Loudhailers

one mouth is big enough liao.. now got 2 mouth.. hai..

i dont want to say what is it regarding.. if my observation is not wrong, i think i know who is the mastermind liao.. not surprised at all since that person started it in the first place..

now i know what to do if im out of job in future.. and that is to be a ballet dancer.. why?? because i have to tip-toed past those narrow pallets to get my stock..

my supervisor, the admin staff and the warehouse co-ordinator.. out of these 3, guess which the only one that ask me to do the above request?

finally all work for 2006 have finished.. and the reward for all these hard work is 4 days of rest.. what a way to usher the new year!!

Curiosity kills the cat

look like my curiosity get the cat out of the bag liao..

i ask my friends and buddies on how they see themselves if they were in a relationship with older guys or girls??

majority of them is fine with it.. right~~

for me, im a conservative, traditionlist or even old school.. so i rather stick with girls within my age between 2 yrs younger or older.. for me, it take time for me to accept the fact.. but im not changing tact or whatsoever.. im just asking for opinions..

Final Date in Warehouse

i have pencilled on the date i leave this company.. and it shall be 25th march 2007.. exactly 3 months from now.. before going back to studies..

wonder how am i going to survive in school when there is no income coming in for the next 3 yrs?? hopefully the schedule will not be so heavy as im thinking of taking up a part time job..

Long working hours

last week was a mental torturing test..

let me show you an example of my working time:

tues: 0900 hrs - 2300 hrs
wed : 0900 hrs - 2400 hrs
thurs:0900 hrs - 2300 hrs

lucky by fri, there was no OT as there is D&D.. and also 3 days of holiday.. all the way sleep and sleep and sleep..

Bad feeling

today damn suay.. the moment i step into the warehouse, i have a feeling that something will happen.. but i just shrug it off..

today pick books for bulk area, the carton that im looking for is always at the bottom half of the pallet..

then after that my supervisor handling the stacker, got problems.. the machine can move by itself without touching the controls..

and this is the best of all.. going home soon.. finish everything liao and no OT.. thought tomorrow can breathe a little bit easier.. but who knows accident happens at the unexpected time? one of the shelf started shaking and all the books come falling down like dominos.. luckily, no one was seriously injured although my colleagues was on top putting the books at that particular shelf..

donno what are we going to do tomorrow??

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wah, i never knew so many people read my blog one ah.. all come and ask me what kind of girl i like.. just a simple one will do.. im not a person who go for beyond expectations..

1) mature thinking.. not mature looking girls..

2) pleasant personality..

i prefer to understand the girl's character than to go for the beauty.. i do have some past incident which i dont want to mentioned, where the girl is pretty but sucks in character.. i did post in the blog.. it was like 2 yrs ago.. and it pretty obvious who the girl is..

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i find it very funny and very interesting to see how people lie their way through..

the way some people lie is so obvious lor.. what for lie to other party to make that person happy??

first sign to see when the person is lying is through his eyes.. once his eyeballs turn to the right, he is lying liao..

another sign to see is his body language.. ask a simple question but hard to give an answer..

Happy Day

yes.. after months of hard earned pay give to parents, finally i have the chance to get a new hp.. maybe a christmas present for my own self.. haha

i think i need a vacation after my stint in a warehouse environment.. maybe a getaway to somewhere serene and zen like..

Distance Trust

the previous post have given me the thinking that no one can be trusted.. if i were to tell them a secret, i think the next day the whole warehouse also know..

lucky i never tell them anything.. even if i do have, i rather keep quiet and bide my time..

Wrong impression

look like i know what is the reason behind it where people want to talk to me something but yet dont want to tell me..

i have a reliable source telling me that i've given the impression that i like the admin staff..

to set the record straight, i think i have given the wrong impression to the people working around me..

firstly, i did say that the age gap is too big.. i dont think my eyes is glue with stamps ba?!?!

secondly, i got her contact no. is easier to contact, if not, i have to go to the air-conditioned room to make a call.. so troublesome..

thirdly, im helping her to do her work which i have to come in contact with.. hence the need to get her contact no.. maybe in a way, i have an advantage where i can disturb her through sms.. somehow, i dont think i find it fun to disturb her as the impression is there..

i hope i have set the record straight and clear the mis-impression.. wrong impression can kill..

and to turn the table around, the admin staff told me that she doesnt interested in me.. girls dont like to tell the truth or say it straight face to face, aint they?? they like to say something which they doesnt meant it and also like to beat around the bush..

Networking

the world is so small.. working colleagues can be linked to ITE friends and NS colleagues..

last friday, one of my colleague say he drove army tank during NS.. and somehow, i have a feeling that he might know my ITE friend who had an accident in overseas while in an army tank.. and that when the link is connected..

second link is when my NS friend msn me whether i know this colleague.. and the obvious answer is yes..

Wary people

i donno why i have this feeling around my workplace.. and i have been starting to get wary people around me..

is like some people want to tell me something but on the other hand, it is holding them back from telling me..

what is it that you all want to tell me? just say lah.. is not as if i cant handle it.. hmm..

i think i better stay at my workstation is and keep a low-profile..

Self-praise is disgrace

i think i should come up with a series where i never get to see this kind of person in my life before.. i donno this one is episode what already lah.. hai.. slowly go and check through the archives then add in a title in.. hahahah..

i have never seen a person who self-praise himself handsome.. if he is asking as a question, i still can tell a white lie.. self-praise is downright disgraceful..

if this person who finds himself handsome, why work in a warehouse?? go and apply for a job as a model or actor..

imagine a big boss is not around, and you are in an air-conditioned room with 8-9 people working around you, while you sitting down watching a video.. what will people think of you??

plus, he think he is a junior executive.. need to be arrogant abit to show some wings.. oh come on, he need to work smart, not look to be working hard..

since he claims to be so handsome, i believe he got the ability to call someone on his own side to help him do his work.. not us..

