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woohoo..botak liao..kaka..feeling abit weird leh..haha.. still got 4 more days before going to hell.. hai..these few days been offending alot of people due to family problem..to those who i have offend, sorry..is just that i facing all these problem and find it difficult to provide a good solution to my parents..sigh..

Beginning of family problems

woohoo..excatly one week to hell..sigh..donno how life gonna be when i in police..tough or relax as what my friend say? hmm..better to have a worst expectation than to have a expecatation that cant meet..

hai..these few days been solving problems for my family that i starting to get used to it..sigh..how to help my family once and for all..how to end their sufferings...i see them suffer, my heart hurts as well as they are afterall my parents..is also my responsibility to take care of them one day when they are old or sick or facing problems..

Problems solved another comes..when is it gonna to end?? sigh...~~~

Randomness (5)

Last two days been really busy that i have no time to blog..haha..

on thursday, go to esplanade library to meet my friend and teach her accounts..as she is weak in this subject and need my help to teach her..yup..that's all for thursday..

then on friday, which is yesterday, went out with my friends to eat, play pool and see movie..is been a while since i have play pool but after my friend comes, then i know how to play..haha..after that, went to cineleisure and see king arthur..storyline abit funny leh..but overall quite good..haha..that my review..and i came back home at 6 in the morning..my goodness..sigh..still feeling very sleepy as i blogging..kaka.. still got 10 days more before i go to police academy.. =/

Randomness (4)

ahhh..feeling much better now..haha..dont wish to talk about it either or blog it out..just treat it as a nightmare will do..haha..

hmm..slacking at home the whole day..sleep and sleep and sleep..never really bother about ns life in two weeks time..haha..donno why..dont wish to have expectations after all..or else will regret..so what if people say good choice, good life..is all crap once you get in..oh well..time to zzz liao..good night..kaka..

Randomness (3)

Go out and have sushi with my friends..damn..donno why my mood was very down..maybe is the dreams or other things..i donno..sigh..feel like crying..yes..crying..guys do cry..i mean c'mon on, guys do have a sentimental side of them.. no mood to blog..kao..

Weird dream

i had a weird dream that "she" has choosen another guy..and i saw it, i gone bonkers..wah..got so jia lat leh me.. i wake up breaking into cold sweats.. sigh..how come so coincidence one..my friend tell me to give up since i waited for "her" so long and this weird dream..mood is the lowest right now..argh..any professional girl can help me to solve this problem..kaka..

Key to freedom

My magical day had gone just 2 hrs ago..but these few days been getting some pleasant surprises..haha.. last saturday go to fish and co and eat with my buddies and one of my classmate's brother whom i invited along, ordered a chocolate ice-cream cum chocolate hot muffin for me,very nice and yummy... (free one lah) and sang birthday song.. then today also go and eat, for dinner with my buddies..think i really like their food or is it because of chio bu..haha..cannot be lor..'cause though im available but taken..kaka.. shit lah..i have to treat one of my buddy because he came late and no more food can be ordered...

then today, my friend give me her blog add..kaka..wah..see her blog from the day one until now, i know alot of her secrets..haha..but i promised her i will not link or in a way, publish her blog site here.. but hor, she say her class guys are all childish leh..wah..do someone(C.O.O.L) really that childish..not referring to "him" hor..hope you know who hor..hahaha..

Thank you to all my friends who sent me warm and nice greetings for my birthday..though not really a good day to begin because of rain, have to stay at home until in the late afternoon then go out..

After all the celebration and walk back home..not no money, but no bus liao..so have to slowly walk home from lavender mrt station..my friend ask me about relationship problem about "her"...i find it hard to answer as most of my friends are not in the same religion as me.. and they asking me to do things that isnt right in my conscience..like asking her out alone..i was like, "how can? isnt it better to go out in groups then we get to know more gals and know who is the one suitable for you?" sigh..speaking of this topic, i really sian 1/2..though i mentioned earlier that "she" was the one for me, im tired of waiting and also wanted to tell her how much i miss her... but i cant.. *sob sob*

back to a happy note, been 21 is an age of freedom..kaka..can do alot of things without parents' consent, but of course is legally lah..however i feel that im standing on the edge of the cliff..because once i do the wrong decision..that it..no more turning back unlike during the younger days where we did something wrong, we can still learn.. how i wish i could never grow up..just be a baby with all the attention that you want..

