in my job where it has become a 2nd nature to me. I am not saying this is the perfect job but it's something that really suit my personality and character.

Though I need to report to my supervisor if I dont know anything, but she let me handle on my own, as I am dealing with customers and suppliers. The freedom is there, which is what I like.

Secondly, I can get to surf net, listen to music and chat with friends online.

Thirdly, my dress code is smart casual. No need to wear formal or office wear to work. I find that im just like going to school but getting a monthly pay.

My next aim now is to help someone find her smile and laughter back and at the same time, further my studies.

Belief

I am not angry, neither am I have the energy nor the mood to scold. I am just demoralised that I dont have the right to be a friend.

I still want to believe in her, despite what she have told me.