Accident

wah lao.. early in the morning received a sms saying that my friend is involved in an accident.. what a good time to start my day..

my mood of course was not good while working..

thanks goodness he is out of danger now.. he has transferred from CGH to TTSH.. tomorrow will go and visit him..

New System sucks

LOW MORALE!!!

hai.. because of a new system to clock the time in and out, the privileages are gone.. no more coming in late.. no more flexibility..

now we have to make good use of the time that is given to us for OT.. we have to use it fully to the extent that not even a sec is wasted..

i dont want to say how we have to spend the time fully as i believe there are some people "monitoring" my blog..

hai.. tough times ahead..

She doesnt meant what she say

erm.. what girls say, they doesnt meant it.. right?? i donno whether i should state an example to it..

this girl.. her status was "Single" before she went overseas.. after coming back from holiday, she put "It's complicated.." i dont have to say where i see it in the internet..

secondly she casually mentioned to me in sms that she want to get married within 2 yrs and become a full time housewife.. but on the other hand, i dont see her other half or any pic to prove it.. just a ring on her right hand is the proof.. but i saw on several occasions that she doesnt put the ring on.. forgetful?? i doubt so..

is this girl playing a game of bluff with me?? or is another case of "she doesnt mean what she say"??

70s and 80s lifestyle

received this email.. and i should add what we are doing in this new century.. 45 things we did in the 70s and the 80s..

1. You grew up watching He-man, MASK, Transformers, Centurions, Silver Hawk and Mickey Mouse. Not to forget Ninja Turtles, My Little Pony and Smurfs,Visionaries,too..

(now watch reality shows and singing competitions which is more sucks than the cartoons)

2. You grew up brushing your teeth with a mug in primary school during recess time. You will squat by a drain with all your classmates beside you, and brush your teeth with a coloured mug.The teacher said you must brush each side 10 times too.

(i donno whether is there such a practice in primary school now)

3. You know what SBC stands for.

(what about TCS?? i know now is mediacorp)

4. You pay 40 cents for Chocolate or Strawberry MILK every week in class.

(haha, that what i used to do back then.. but after primary 4, no more supply coming in liao..)

5. You watch a very popular Malay dubbed Japanese drama on RTM1 about schoolgirls who possess powerful skills in volleyball called Meoro Attack and Oshin.

(huh.. i dont watch these kind of show back then..)

6. You find your friends with pagers and handphone cool in Secondary school.

(now primary school students take the latest hp liao.. still secondary school..)

7. SBS buses used to be non-airconditioned. The bus seats are made of wood and the cushion is red. The big red bell gives a loud BEEP when pressed.. There are colourful tickets for TIBS buses. The conductor will check for tickets by using a machine which punches a hole in the ticket.

(all air-con liao, people complain what to do and bus company rich ma, still increase fare.. now is ding dong.. not BEEP!!)

8. Envelopes given to us to donate to Sharity Elephant every Children's Day.

(i think this charity closes down liao as the donations is less than 2 dollars..)

9. You've probably read Young Generation magazine.You know who's Vinny the little vampire and Acai the constable.

(ya.. now we read FHM, Maxim, Newman..)

10. You were there when they first introduced MRT here. You went for the first ride with your parents and you would kneel on the seat to see the scenery.

( now MRT is a new place for those who want to kill themselves.. )

11. Movie tickets used to cost only $3.50.

(now $9.50.. but still considered cheaper in other countries..)

12. Gals are fascinated by Strawberry Short Cake and Barbie Dolls.

(now girls are into maplestory and chasing idols..)

13. You learn to laugh like The Count in Sesame Street.

(only crazy people will laugh like that..)

14. You longed to buy tibits called Kaka (20 cents per pack), and Ding Dang (50 cents per box), that had a toy in it and it changes every week. Not forgetting the 15 cents animal crackers and the ring pop, where the lollipop is the diamond on the ring.

(no more supply liao.. )

15. You watched TV2 (also known as Channel 10) cartoons because Channel 5 never had enough cartoons for you.

(the trend still continues.. now show those repeated movies, american sitcoms, reality shows, and football matches..)

16. Hardy Boys, Nancy Drew, The Three Investigators, Famous Five and Secret Seven are probably the thickest story books you ever thought you have read. Even Sweet Valley High and Malory Towers .

(now not books liao.. all go internet liao.. or play LAN games.. )

17. KFC used to be a high class restaurant that serve food in plates and let you use metal forks and knives.

(try that before, much more delicious back then.. chicken portions also bigger.. now so small, must buy 2 sets then eat full.. now all paper and use your hands.. KFC is a restuarant, not a fast food restuarant.. hai)

18. The most vulgar thing you said was asshole and idiot and THE MOST EXTREME WAS 'super white'... you just couldn't bring yourself to say the hokkien relative.

(now even parents also bring into the equation liao.. small kids also saying that now..)

19. Catching was the IN thing and twist as the magic word.

(mention the word 'DoTA' now, everyone crowds around you..)

20. Your English workbooks was made of some damn poor quality paper that was smooth and yellow.

(now all Double A paper.. no wonder school fees is on the rise..)

21. CDIS were your bestfriend.

(who is that? i donno who is CDIS..)

22. The only computer lessons in school involved funny pixellised characters in 16 colours walking about trying to teach you maths.

(now much faster, much more pixels, more colours..)

23. Waterbottles were slinged around your neck and a must everywhere you go.

(now water bottles are put beside the bag..)

