Friends again?

huh.. what the hell.. someone want to be friends with me.. no, is not a stranger but is someone whom i have sever ties for like 7 yrs.. hmm..

i saw his whole profile despite not connected to him in any other way..

"1st things! I treasure my frens ALOT. SO im willing to do
almost anything for frens dat are worth it.. I wont
tolerate any form of betrayal.Step on my tail and i make u
pay for it.. Im the sort who gives alot and hope my frens
reciprocate but if they don't den they are definately a
waste of time and effort.. Along the way i've also realised
frens are not FOREVER? and ya i belive Genuine ones will
stick by me and sucky ones can juz disappear for all i
care..."

do i worth as a friend to him in the first place? didnt i was the sucky friend that disappear for 7 yrs? although i dont have any grudges against him, but this request do need some consideration..

Life in K-9 (42)

im very tired, very sian and sick of coming to work.. 2 security dog handlers is not enough in a team.. either portsdown 1st shift or 2nd shift, rotate till a new dog handler comes in.. the breathing space is getting tighter and tighter.. is like just work and work, no fun, no training, no rest, no morale support from team colleague..

there are 2 new dog handlers posted to HQ.. but 1 of them, i feel they put him in the wrong team.. or 2? i donno.. 1 team is play mc till "other-team-know-who-is-going-to-take-mc-the-next-tour" of mentality.. another team, well, short of manpower, got 1 going to ord, so they post him in this team.. hey, how about our team? so-call the most hardworking team, the most stressed team to be in, the lowest rate mc in the team(really??).. if one of our team colleague never opt for base guard just so that he can be contacted(lame excuse) or another one who have leg injury, went for surgery and have a long term mc.. since i came in 4 months ago, i yet to see him reporting for duty..

we (me and my colleague) have to endure for another 3-4 months before someone comes in.. i think my colleague can prepared for his ord liao.. one comes one go where is the replacement..

my ops officer say correctly.. HQ team need at least 20 dog handlers.. but everyone will say, "where to find so many people? space so limited, kennel not enough.."

one thing im very sure of is, if my colleague is not around either on course or report sick.. let just say that i dont want to go through 12 hr of "worse than inmates kind of treatment"

portsdown personnel, minority of them treat us machiam like dogs.. no more food given to us, we have to buy coupons..they rather let the food go into waste or feed the cat.. not even a minimum of welfare is given, big fat mosquitoes is spotted due to their feast on those dog handlers who deployed at there.. hot and humid weather.. limited movement.. officers whose job is only know how to eat up those dog handlers.. discriminate us and treat those CISCO officers better.. prison and police are under the same roof yet CISCO getting the better treatment from them..

what i want is someone to hear our complains, our ill-treatment at there and provide us a win-win solution for the benefit of the prison and dog unit.. i donno why the mentality of those officers only know how to eat us, yet doesnt even have a clue we are suffering mentally.. what i say is no use, just fart and you will feel better.. these complains will still be around after i ord.. the prison will close down in 2012 or only the illegal immigrants will stop coming to singapore then the prison will close, whichever is earlier.. anyone want to bet the day illegal immigrant never come to singapore.. hopefully this someone will know our predicement, close the prison once and for all.. till this day comes, i feeling hard done down here..

people can understand the situation what we went through, but what i want is not just those advice like, "aiya, forget it, serve and go off liao" but rather, "ok, action will be taken against this officer.." lol.. dream on.. i think i need to go somewhere and really shout out loud to empty those negative feelings.. ive been bottling it up since i started as a security dog handler..

Life in K-9 (41)

only one person will know what i want to blog today.. this morning went for duty and bring out blacky to go to portsdown.. before leaving the base, i groom him and spotted something.. a big lump with blood drying up.. the wound is very fresh.. so i call upon the kennel hand and ask, "is this enzyme?"

the answer was, "not so sure.." but i was not convinced and ask the second opinion.. the second answer was, "yup, is enzyme..cut the fur, apply idoine and the powder can liao.." i starting to get worry liao..but i donno why, i seek the third opinion.. no answer given.. if it is really enzyme, the para-vet sure turn me upside down and poke my ass.. 6 hrs of agonising wait while on duty is no joke.. so i quickly came back after duty and ask my colleague.. his answer lifted my mood.. it was a lump.. like pimples.. he help me to squeeze out the white substance and the blood until it dries up.. after that i apply alcohol, idoine and the powder.. i have to do it everyday until it heal.. blacky, drink more water.. or else you will have more popping up from your body and you will look like a polka dog..

i think im caught on camera while buying my dinner at novena square on the way back home.. i saw chew chor meng hosting the show, "where is singapore?" with ezann lee.. wow.. beauty sia..

after that, been approached by a prudential advisor about some savings plan.. was quite interested but abit hard to commit due to some cash flow problems at the moment.. in the end, i didnt reject but once the cash flow have eased, i will sign up for that plan..

