Who meant the most to you?

An interesting email to share..

Do you have any idea of who meant the most to you?

There is this guy who loves two gals at the same time but he don't know which one he loves more. Someone taught him : "If you are happy, who you think of first?

If you think of her, she is the one you love more." NO, THIS IS NOT THE WAY TO TEST THE FORMULA OF LOVE.......

Ask yourself this question honestly:
"When you are sad, which gal/guy you want to share your burden with?" If you think of that gal/guy first, she/he is the one that you love more. However if you think of the same gal/guy when you are happy & sad, that's the most perfect. But if you didn't think of the same gal/guy, I would advise you to chose the one you are willing to share your sadness with.

In life, there are more sorrows than happiness. There are too many people whom you can share your happiness with, not necessary your lover. If you live your life happily, you can also enjoy it alone. Sadness, however not many people is willing to share burden with you. If you willing to tell her/him your unhappiness, she/he got to be someone who is closest & most understanding to you. In other words, if she/he only think of you when she/he is happy, but look for someone else when she/he is sad. This kind of lover is too unstable, she/he didn't treat you as someone she/he can spend the rest of her life with.

Of course, I will be very happy if I am the first person to share her/his happiness. But, if she/he is sad, I will be too willing to stay by her/his side & ease her/his pain. Only then, I will believe I hold a very important position in her/his heart.

If you are sad, who comes to your mind first?
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Friendship is a strange thing. We find ourselves telling each other the deepest details of our lives ... things we don't even share with the families who raised us.

But what is a friend? A confidant? A shoulder to cry on? An ear to listen? A heart to feel? A friend is all these ... and more. No matter where we met, no matter how long we've been together ... I call you friend. A word so small, yet so large in feeling, a word filled with emotion, a word overflowing with love. Truly great things come in small packages.

Once the package of friendship has been opened, it can never be closed.

It is a constant book always waiting ...waiting to be read and enjoyed. We may have our disagreements ... we may have our disappointments...we may argue...we may concern one another.

Friendship is a unique bond that lasts through all tribulations. A part of each of us goes into our friendships... our humor ...our experiences ... our tears.

Friendships are foundation ...necessary for life ... and love.

Optimistic mindset

Yesterday night, i did some soul searching or even took a step back and review what i have done so far. In the midst of changing my blog layout and also preparing for exams at the same time, i have the whole night to ponder.

Currently, i have an ongoing situation which seem to be endless. The nightmare started on 24 July. And it has pretty drained me mentally and physically. It has also distracted me in my studies so much that i have to inform my tutors and advisor about it. The only hope i have now is to solve it as soon as possible. One reason i cant do anything to solve it is because of my limited resources. I have to leave it to third parties interference to settle it. It is out of my hands now and need to shift my priority to my exams.

Sometimes people are too quick to judge that they dont give me a chance to explain. I cant blame them either. But i have only one advise for you and that is: if you think you are in a worse situation, think of people around you. they might be in a more worse situation than you. is just that they never show it.

Thank God for the optimistic mindset He have given it to me. If not, i would have done something very pessimistic.

New layout

I have changed the layout and make it a simpler one. Blogger have make it easier with the additional of widgets which i will be adding some new stuff to my blog. Total time took to change, modified and adding new things to the blog: 1 hr.

Disposable friends

Sometimes im just very amused at how some people treat friends like some kind of disposable items. Some friends in my circle know about my problems because they are older and more experienced in giving advices. As for the rest, the reason i cannot share with them is because they are inexperienced or do not have the ability to help. Neither do i want to increase their burden by making my problem their problem. And i got blamed for not telling them?!?!

Sometimes i also wondered whether the way they say is a true reflection of their personality. Is just like you say it, you meant it. Yet on the other hand, you also doing the same thing. Pot calling kettle black.

There is no way i can please everyone. If there is, i will be a very busy person. Please dont jump to conclusion just because i dont want to say. It's just that you have no means or the ability to help.

Sincere apologises

In the past, whenever i got into a situation, i always seek the easy way out in asking for help. It has become such a routine that i always get the 'Get out of jail free' card every single time.

It was until this incident that i refused to ask for help that i finally got to know the severity of my mistakes.

I also know that because of my own self-centerness as seen in the previous incident posts which i have blogged, and also because of not giving others the consideration, i have actually lost more than what i have thought.

I admit my mistakes and sincerely apologises to those who have been affected by my own selfish actions.

Final post

As of 07 August 2009, I am done with my studies. Im still not sure whether the decision of doing full time studies over the last 3 years is justifiable. Priorities have change over time and immediate concerns are still towards my family. With 2 breadwinners, to pass by each and every single day without problem is a blessing from God.

I believe that as most of my update status is in Facebook, the moment i posted something not very good, the first thing was to come to my blog and find out what has happened. However, this time round, i really couldnt disclose anything even if i wanted to. I want to ask for help again, but it's beyond the limits of a human. I choose to remain quiet and have not stir up big shit as before. And because of my previous actions, i have actually strained the relationships to 3 groups of people.

So far, the support that i have received so far has been very encouraging. Thanks Lord for that if not, i dont think i still have the sanity to keep it going.

On a seperate note, i enjoy the time that i had in poly life. I have a project group that we have been together since year 1. I could have praise my project team till there is no tomorrow but one great thing about them is we cover each other weakness and improve on our strengths. The only regret so far is i never had a chance to work with someone that i once liked. Not a single time but nevertheless, all the best to her. I wonder if there is any opportunity in the future to communicate with her or to work with her. Not very hopeful, actually.

This will be my final post at the moment and hopefully, if God willing, the situation will be solved once and for all.