24. Boys loved to play soccer with small plastic balls in the basketball court.

(lifestyle still the same, but ball bigger and harder..)

25. Teng-teng, five stones, chapteh, hentam bola and zero point were all the rage with the girls and boys too...

(now is all sit down and stare at computer liao.. no more sweating outside playing those games..)


26. Science was fun with the balsam and the angsana being the most important plants of our lives, guppies and swordtail being the most important fish.

(im out of touch with Science subject.. so i got no comments)

27. Who can forget Ahmad, Bala, Sumei and John, eternalized in our minds from the textbooks. Even Mr Wally & Mr. Yakki. What abt Miss Lala??? And Zaki and Tini in Malay Textbooks?

(ya.. at least now better, with new names that are hard to pronounce..)

28. We carry out experiments of our own to get ourself badges for being a Young Zoologist/Botanist etc.

(im a lazy bugger back then.. now i dont think got this type of activity..)

29. Every Children's day and National day you either get pins or pens with 'Happy Children's Day 1993' or dumb files with 'Happy National Day 1994'.

(i throw away already.. i dont think there is any to give out now..hahaha)

30. In Primary six you had to play buddy for the younger kids like big sister and brother.

(everywhere is the same.. be it in primary school or secondary school.. working world also the same)

31. We wear BM2000, BATA, Double Happiness or Pallas shoes.

(hahaha, now more brander shoes can be wear to school..)

32. Your form teacher taught you Maths, Science and English.

(ya ya.. very true.. see the form teacher see until sian.. now got different teacher for different subject..)

33. You went to school in slippers and a raincoat when it rained, and you find a dry spot in the school to sit down, dry your feet, and wear your dry and warm socks and shoes.

(now people drive their children to school whether is rain or shine.. what luxury we had back then..)

34. School dismissal time was normally around 1 pm.

(i will find it surprise if school end at 1 now.. now school ends at 3 or 5..)

35. There would be spelling tests and mental sums to do almost everyday.

(now what kind of test also have.. CA followed by SA, followed by prelim, followed by final exams..)

36. Your friends considered you lucky and rich if your parents gave you $3 or more for pocket money everyday.

(now the sky is the limit.. the line is clear between rich student and poor students)

37. You see Wee Kim Wee's face in the school hall.

(now is S. R. Nathan's face)

38. You freak out when the teacher tells you to line up according to height and hold hands with the corresponding boy or girl.

(no such rule in my school.. i think if a boy touch a girl, girl shout molest liao..)

39. Boys like to catch fighting spiders.

(boys use it to scare girls.. not see spiders fighting with other spiders..)

40. Collecting and battling erasers was a pastime for boys.

(all those rubbers that got countries on it.. now is very rare..)

41. Autograph books were loaded with "Best Wishes", "Forget Me Not", and small poems like "Bird fly high, hard catch. Friend like you, hard to forget".

(now got internet, msn, friendster..)

42. Class monitors and prefects loved to say "You talk somemore, I write your name ah!"

(i have been a monitor during secondary school and ite.. but i not that of person to say this kind of thing..)

43. There were at least 40 people in one class.

(now 20 people in one class is already consider big liao..)

44. Large, colourful schoolbags were carried.

(now all kinds of slingbags which is black.. no more colourful schoolbags..)

45. You brought every single book to school, even though there was one thing called the timetable.

(now can go internet and check timetable.. no need to bring books also can..)

Passive Income

last week finally have 2 days of OT.. before that, there isnt any OT for 2 weeks.. people go ATM with a smile.. i go ATM looking at the figure with a shocking look..

but im looking forward to dec and jan.. that the peak and super-peak period.. good and bad about OT are, got OT but no time to spend.. no OT and the income is lesser..

im thinking of earning some income through doing some financial report like tax, costing or even accounting.. besides, im enrolling to banking and finance course to Ngee Ann Poly next yr and will like to get some knowledge.. it's been 2 yrs since i touched a calculator.. anyone willing to give me a try.. just tell me what to do and i can give the report the way you want it to be.. haha..

one of my colleagues have been shooting me questions on investments and savings.. well, there isnt any right or wrong answers.. i just give my views on what he ask me.. i did post regarding about this in Jul or Aug..

Randomness (50)

heng.. lucky i got ask around regarding my friend's theory.. and is not proven to be correct.. phew..

look like my friend is gonna to get a scolding from me liao.. anyhow say..

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oh.. i didnt know that my contract have already been completed.. haha.. im quite comfortable with my working colleagues..

the admin staff.. also another funny person.. ask her about her working life.. she go and tell me about her personal life.. until i also interested in it..

wait, before anyone can say it, i want to make something clear about this.. yes, the admin staff is someone i can click with, but that doesnt mean that i have feelings for her.. the age gap is too big for me.. 2-3 yrs still acceptable.. i respect her loyalty in this company for so long.. i dont think i can last so long in a company where i can find new challenges in other companies.. like pay rise, travelling around the world..

Illogical logic

HUH!! got this kind of logic one ah.. i donno how my friend able to come up with this theory that if girls dislike you is actually liking you..

if this theory really do exists, then the first girl who dislike me that comes to my mind will be the ex-friend.. the girl who i knew during my NS days..

pls tell me this theory isnt true.. even if it is true, how to derive to that point?? i dont get it.. can someone pls enlighten me?? does that mean no matter how long the time have been, i still have a place in her heart?? oops, if the ex-friend is reading this, i believe she is cursing and swearing at my friend's theory right now..

i have a conversation with my friend on MSN and somehow 'Relationship' was on the agenda..

Blog updated

blog updated.. a new tag board and chronicles of my life..

today watch two versions of 'Infernal Affairs'.. lol.. both english and chinese versions.. both storyline are practically the same except for the ending..

