Shot in the foot

hai..new year got off with a bad start literally..i confess my feelings to her and well, good news is that she is asking me to wait for her..but somehow my actions got the better of me and shoot myself in the foot..just one week to destroy everything..hai..im so stupid, useless and crazy..hai.. now at this moment, i let the feelings died down before anything drastic happen again.. i dont think gals will like to see a guy acting so foolishly given when his feelings are taking over... sigh.. donno what to do next..either build what i have destroyed or go on with the next one...argh!!