Happy Birthday 2004

Today went to have a birthday celebration..go to fish & co. to have dinner and got a pleasant surprise from my friend..nice surprise i should say..after dinner, went to ktv and sing..kaka..from 11pm sing until 4am.. wow..a great way to celebrate my 21th birthday..though still not the actually day yet..haha.. on this day..i will be unlocked and to the land of freedom where decisions and responsibility are in your hands.. will be patiently waiting for the big day to come..haha..

Smitten

Ever since i saw her in church last sunday, my mind was not on the right mood because of the speeding matter, but my heart was beating faster than normal rate..haha..she is the same old brand new "her".

Before she went for her further studies, she was the old "she". Two years on, she became a new "she" whom i cant recongise whenever she is back for holidays..but now is different..she is back to what she is two years ago..with a new self confidence look..kaka..

I just cant forget the way she smiles, she laughs, she talks, she touches her hair..man..how i wish it could replay in my memory over and over again.. remembering the first time we get to know each other, it was an awakward situation..thinking of it, it was hiliarious. And i still remember that i confessed to her even though we still donno each other quite well..and she claim that i was "weird and irritating"..this is one quote from her which i can never forget.

3 years, since i set my eyes on her, was a challenging moment. It was a mind blowing roller coaster ride that the friendship, to say the least, is at last come to effect.At times i thinking of giving up, but the feeling just came back stronger till i want to tell her straight in her face that 3 "sweet to hear, hard to say" words, but something held me back..not the right time, eh? haha..

What i hope now is more communication between us as i feel we are more of like "platonic" friends. I donno what lies ahead along this route but im ready to take it on. But i have a strong feeling that she is The One.

Randomness (2)

went out with lionel today and have a late lunch at cafe cartel (city hall)..then go window shopping..saw some ite students..some poly students..hai.. then go to suntec..after that go to LAN shop play C&C General Zero Hour.. then home sweet home...

Longest Drive

Yesterday took the car from my uncle and drive..it's the longest drive i ever had until at the end of the day, my face was green..imagine driving from bukit merah -> woodlands -> tanah merah -> city -> changi village..but in between got rest at least better..

However, my uncle's car was caught by the speeding camera just because i sped on the expressway..argh..after that i have no mood to eat because i face the agony of telling it to my uncle face to face and not only that, i was afraid that i couldnt borrow his car anymore..

In the end, i got the courage out of nowhere, and told him today..lucky he say he will settled it himself and only need me to be more careful..Phew..

Today went to church feeling moody because of the speeding matter. saw someone back for holiday..sigh..too bad..not my usual happy self upon seeing that person.. can see that person really change for the better over the last 2 yrs..that for me to know..for you to find out..haha.. after that, went for the worship service..the message was really a hit in my heart..is about prayers..how we should treat prayer as a ministry, a labour..people nowadays praying just too general..stuff like bless the church but not meeting the specific needs of the church..we also need to know that praying is also to seek God's will..not just to tell God to help you when trouble comes..or asking Him to let you know who is your future partner.. Praying also need to know what you pray for..if not, someone ask you what you pray for last week, you say, "forgotten already"..then is not important afterall..write down a prayer list what you want to pray for and to continue pray for it that is concided with God's will..then God will work the rest..

Cleaning up

im so free that i started to do some cleaning up in my study room..happen to see a stack of letters..well..just remembered years ago, i have a few penpals..but have lost contact except one due to time commitments. i throw all the letters away is because i dont have their contact..or they might not know me anymore..whatever the reason, i just dont wish to see it again..not because of bad incident ..

is been a long time since i clean up that room, wonder what happen if i dont clean up again for 2 more yrs..haha..chuck all my previous school notes under the table to collect dust, spider web...