'Infernal Affairs need 3 shows to make a story but 'The Departed' need only one to make the story.. remember Leon Lai character in the last instalment of the Infernal Affairs.. In The Departed, the cop who abused his authority, curses and swear is character play by Leon Lai.. somehow the ending in The Departed got to do with this character..

Unreasonable Warehouse co-ordinator

first time show face, ok, nvm.. second time show face, i begin to doubt already..

what the use of asking people to pass msg when im the one who is doing it?? i wonder if my colleagues like to do that in the first place?? by doing so, it only create more confusion and misunderstanding.. though it's not happening at the moment, but i believe it will..

now i dont have the enthusiasm in working anymore..

Working world

hai.. look like what i learned in NS is not forgotten in the working world..

- never ever trust anyone.. this rule is only exception to some people..

- politics exist.. yes, but i dont play..

- never treat everyone as friends.. this rule have draw the line very clearly.. once work is over, that it..

breaking the ice in my working place is like the ice is made of diamond.. that is how difficult it is until recently.. the common topics are......guy topics!! lol!! 10 hours of endless talking.. from the moment i step in to work till i step out of work.. my mouth is damn tired lor.. somehow i just show them a games list that is coming out soon and the ice is broken.. i use the wrong weapon to break it.. =/

by the way, im going to change the status of the co-ordinator that i need to report to as the admin staff.. hehehe..

Different personalities

argh.. two contrasting worlds of working personalities.. different wavelength of frequency.. one end to another end and im stuck in the middle.. instructions given from both sides, im the one who is confused right from the start.. who to listen? the one that is in charge? or the one that is helping out at the moment?

i dont want to go into details about it.. there are some things that people doesnt want me to know.. fine with it.. but im definitely not naive to go and believe it.. the way people express themselves and the body language gives it away.. im just turning a blind eye or deaf ear to it..

Funny warehouse executive

there is some incidents which i intend to blog about it but was totally forgotten about it until recently.. all these happened during the 3 days where the co-ordinator went on cruise.. anyone recall that i have to report to another co-ordinator.. today post will be all on her.. wahahaha..

all i can say is she is good to bully, child-like behaviour and a priceless expression..

i dont think i need to say about good to bully as it is very obvious.. 6 of us bullying her during the 3 days in charge..

priceless expression: every day, for these 3 days, the quantity of the books is not tallied..and everyday i have to tell her.. by the end of the 3rd day, she gives an expression which is priceless!!

child-like behaviour: ok, she wants it fast and accurate.. no OT.. and i was surprised that the dept give us the books during the 3 days was like all come up at one shot.. i was alone and doing it myself while my colleagues was doing some cleaning.. and the next thing i knew, she and my supervisor come and help.. so i take a short break and stand there, watch them doing when something caught my eyes..

just imagine.. she was sitting down on a moveable chair, with books on her laps and use both hands to tap on the books (the action was like playing piano).. i was stunned and when she realise that i was watching her doing that action, i quickly turned my head away trying to control my laughter..

got 2 more points to add, i find that i have a great working chemistry with her.. she doesnt have to say anything and i know what she wants me to do..

basically i have to communicate with her if i have any problems at work, hence i have her contact no.. imagine when i get to know her nickname.. i disturb her through sms sia.. hahaha..

but i dont think i will last long in this job.. currently there are 5 of us.. 2 of them is waiting for NS.. if 1 leave, still manageable.. if both gone, i will follow them..

Bond building

i feel that my supervisor is either trying to be funny with us or want to make us angry..

he told us that if very busy, he will ask one of us to help.. but in the end, he call other sections to help.. Saturday is a perfect example.. we already agreed that we will do it all and finish it all as a team.. but instead he call one from other section to help.. and this section is starting to busy with those packing.. and they have not finish it.. what the heck? i wish to say some more about this particular girl from the packing section but on the other hand, i decided to keep it within our team..

since the incident, i find more comfortable working with my team than from other sections.. maybe the bond is starting to build up..

and lastly, the way some people treat me, i will treat back the same way back to these people..

Implemented working plans

did i mentioned that the working environment situation was solved DURING the co-ordinator's cruise??

our team have a discussion about it during meal time.. and i was surprised to see her asking me when she was back.. since she ask me, i just told her lor.. ok, maybe i was harsh in the conversation, i apologised for that.. the very next day, to my horror, show me faces.. that very minute, i dont give a damn anymore..

i shall give a better scenerio about my working environment..

in the morning, other departments will bring up small quantities of books.. i still can manage on my own, take my own sweet time to finish until lunch time.. if other sections were to come and help, i will have a lot of free time.. is like you want to savour an exotic food for all the time that you want, but the moment you turn around, the food is no longer there.. the help that i need is permanent.. not as and when others see it fit to do it..

after lunch time is a nightmare.. the dept will bring up large amount of books.. that where i need help already..

one thing my colleagues all agree on was the time management.. it really sucks.. anyway, the situation is more clear cut now.. if the quantities is really alot, then they will come and help after lunch time.. if is small amount, then they will do their own things.. through trials and tribulations, my colleagues and i have a better understanding on our individual duties..

but we cant wait for the day to come when the evil plan shall come into play..

Middlemen

look like my colleagues are in for a tough time.. they have to pass messages between me and the co-ordinator..

since this incident, the co-ordinator have the intention to ask my colleagues to do what im currently doing.. but the funny thing is, my supervisor's instructions overrule it.. so is practically back to me again..

my colleagues and i have an evil plan in mind.. hahaha.. will not disclose about it.. but waiting for the prefect time to carry out..

