Super Auntie

i finally saw the power of a super auntie..

i was on a bus on the way to school.. packed to the brim where people have to stand on the step.. what im going to witness next, will kow-tow to the auntie..

she knock on the entrance.. wanting to get in.. the bus driver LL.. open the door for her and let her in.. she use her elbow and push her way through, stop for awhile to tap her ez-link card.. and then take a deep breath, push all her way to the middle of the bus without saying "excuse me.."

i got two kinds of people who experience the auntie's shove and see how she shoved her way through.. and two kinds of stares at her, the kind of irritated that they have been shoved.. and another was the kind of admiration that the auntie was able to shoved her way through.. im the last kind..

two thumbs up for her.. though i was hesitate to show it in front of her.. and the fact that these kind of aunties, i seen it all.. wonder why so kan cheong to get on the bus given that the bus will not move till all have boarded the bus.. or is it because of the seat available on the bus.. is not as if this is the only bus running the whole of singapore..

oh, another thing, dont stand in front when the bus door is in front of you.. the aunties will push you all the way to the back.. dont believe, try it!!

Emo-ness

sitting on the cold floor of the bathroom, mind was not thinking about taking a bath.. though i was stark naked, my mind wanders to the past.. with my eyes closed, i reach out to the knob, and turn on the shower.. with water hitting on my head, tears began to flow down with the water..

"what have i done to deserve this kind of state or treatment?"
"what kind of friends are you all showing to me right now?"
"what is the purpose of putting the mask on?"
"why the need to tell lies to me?"
"why put a knife behind my back while you are smiling at my side?"

the natural breeze send a chill in me and awoke my senses to the reality.. i feel nothing despite the heater is not on.. all my mind can only read one word, "BETRAYED!!"..

anger have consumed my appetite.. sadness have taken away my happiness.. but somehow, despite the spiritual fall, there was a last ounce of energy in me to declare this, "time to move on..friends are measured by the trial of time.. friends are those who stay by your side despite bad times happen to you.. where are these friends? they are still staying by my side for the last 11 yrs.. though far and few, it enough for me.. the rest, i donno.. or should i say, dont push your luck?!"

optimistic in me is back, with a new scar shown at the back.. water have not wash my guilt or sin away.. but it show a reflection in me what i can improve on.. maybe mentally and the awareness to trust new friends..

with that in mind, i turn off the knob and dry myself.. and clothed myself to hid the scar..

Thanks for the scar you all have given me!!

First Year in Poly

poly life now is in full throttle.. so far so good.. but somehow my time managing skills look very outdated.. need some upgrading.. or maybe i still haven adjust to poly life yet as i will be very tired at the end of the day.. the moment i sit on the bus, my eyes can close straight away..

just an overall view of the modules im taking right now..

Business Computing Applicants (IT) - this module is just like IT. And i find this module a waste of time. The tutor just ask us to refer to books and dont want to teach us anything. might as well dont attend or dont teach better..

Macroeconomics - study economics. I have print out all the lecture notes in this module. im not kiasu lah.. i find it not worth to print one lecture every week.. might as well print all at one go, bind it and more easier to go through..

Business Management - manage people. these group of lecturers are the most messy lot.. last sem notes also go and put in.. and we have to wait until the last min to retrieve the notes..

Business Law - study law. this module, i seen all the cases listed in it.. all i got learn before in ite one.. with some new cases.. im not going to be complacent in this module.. will take this module with a fresh mind..

Accounts - no need to explain. i donno whether is it first impression or is it because i got accounting background that the accounts tutor targeted me.. of course in a nice way lah..

good thing next week got 1 day of holiday and 1 day of e-learning where i dont have to go to school..

Thesis Report

this post i definitely not complaining.. lol.. haha..

because i just read up on business management project that we need to do a 20 pages of report.. haha.. initially i was like, "what the hell? write what.. thesis ah??"

but now, im going to make this report look easy as 1,2,3... the harder it is, the more im willing to commit myself to do it..

Honeymoon Period

one week have passed since school start.. honeymoon is over.. time to shift up a gear for some serious business..

so far, ive only 2 things to voice out..

- lectures.. i know.. is unavoidable.. sigh..
- printing of lectures note.. what the hell.. ask us to buy textbooks still need to refer to lectures notes and print it out.. we can refer to the internet.. download in laptop and study at our own freetime.. so far i have done some experiment where i didnt print out the lectures notes but have referred to the laptop for it.. no problem.. now i want to see how long it takes before the lecturers find out..

first week nothing to do.. never expect my weekend is to see time pass without doing any activities..

Sabotage (2)

is there a way to stop nominating me as a leader?? kana twice already.. different modules somemore.. again the girls were the culprits.. they write my name first as im the only guy in the group.. then they were like, "ok, since you are the only guy, you will be the leader.." what a logical reasoning!!

im not very optimistic about the other modules as well.. as the first module was my class group.. the chances of been a leader and not been one is like 90 to 1.. with the remaining 9 to other guys in my class.. as if i like to volunteer to being a leader..