Renting car

i feel my anger in this ex-friend is justified afterall.. get to hear some stuff from my friend when we attend our friend's wedding.. PCG at kallang base will move to brani base in november..

yesterday went to rent a car as the family car is needed by my uncle.. first time renting, was quite disappointed in the condition of the car.. i got a car where the battery is weak.. i experience a dead car when we are going back home after all those fun playing pool.. lucky got some helpful gentlemen to help us kickstart the car.. in the future, will rent from the company if possible and as and when i need it.. price reasonable, age limit in renting the car is the lowest i seen in other companies..but not this type of car..

Life in K-9 (40)

i told one of my colleague about my past problem.. can you imagine the horror when he told me to talk to this ex-friend? hell no, man.. that was 6 months ago..the problem never solve, created a molehill into a mountain, no communication, nothing.. i rather let it there and left my anger intact in this matter.. than to talk things out.. it must be the weirdest advice i ever receive..

come on, the anger is still there.. breaking of friendship without saying out anything is the most coward thing to do..

the dinner was so-so only.. 8 dishes of food doesnt really make the stomach goes bloated in an hr..

Life in K-9 (39)

my off days are all taken up.. sigh.. tonight is k-9's dinner at SPANS.. and tomorrow is my in-service.. and have to take Blacky out for a swim.. ahem, i dont want to do the extra job of bringing Blacky back to bathe him after the swim.. hopefully, i will not get to bring Blacky out..

now, i dont want to say anything, or complain anything liao.. feel like cursing some swear words in here.. get to say something about what they say that they will do portsdown, and they aim me.. now, never say anything, also kana aim.. i make this line very clear from now onwards, whatever duties that you assign to me, i just do it without complain.. just my luck that i get to see the true colours of 2 "act hardworking" colleagues.. the meaning of having fun during work is not there anymore and i find it very hard to trust what they say now..

my conversion course is on 11-14 oct.. i dont get to go with the other SC..as the other SC will be taking an earlier date.. donno who is also attending this course at this date from my unit..

i browse through some profiles and pics in friendster.. i get to see Kelvin Tan from PCG is still there.. erm, with this ex-friend of mine and some guys as well.. definitely a team photo.. hmm.. guess he signed on.. the last time i saw him in PCG was during my npcc days.. going on an excursion to PCG and get to ride one of the boats.. he was my secondary school friend.. the world is so small that they are in the same team.. oh well..

Life in K-9 (38)

i feel that whoever passed out from the security dog training and posted to HQ, should do a 12 hr portsdown.. so that he's able to think of something to do during this period of time, and also not to take time for granted.. some may differ from my views as is just, "sit down stay!!" kind of routine.. people might think, why work so hard?

my answer will be, im not the sort of person who sit down and do nothing and let time rot my life away.. i cant do that though i did try.. maybe that my mentality.. i need to do something in order to pass time.. same goes to baseguard.. im not complaining but i have accepted how k-9 HQ and been deployed to prison works.. hence my stand in not signing on earlier in the yr..

after doing 12 hrs of portsdown, once change to a 6 hr, the time pass even faster..

Life in K-9 (37)

i never thought i will get to do 12 hrs portsdown.. but it has to be.. and i join the list of people who did it and leave their sweat on it.. my sweat is on it now.. overall i can say is a priceless experience.. time flew very fast.. i thought i got to stay at the gate for the whole day, but how wrong i am.. i get to stay at dog hut most of the time.. i was thinking quite negatively along the way to portsdown as i was trying to think of how to pass the time faster.. just by staying at dog hut is the best option.. get to sms people, call people without prison officers finding out..

hopefully this is the last time i do a 12 hrs portsdown in the day time.. i donno how to explain it but is not worth it though it is priceless..

lol.. my friend who get to know a gal is labelled as a casanova!!! targeting those aged smaller than him...wahahha..

hai.. donno whether should say this or not.. although i have yet to enter a relationship.. i never feel tired, be it physically or mentally, in pursuing the targets.. irony, the only target i ever feel tired is the ex-friend of mine.. all but she lasted more than 1 yr.. when i told this to my friend, he say that if you experience problems persist in the relationship and feel tired.. there is a need to examine what went wrong.. even if you have goes through a long term relationship and out of sudden, you feel tired.. time to take a step back and look.. and i find it very true according to what he says..