Working arrangements

just by stating some facts on work, i pay a price for it..

- heard from my colleague that i was rude to other colleagues.. ok.. i accepted the comment before adding on that in the midst of working, they come in and ask me what to do.. but they know how to do..

- when i need help in work, the help is not there.. when i no need help, other sections will come and help.. before i voice out, i was working alone.. the work required at least 2 persons to do in order to meet the deadline..

by voicing out, the only consolation that i got from my supervisor is the help will be mobilised within our team if i cant do it alone.. and not from other sections.. im actually quite happy with the arrangements..

want to know what consequences i got by voicing out??

a standoff with a full time co-ordinator..

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Bless me that i wont go mad tomorrow..

Bless me tomorrow that i wont go mad..

Hope i wont go mad tomorrow, bless me!!

Hope tomorrow i wont go mad, bless me!!

i think im really go mad now.. =/

IMF/World Bank Meetings

hello.. im still here.. im blogging right now.. im playing computer games now.. im chatting with my friends online right now..

why everyone asking me why im not involved in the IMF? ask the government lah.. ask me for what.. kao..

if im really involved in it, i will not be here blogging.. i will not be working as well.. i will be in Suntec area from last Sat onwards..

who want to go and secure the place for 2 weeks without going home?? who wants this kind of job?? pls inform me, and i will have ways to tell the government that someone will like to do this job in the future..

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argh.. i find it very funny interacting with people.. when i tell the truth, no one will believe.. when i tell a lie, the whole world believe... wth.. hai.. my expression of bewildered eyes said it all..

look like im a person who no one understand.. the way i work, the way i talk, whatever the way i do..

- im a person who is easy going.. really.. as long as it is within my limits, i will help all the way..

- when "push" by people, i still can accept.. i give some leeway.. but when come to shove, the person will be out of my radar.. "once bitten twice shy", this saying will be permanently on my mind..

- whatever i do, i do it fast.. i dont like to idle till the last min and rush things through, purposely just to pull down the pants and get others screwed..

- if something is going to happening according to my gut feeling, dont freak out when it indeed happen.. and dont even say im oversensitive or jump to conclusions.. i cant explain why i able to do it.. dont ask me.. i can only say that it's either a curse or a gift..

- if you all want to make fun of me, or joke about me till the cows come home, go ahead.. dont just because of my look, you all freak out.. as long as it doesnt involve my family directly.. i will definitely appreciated the jokes and the fun, be it cold jokes or just pure fun..

any more questions that want to know more about me.. ask, and i will gladly answer..

Clarifications

wait.. some clarifications to avoid misunderstanding..

- firstly, i dont considered the previous post as a personal problem to me.. my only personal problem, i will not disclosed no matter what.. some things are better left unsaid..

- secondly, i did not blame anyone or point any finger.. it just that the essential ingredients for the relationship isnt there.. communication, trust and faith.. none was there..

- thirdly, acting as a spiritual support doesnt means that i wont rule out her in the future.. maybe in the past, i was naive to think that she will be my future partner.. but now is the time to move on.. if she have found hers, i will gladly give my blessings to her.. who knows, maybe i find mine in poly (hahahahaha) or in the working world..

7 yrs is not a short time.. but i find it ironic that in the bible, God also say that a slave can only work for his master for 7 years before he is free.. or how about this, a debt is to be clear by the 7th yr or it will deem void?? haha, just joking.. dont link it, if not all relationship can only last for 7 yrs..

Letting go after 7 years

im writing this post with a heavy heart.. but the blow is not that hard as i have pondered about it for quite a long time..

i decided to let go a person whom i hold so dearly for 7 years.. if there is a reason to give, i cant find a reason.. but i find that for a relationship to grow, there should be give and take.. and it also take two hands to clap.. both are not present in this relationship.. firstly, i find myself giving all this while.. and secondly, i send 10 emails to her, none replied.. thirdly, she say she want to have fellowship, i tried to get her msn address to chat with her when she was in overseas, also no answer.. i did tried to call her, but trying to find a topic to talk was hopeless for me..

if people were reading this post that im foolish.. i have every reason to argue back.. firstly i only go in a relationship which is the first and the final.. what for go for so many? gain experience or going 'shopping'? secondly, financially stable.. if you go on a date, money for dinner, movie comes from your own pocket or parents' hard-earned money?

i have shared this with some of my friends.. when she is in overseas, she is another person.. but back in singapore, she will take me as a spiritual support.. if she have any chance to read upon my blog.. only words to say to her is, if im still regarded as your spiritual support.. i will gladly be one, that all.. nothing more nothing less.. i better make a stand or else i will be taken for a free ride.. yes, i do know that im not in a state to go into a relationship.. but i do not wish to wait in such a way the blow will be harder and a much bitter pill to swallow..

Trusting face

im feeling very amused right now.. do i really have a look of trusting face? or did my forehead got write, "trusting guy!!"??

haven even know my colleagues well enough, one of them tell me a secret.. she still add in this disclaimer, "dont worry, the others donno.. you are the first.." sure or not, i give her the benefit of doubt..

is like there are some details i didnt even think or want to ask, it will just fall onto my laps prefectly.. but there are some questions which i want the answers, till now still no answers.. how ironic..

First day of work

Tuesday was my first day of work.. understudy as i get to learn the ropes.. tired and muscle ache due to long holiday at home.. haha.. NS do nothing mah.. sit down stay with dog and sleep..

slowly i get the hang of the work through the last 2 days plus today.. my body also slowly adapting to the work load.. and also good thing was i get to know my colleagues fast and able to enjoy the working environment, if not i will be very lonely.. haha..

oh ya, by the way, before the first day of work, the person who interviewed me say i need to multi-task.. the words are good to hear.. but i was wrong.. i need to do 3 person's work and i only got paid for one person's work.. hai.. now i know why there are still so many people who are jobless..