"eh.. cannot like that lah.. must give other people the chance.. dont always push to me leh..!!"

"can lah.. can lah!!"

no chance to vote.. 4 against 1.. walkover.. no need to talk.. just accept the role..

at the start, i only have one msn conference chat every night.. now im going to have 3 msn conference chat every night..

Sabotage (1)

woohoo.. got to know my class mates liao.. though not all, as we are forced to form a group to analyse and solve the problems..

damn.. of all people.. i kana been the leader.. nice arrow there from the ladies..

today was the first time in class able to chat with friends on msn.. then one of these girl will just push down my laptop screen to an angle where she can see all the contents.. lucky i minimised it before she could see what i was chatting about.. imagine my mouth and my eyes widen when she do this..

already the third day in school.. and only thing i going to suffer for the next 3 yrs will be the lectures.. damn dry.. the lecturers could just go on and on and on without taking a break.. wah lao!!

i cant wait for next week tutorials..

First Day in Poly

yesterday was the first day of school.. only lectures.. no tutorials..

i was totally wrong about these bunch of kids.. 16-18 yrs old compare to a 23 yr old.. sigh..

they are not the nerdy types like the JC, neither are they playful like the ITEs.. they are right in the middle.. time to play.. time to study.. cannot play play with them..

there are several factors i didnt think of it till i see it with my own eyes..
- The desire to do well in their studies..
- Good "O" level result to admit in a business course..

Good thing was my worst fears never came true.. if not, i will have gone crazy.. on the other hand, i haven even touch my books yet, there are already some surprises.. these surprises will only revealed in due time.. wait lah, i haven even know my classmates yet.. only know my orientation group..

I think i can finally score a point in communicating with younger girls.. so far so good.. hope can maintain, if not better.. another thing to foresee is to teach people with no accounting background.. did someone mentioned "big brother ma??"

Full picture of a story

in order to get a full story, one must know both sides of the story.. not just by listening to what other people have say and jump to your own conclusions.. if people want to view me in a bad light just because i dont want to say anything and somehow shift the entire burden to me.. by all means even to the extent of misunderstood..

till now, i have not tell anyone about it.. although is not a secret anymore, but i will be very appreciated if someone dares to come and clarify with me.. rather than giving hints for no apparent reason..

yes, i did blog about it.. but wont it better to hear from the horse's mouth rather than just viewing my blog for the latest developments??

im not bothered about it.. but i just want to set the record straight because of one word: principle..

Poly Orientation

argh.. can someone pls kill me??

the orientation was a no-brainer.. dont even mention to me about the ice-breaker games..

for once, i have difficulty pronouncing 2 unique girls' names.. let alone spelling out here..

still have 3 days to go... argh!!

New chapter of life

hai.. thought my enrolment will hit a snag.. but never expect to see 8 letters flashed across the screen.. "ENROLLED!!"

wah kao.. 4 days of orientation.. do what sia.. the way i see it, 16 apr is not going to be relaxed.. straight away hit the lessons liao..

updated on my chronicles of life..

Gossip-mongers

come on.. give me a break.. to think that i have done the necessary precautions.. yet the gossips still going on strongly even after i left the company..

i have stay away from her.. maintain a distance.. didnt talk to her.. didnt do anything to her.. didnt even bother to call her.. heck, the day i left, i give her my blessings to find her true love.. and now, i got people come and tell me the latest news.. sigh..

i feel so disgusted..

True Friends

" Many people will walk in and out of your life but only true friends will leave footprints in your heart.." want my smelly feet?? haha..

i donno about how others view friends as.. but to me, i classified friends into 3 groups according to my trust..

1st outer circle of friends - colleagues, acquaintances, etc.. these group of friends will get to know me very little or none at all.. they will get to see my bad points most of the time.. and this is also where i will guard my privacy as much as possible..

2nd circle - normal friends.. these group of people will know both my bad and good points.. as for privacy and trust is concerned, it will be only at my discretion..

3rd circle - buddies, best friends.. this is where my trust is held in the highest regard.. these people will also know the funny side of me, a very relaxed person in me.. these people will also get to know my secrets..

Red Tape

i feel like cursing ngee ann poly and CPF board for the unnecessary red-tapes.. i could have settled the application on the first day when i went there.. they could have just given me a hardcopy of it rather than telling me to apply it online..

but i never knew the extend of the problem even though i applied online, until i went today.. they cant send the most important email over to me despite informing me that it will send to me in 2 working days.. even as im typing now, no email have been received yet..

in the end, they ask me to submit the hard copy to ngee ann.. waste my time, waste my transport expenses..

never ever recommend me to work in the civil service.. especially the presence of red tape..