Letting go after 7 years

im writing this post with a heavy heart.. but the blow is not that hard as i have pondered about it for quite a long time..

i decided to let go a person whom i hold so dearly for 7 years.. if there is a reason to give, i cant find a reason.. but i find that for a relationship to grow, there should be give and take.. and it also take two hands to clap.. both are not present in this relationship.. firstly, i find myself giving all this while.. and secondly, i send 10 emails to her, none replied.. thirdly, she say she want to have fellowship, i tried to get her msn address to chat with her when she was in overseas, also no answer.. i did tried to call her, but trying to find a topic to talk was hopeless for me..

if people were reading this post that im foolish.. i have every reason to argue back.. firstly i only go in a relationship which is the first and the final.. what for go for so many? gain experience or going 'shopping'? secondly, financially stable.. if you go on a date, money for dinner, movie comes from your own pocket or parents' hard-earned money?

i have shared this with some of my friends.. when she is in overseas, she is another person.. but back in singapore, she will take me as a spiritual support.. if she have any chance to read upon my blog.. only words to say to her is, if im still regarded as your spiritual support.. i will gladly be one, that all.. nothing more nothing less.. i better make a stand or else i will be taken for a free ride.. yes, i do know that im not in a state to go into a relationship.. but i do not wish to wait in such a way the blow will be harder and a much bitter pill to swallow..