New chapter of life

Today first day of work.. i take some emotional lugguage with me in the first step on the corporate world regarding about the previous post..

the punishment i received is double.. the pain is double.. and the time to erase the pain also double.. hai..

at least im better now.. the previous post, i was thinking of where is my happiness, my smile, my carefree mind, etc.. so you all could imagine how bad it was.. hai..

hopefully the new chapter of my life will able to let me lessen the emotional lugguage, ease the pain, and forget the past.. but the scar lingered.. =/

Randomness (46)

sigh.. yesterday night cannot sleep.. donno why.. every few hours wake up and eyes will stare blankly at the ceiling.. even today go for work also dont feel tired, but very restless..

the space around me seem closer and closer.. im grasping for fresh air around me.. but all i find is rope on my neck, people crowding around me expecting me something which i donno what is it..

last weekend went to church, i felt very at ease and very peaceful as if something heavy have lifted off my shoulders.. but after a few days, the peace is no longer there.. i feel so lost..

i wanted to shout to get some attention, but my mouth is gagged.. i need help, but it deserted me.. i want it my own way, but it goes the other way.. i want a listening ear, but advise and scoldings are upon me..

i did promised to myself that i wont ask anyone for help anymore if not, it will only sink me deeper into oblivion and also escaping the problem.. why i didnt saw the escape route earlier, im now on highway, on the route to death..

dont ask me what is it.. for my mouth will never speak out what i have done.. it will remain in my heart, my mind, and a lesson learnt till the day im gone..

no other people are involved in it.. is my full responsibility that i started it and i shall be the one to end it.. but i cant take it anymore.. im tired, i want a rest, but i cant..

only hope i have is, for the month of August to end..

alone in despair.......................................

sign off with a heavy sigh, with a troubled mind plus a reluctant heart..

Randomness (45)

eating snake at the moment, using my friend's office computer to blog..

wah.. i find this world very practical sia.. yesterday sent out 10 resumes.. and only 1 replied.. thurs interview.. hai.. have to wear formal liao.. have to bring relevant documents to secure the job even though the caller didnt specifically mentioned it..

even though im working part time at the moment, the income supplement is not enough.. $5 per hr.. and is only a few days per week.. that why i need to find a full time job.. i need to refresh my memories what i have learn in ite is fully forgotten in the 2 yrs of NS.. argh.. going to do some crash course in accounting..

IMF/World Bank in Singapore

woohoo.. im not involved in the world bank.. hahaha.. phew.. i have been dreading for the call for days.. kind of acted too fast in applying for it..

now i can concentrate of securing a full time job while working part time for my tuition teacher at the moment..

Missed Blacky

i miss blacky!! i dont think other dogs can replace him in my heart already..

i miss his whining..
i miss his salute upon command..
i miss his one kind of attitude when giving commands to him.. he will give a 'hack-care' attitude but will still do it.. haha..
i miss his car-sickness that he will vomit in the car everytime.. and im not complaining that i have to clean up the mess..
i miss his loyalty that he only listen to the handler's command and not other people..
i miss his way of greeting people.. stick out his arms to shake hand without fail..

when i first take him, only a few people know that this dog was first handled by Chee Kok Jin.. after passing out from the basic handling course, more and more people get to know him and love him until the dog trial.. after that, everyone all knows him.. i dont even mind he is taking all the credit.. he deserve it after all.. he is way too special.. he shouldnt have let us handle him in the first place.. only special people like Chee Kok Jin deserve to handle him.. i dont deserve to handle him.. i merely taking care of him all this while..

Life in K-9 (74)

hai.. Blacky go back to HQ to be trained by the kennel hand.. but somehow the person who come and take the dog back is none other than Chee Kok Jin.. i dont think Blacky will be hand over to the kennel hand permanently.. but merely handle him just to take the handling allowance.. haha.. whatever the actual reason is, i believe that Blacky will still be under the care of Chee Kok Jin..

im having a mixed feeling right now.. one is sad, as though someone whom you with together for the last 1 and 1/2 yrs, suddenly just leave you without notice or answer.. the pain is there.. but hope through working will able to ease the pain.. another one is happy that in a way or another, Blacky is back to the rightful owner..

today i thought i can ord peacefully.. thought can get IC and go out celebrate.. but to my horror, i have to go back again tomorrow just to collect the IC.. not only that, today went 3 places.. SOC, K-9 HQ and changi base.. just to collect signatures.. pengz.. but at least tomorrow i can go and collect my IC with peace..

ORD

some great news to announced..

1) ORD lor!! =p

2) Blacky wont be going back to HQ as the kennels there are full with those new dogs coming in.. will go back one of these days to see him and give him a good scrub.. he on holiday so song until no one want to bathe him.. ee, blacky smelly!!

3) had a heart to heart talk with someone who have not been very good terms with him since TRACOM.. found out that the things i did in HQ that spread to other sub bases were like a forest fire.. well, you all know what happened when i transfer to changi sub base.. no one give me the chance to redeem for what i did in HQ.. i earned back the chance in these 7 months in changi base.. i pull out the fire on my own.. and proved them wrong.. and also say to them, "dont believe in gossips!! it move people to prove them wrong all the more.if you want to know the person from the start, start afresh and dont listen from gossips and make judgement!!" this lesson doesnt learn from book one hor!!

