Pent-up frustration

3 months have passed since i last contacted my former working colleagues..

the moment i ask him, "how are you? how work?"

guess what he say next..

full of vulgarities as everything have been pushed to him.. i mean, been on ground, you could only do these much, yet assigned him with 2 different publishers.. with all the racks up, cartons are still needed to put books, and plastic covers also?? what the hell.. that is worst than slave liao..

i can understand what he is going through and not only that, his buddy is also going to leave this company although i understand that he was going to become a full timer the last i heard..

he also ask me to come back and work with him.. lol.. well, studies still come first..

look like he have to go through another 1 and 1/2 yrs of contract.. i wonder where is his benefits have gone to?? is either abused or neglected.. sigh..

National Day Survey

i read about the national day celebrations survey in the newspaper.. and i was astonished to find what the people actually want in the performance..

more of fireworks.. check
more of gunfiring.. check
less of mass display.. check

but i dont think the survey really show the true value of the celebration.. no??

let see..

free goodies bag?? no??
see handsome army guys in the march past?? no??
see chio bu guiding people in the sing along during the pre-celebration segment?? no??
see own kids performing in the mass display?? no??

i mean, come on, singaporeans are typical kiasu..

MRT Lines

i was stunned when people ask me what colour of the MRT line the area im staying.. especially my classmates..

huh.. i know which line to go to my destination.. i tried to remember all the stations.. but colour of the MRT line?? that's new to me sia..

Got blue, red, green, purple, yellow.. Dont tell me you all going to memorize the colours of the line when the Circle Line and Downtown Line start operating in the future?? If run out of colours, how??

Pre Reflections 2007

2 weeks of holidays.. or some say, time to catch some breath..

in the last post, i will elaborate further into 3 parts..

Family

i realised that the time my family got into these problems is much longer than i thought.. yet they able to go through it without trouble is miracle.. in the past, im not aware of the problem as they ask me to focus on my studies.. so when i get to know about it after my ITE studies, it had already affected me very much.. but now, the thinking that i have all along is rather uncalled for, as i find it hard to cast it aside during studies.. with these 2 weeks of break, i hope i can set my priorities right..

Studies

my main aim was to get into poly.. now that i have got in, people have challenged me to aim for uni.. erm.. if im able to get in, it will be a bonus.. at least in ITE, the aim was there.. now is just to get the diploma.. that all.. haha.. wait till the first semester is over, i will know where i stand..

Working

2 months ago, i saw my colleague in this fast food restaurant.. i approached her for a job in it.. i was rather hesitate to work and studies at the same time as i did before.. and when i did that, i flunk my studies.. so you could say i have the phobia.. first time when she offer me, i reject straight away as they dont recognise my ITE cert.. when she offer me the second time, i consider and at the same time, seek friends' opinion..

firstly, im not very in need of cash.. is the thought of lessening my family burden.. secondly, the pay is low.. but i can gain some experience.. thirdly, exorcise the ghost.. hahaha..

Root of problem

I think i have changed.. for the worse.. not for the better..

The root of the problem comes from my family and somehow this problem has nothing to do with me.. yet i was strapped around it to my ankles and followed me wherever i went.. From NS, previous working place and now, poly studies..

Out of sudden, i find studies is a burden and i should have work instead.. Being the eldest son, the family of course have high expectations of me.. after graduate, coming out to work and able to provide extra income to my family. im very confused right now.. quitting studies for work seem the best solution.. but on the other hand, people been giving encouragement.. but i dont want encouragement.. i want a solution to my family problems.. is really tiring to have these metal chains strapped across the ankle..

is very difficult to focus on my studies when my mind is on my family problems..

i think i really need help.. desperately!!