Randomness (37)

i never knew my thinking was coincides with the Singapore Sports Council where they are going to introduce computer gaming as a sport.. this is in today's news.. and further more, i ask some of my working colleagues whether they are interested in my proposal.. and they say anything.. lol.. good good.. but this so-call clan at the moment will only take effect after we ord.. what we able to do now is meet up and slowly play and gel as a team.. yah yah.. now im really thinking quite far already..haha..

today, my friend wanted to know a gal through my help.. well.. get to know her in the end, she's 17 and got tattoo.. she look quite alike to one of my female friends.. hmm.. seperate at birth??

Randomness (36)

boring sunday!! really cant find anything to do.. is been a long time since i sweat out.. but my body just dont let me do it.. hai.. tomorrow have to do it no matter what..

i have a very wildest thought.. to all colleagues who like playing CS, wonder if we could form a clan out of it.. wahaha.. what should we name for the clan?? K-9.. Police.. Dogs.. PDU.. or ORD?? i have the intention to resurrect my playing skills in this game again.. is been a long time since i played this game..i know i know, this game now is only based on those hard-core players who have a clan and a base to support with..those leisure players are gone.. just a thought that all..

Life in K-9 (36)

i was at orchard area this afternoon..lol.. but didnt get to see the commotion at the orchard mrt.. at the time where the guresome find, i was at cineleisure watching movie..

my TL have put up the papers for the conversion..

i dont think anyone will believe this.. have you ever see a dog catch a mouse.. although i never get to see it, but there are photos which convince me that the dog have taken over the cat job.. pls, is not Blacky.. even the sight of coachroaches scared the wits out of him..

hai.. k-9 is a place where you can really let your imagination runs wild.. we have so much time to spare that back-stabbing, gossips, politics are the only things to do.. poor man-management, even those who are holding leadership qualities are questionable.. i dont want to interfere anymore.. what i say now has happened in the past, they dont take the effort to correct the problem afterall.. k-9 is overall a family.. a dsyfunctional family.. some even urge me to sign on in k-9.. i get to see all these, think i will sign on?!?! if i sign on, im nothing but a puppet whose moves are controlled...

Red bomb

RED BOMB COMING!! i never thought i will get this so early in my life.. my secondary school gal friend is getting married this month end.. she is the first i should say..

time flew very fast since we left school and goes our separate ways 5 yrs ago.. it seem like yesterday that we left school..

Randomness (35)

i couldnt give a damn about it that i say directly at someone.. im not afraid to speak out as long as i made my feelings known.. people might think that, "hey, this skinny fella, think i can eat him.." well.. think again..

im also not a person that say sorry or apologise that easily.. so what if my blog contains some so-call over-sensitive issues or some unfounded issues.. im not so much about pride or principle person.. but rather, i let my mind to tell me whether what i did is wrong or right.. in short, my conscience.. if i feel that i have overdid it, fine enough, i apologise..

saying of sorry makes me think back of the past.. well, to cut the story short.. a few months back, get to know this gal.. after that confess to her, everything went downhill since then.. thereafter, she say that i was over-sensitive and break friendship over a comment that i make (entry made on feb 07, 2005).. i have to say sorry about that and i dont even feel guilty commenting that.. kao.. friendship patch after that, and then let her know my blog.. i dont find it a mistake to give it to her after all.. she find fault in the past issue where we settle long ago..is like back to square one.. break friendship again.. i dont fight for it after that..

i also dont care even if my remarks is scarstic or unknowingly hurt people sub-conscious..some people make their comments bluntly to me.. if they can take it, i too can make some blunt comments either.. how people treat me as a friend or whatsoever, i will treat back the same treatment they treat me.. if the value of friendship is not there, what for i fight to increase the value of it..

heard that my dog assessment came in 7th.. to tell you frankly, i dont deserve this placing.. i had to do the revaluation all over again just to please those who voice out for me.. and my performance that day is really sluggish.. imagine hearing those unpleasant stories before the revaluation.. will you have the mood to do it again..

People that i disliked

i hate two types of people.. one is putting words into my mouth where i didnt say it at all.. and another one is say something but didnt meant it.. yet i have a colleague who did both to me..

damn pissed off upon hearing what he did.. dont even have the morale to go to work anymore..

Life in K-9 (35)

i requested to my TL whether i could go for conversion.. lol.. he talk to the driver pool in charge and agree to let me go.. except that he have yet to put up papers.. i shall wait for the day to come..

imagine im driving with Blacky on board..corner here.. corner there..i make sure he will get the hell of the ride.. make sure that he ride until vomit out everything.. until he waves a white flag to surrender.. until he no longer get car-sickness.. wahaha.. kua zhang..

the photo below was taken one yr back.. and im experimenting my blog site with the addition of photo..