Cab fare increased

2 weeks have gone since the cab fare increase, and i only took 4 times.. and i dont want to take.. die die also not taking.. yeah, i know that Singapore cab fare is the lowest compared to Hong Kong, London.. but im not working.. why should i be the one that is paying for the cab diesel cost..

i rather wake up early, take a bus or the train, add in some sweat-smelling armpits that struck in front of me, to my destination..

let do some calculation.. say we take the maximum transport expenses of $4.. $2 to office, another $2 back home.. 1 month is about $120..

taxi.. "uncle, changi!!" uncle hear already, grin from face to face.. reach destination, uncle's bright white teeth showing you and say, "kao liao.. $10.. thank you! eh, want me to fetch you to and fro everyday? hehehe.." one month can help him pay his cab rental and diesel liao.. $300..

if i reject uncle's offer, and instead opt to save about $180.. what do you think the uncle will say?

i give up on friendster liao.. hai.. add friends but the number of friends still the same or will be lesser by the day..

Happy Birthday 2006

right.. happy birthday.. a day of celebration and happiness.. but to me, i find this day normal leh.. haha.. maybe i miss the boat of celebration 2 yrs back.. other than that is pretty mundane to me..

Overall experience in NS

As at this time, i hereby announced that im an ORD personnel.. hehehe..

2 yrs of National Service.. im finally a man.. hahaha..

6 months of Physical Training in TRACOM, 1 1/2 yrs in Dog Unit.. learn alot of things where books cant teach.. im happy that my last days in Dog Unit was happy memories.. but sad to leave Blacky.. now im hoping they wont take Blacky back to HQ.. if not, i will never have the chance to see him again..

Dollar and Sense

Yesterday watched the debut episode of Dollar and Sense, hosted by Bryan Wong.. this is a game show where 4 celebrities have the same amount of money which they can invest.. as times goes by, they face some difficulties like big problem, small problem, bankrupt or good news..

as a person who went through a course where money is mattered in ite, these are tips to be shared.. there is only one lesson that i shared but yet never applied on my own.. =/

1) dont apply for credit card.. the interest is the highest among housing loan, car loan..

2) in case of emergency, you must have at least 3-6 months of savings..

3) the lowest risk and lowest investment is fixed deposit.. this is the one that i had shared before.. but didnt applied because i dont have the minimum savings that required for the fixed deposit.. i remember got one newspaper report saying that now alot of elderly people are putting their savings in fixed deposit just to earn interest.. shake leg also got interest coming in.. eh, can share some interest to me.. i no money leh.. hehehe

4) if want to buy a car, make sure your salary is above 2k.. eh, i think i go and sleep and dream about it.. hai.. when is this dream going to be granted..

5) want to save, save more than 50% of your salary if can.. this is the most difficult lesson people can ever applied in life.. im not excluded as well.. but because of my family problems, i have to help them.. unless you are high-flier like some celebrities or businessman.. you never know when is the rain will come.. think for yourself instead of the materialistic things that you intend to get..

for me, as long as there is shoes, clothes to wear, food to eat, bed to sleep.. im contended.. i dont care how outside people look at me.. even handphone also want to gone case, i not complaining either.. my intention now is go through the storm with my family..i cant blame my family for the cause that they have gone through..i can only trust God who deliver.. the tips that i given is 100% harmless.. it will definitely come in handy..

Moonlighting

jobs are all out there to find.. in the internet, in the newspaper.. apply through agencies..

but the job im currently doing is slave work for my tuition teacher friend because i could only work until end of Aug.. after which, the World Bank Conference in sep, i will somehow be there.. not as a policeman or reservist.. hahah.. only certain people know.. think will surprise my former colleagues in the dog unit.. hehehe..

only then, im free to work outside.. this is what i call bumming around.. haha.. from helping my tuition teacher to world bank conference to outside job..

minci, i donno what job you looking for.. maybe i can help you.. only thing i cant help is resume.. is damn hard to write lor.. hai..

the last 2 weeks are hell to me.. watch world cup then go to work.. off days also go and work.. then i think it to myself, "wah, if like that work, i dont have time for myself.. no no.. cannot.." after that, discuss with my tuition teacher friend..

Tuition Teacher

few days back, i went to see a teacher who is currently teaching at a tuition agency as i was looking for a job, hence on the way meet up with her..

the last time i saw her was like in year 2001.. i donno her age but she is in clubbing scene since the first day i know her at a private school.. she look totally different now leh.. my curiousity overwhelms and somehow the conversation goes like this..

Me: "wah, so long never see you, you change alot.."

she: "Ya, you also what.."

Me: -___- "ya ya.. but i dont think you teach until stress and your look change overnight.."

she: "no lah.. you know that i was in clubbing, right? aiya, just say that, too much clubbing ruin my youth..."

me: "huh.. i dont get you.. "

she: "personal problems lah.. then went to pub to drown my sorrow lor.. drink too much, that why i look quite terrible now.."

me: "orh.. binge drinking.."

she: "yeah.. sigh......... dont learn from me.. you still look quite young despite your age is 23.."

me: "wah pian, always meet up kana suan.. never suan me one day cannot one leh.."

she is one example where in the newspaper reports that girls are on the rise of binge drinking.. nowadays, girls dont really look like their age have stated.. but look over-matured.. just walk down the street, i can see guys and girls walking together in a relationship, my impression of that couple would be, "is that girl his sister or what? or the guy is her brother??"

i donno whether i should count my youth as a blessing or not.. =/

Looking for jobs

Now looking for jobs at the moment.. make some phone calls, send some emails.. Basket, all calls and mails come in at the same time, at the same day.. and ask me for an appointment at the same time, at the same day which is tomorrow.. what the hell.. eh, i cant appear like 2 places at a time, provided i have a person who look exactly like me, or i have a clone machine.. that wont be a problem..

