Final straw

one baseless remark prove to be the final straw..

"you never check whether you got receive or not, anyhow send.. later JT kana scolding again.."

first of all, whenever i receive any books for shipment, i will tick against the title, or write on a new piece of paper.. if i never receive, what for i write..

if the way i do is questionable, then i might as well leave.. the longer i stay, the more troubles i create..
since i already leave a bad impression to the ware-house co-ordinator, i might as well give a lasting one..

i know that im not close to her in any other way, but why the double standards the way i do and the way other people do??

out of goodwill, admit to her that i do wrong.. kana scolding.. but my colleagues different.. do wrong and all they get is, "you ah!!"

Happening in Chinese New Year

this chinese new yr, i saw more than what i bargain for.. all happened in the same day..

first, i was at the bus stop waiting for bus to meet my friends for movie.. sitting there, observing people when i noticed a girl wearing sleeveless shirt, alighting from a bus.. she hold her hands up to put her bag.. then my eyes zoom into her armpit area.. wah lao eh, armpit hair!! there's goes my new yr mood..

so my bus came, and board the bus.. along the way, i was disturbed by a loud cries of "Oh Shit!!" and i look into the direction of most communters are looking at.. a taxi nearly knock down an elderly jay-walker.. the elderly jay-walker was alright though was in shocked.. the taxi driver offer his help to the elderly jay-walker..

quite an eventful new yr i ever had..

ok, i think everyone is waiting for me to say whether did i confess even though the chances is zero??

the answer is yes.. i confess well knowing that the chances is zero.. at least i have nothing to hide now, nothing to lose, nothing to afraid of..

if you all insist on rating the chances i had, then i shall give some examples why i rate it zero..
- call but no answer..
- sms but no reply..

dont tell me the moment i confess, my chances will be 100%.. then i will be in for a surprise..

Love Horoscope

My LoVe Horoscope
CANCER....

Your positive traits:

You're intuitive enough to know what's going wrong in a relationship early on
A total sweetheart - you're often the most caring person anyone knows
You are a generous and devoted partner to whoever you fall in love with

Your negative traits:

Insecurity - you tend to need a huge amount of comforting from your partner
You tend to be overly sensitive and easily hurt, which make loving you difficult
It's difficult to predict your moods. One minute you're up - the next you're down.

Your ideal partner:

Someone equally sensitive, who wants to take time to get to know you deeply
Dreams of an everlasting love - complete with marriage and a family
Loves to take care of you. Being a good cook and masseuse doesn't hurt!

Your dating style:

Slow. You enjoy dates that last all day, with plenty of time to talk and get to know one another.

Your seduction style:

Quite tender and loving, once you are comfortable in your relationship.
Coy. You tend to play it cool to drive your lover wild.
Orally talented - you're known as the best kisser in the zodiac.

Tips for the future:

Be a little less sensitive. Not every little mistake should hurt you.
Spend time away from your partner every so often - independence is a good thing.
Find ways to take care of yourself. You'll be happier if you put yourself first.

Mind and Heart

the reason why i took so long to say out was because my mind and heart dont agree with each other..

heart say like but mind want to take a longer time to decide.. if both agree, i would have taken the action way before the rumors have even spread..

most prob i rather take it as a crush or puppy love... because i doubt we can develop to the next stage of the relationship..

unless someone wants to prove me wrong..

Conflict of interest

look like im not very good in convincing people.. or telling some lies to get out of the way.. but i have to do it as i dont like to have attention focus on me.. i rather to be in low-profile..

i have only two questions to clear..

what if i confess?? will she accept me??

if no, then lan lan suck thumb.. if yes, it will be another problem to brainstorm another day..

Blacky's birthday

today is Blacky's birthday.. assigned to take care this dog during my stint in NS.. today he is 7 dog years old.. and that is equivalent to 49 human years old..

Blacky, you are an old dog liao..

oh.. finally i got car to drive on chinese new yr.. erm, i forgot how to drive liao leh.. how ah.. the last time i drove was like 9 months ago.. driving dog truck for deployment of duties..

Insecure

i donno what is my supervisor up to these few days..

every once in a while, he will ask this question, "when you leaving??"

i replied, "march!!"

is he scared that once i leave, there is no one to take over??

my answer to him : there is always someone out there will do a better job than me.. humbly speaking..