World Cup 2006

World cup is here again.. held in germany from jun 9 - jul 9.. 32 teams fight over for the ultimate prize.. think will create another blog for it..

here is the address: http://cool402-worldcup06-germany.blogspot.com/

Dog Handler Required

hai.. my request is denied yet again.. sigh..

WANTED: A dog handler who is able to maintain or better still, improve Blacky's obedience..

REQUIREMENT: Top 5 in Dog Assessment every year.. (this one not i say one, is the mdm from changi base..)

INFO on knowing the dog better: Ask Chee Kok Jin or myself.. wahahaha..

this dog has already earn a place in my heart.. dont think any dog or any person can take away this place..

SI Chee's Retirement

today went for SI Chee's retirement dinner.. though my request for him to handle Blacky is rejected, but at least i give him a gift that is dear to him.. a photo of Blacky..

i still harboured the hope that he can still handle Blacky.. im not giving up the hope..

Life in K-9 (73)

wahahaa.. i just couldnt help it.. i dont have anything to post at the moment as i already in ORD mood.. productivity is already in mid level after the dog trial.. even worse when it comes to jun.. completely no productivity already..

this morning, saw a snake at the DO office.. donno how it come in.. but we have a fun time catching it, we still managed to catch it with a dog catcher pole..

other than that.. nothing liao.. so the next posting will post when the blue moon comes.. ahhaha..

Dog Trial Competition

dog trial results was abit unexpected.. think quite alot of people was expecting my dog and another dog's name Jack to be the champion.. but alas, it was not to be.. is another case of underdog to be the champion once again.. i got third overall..

at least i dare to say i try my best liao.. i try my best not to let Blacky know that im nervous.. took deep breath and did the whole exercise.. i lose to a better handler, that all..

now i can ORD in a peace of mind.. but i doubt about my DY-CO about the promise that i requested.. this is one request i would like to fight for it before i ORD..

Life in K-9 (72)

long time never blog leh.. been busy lately.. just to take time out for a break..

i have make a request to my unit DY-CO that Blacky to be hand over to the very first handler to take care of him.. firstly, is because of the respect i have for the handler.. secondly, is because whenever i went back for In-service, he will always ask how is Blacky.. lol.. and also partly is because i find that the SC nowadays just take the dog for granted.. i feel that i have completed my duties in taking care of the dog that he once attached to and also in a way, improve Blacky's weakness.. in this coming dog trial, i hope to do my very best and present him the best present ever.. whatever the outcome, i will grab it as a bonus to me.. the handler is none other than SI Chee..

secondly, i find my posting from HQ to Changi Base is a blessing in disguise (again).. if i still staying in my current team in HQ, i dont think i will survive mainly is because of those reshuffling of manpower in between those 4 teams.. Changi Base is, as long as you are happy with the team that you are in, no reshuffling is needed..

in these 1 1/2 yrs that i in dog unit.. i learned alot of things that textbook will not provide us with.. human relationship, leadership qualities are put to the test every day, every hour.. there is no point in showing your stubborness when management at the top want to make a change.. and as a basic manner in human relationship, there should be at least a "give-and-take" attitude.. and not just show the ranks that those people are holding.. there is no way you can please anyone but as long as you have your own kakis.. the environment might be a better place to work in..

will blog more about it later..

Freak accident

i dont think anyone will believe that Blacky accidentally bite people.. but it's true, and it just happened to be a freak accident.. one of the trainer act as a baitor and let Blacky bit on a sleeve.. and Blacky bit on the spot where the sleeve have no cover.. the wound was quite deep.. i was kind of feeling bad about it..

after that, we did some obedience exercises using tennis balls as a guideline.. and i found out that Blacky's bite is getting harder and harder.. one of the tennis ball was on the verge of been bitten off and have his bite marks very deep obviously..

Friendster

Friendster damn sucks.. upload photo yet upload so many and now i have to delete those extra copies.. i donno why they want to put so many things in.. from a simple add-friends site to a rubbish chute site.. got mtv, videos to upload, horoscopes, classifieds jobs to look for, testimonials now becoming more funky.. what next..

i heard they are coming up with friendster radio stations.. and post private photos!?!? erm, whatever.. i just want a simple Friendster website, tat's all.. is that hard to do meh??

Pre Dog Trial

11th May.. Dog Trial..

just gone back to HQ for refresher.. all the people are speculating that i might get the top prize.. haha.. i dont think so.. i dont even dare to think so far ahead.. initially i just want a pass on my assessment, that all.. to get into top 5 is a bonus and also Johnny's way of assessing.. i didnt bribe him for goodness sake.. i dont think i stand to gain anything from it..

hai, after this week's refresher and gone back to sub base, i have to put in extra effort during my shift work to train Blacky for the big day.. not too much or else Blacky dont want to do on the day itself.. it will be very malu..

Draw a pig

http://www.freaknfunny.com/files/upload/draw-a-pig.swf

try this, guys.. you have to draw a pig and answer 6 questions.. and you will know the personality through drawing the pig..

this is my results..

-Toward the middle of the frame, you are a realist.
-Facing left, you believe in tradition, are friendly, and remembering dates (birthdays etc)
-With few details, you are emotional and naive, you care little for details and are a risk-taker
-With 4 legs showing, you are secure, stubborn, and stick to your own ideals.
-The size of the ears indicates how good a listener you are. You are a good listener.
-The length of the tail indicates the quality of your sex life. You have a poor sex life.

quite true leh.. hehe..

Eight Below

watched eight below this afternoon.. all i can say is that, if the actor were to be me, i will also do the same as what the actor did.. the bond is there.. i will risk the dangers just to save them.. just that the ending abit sad.. should have all 8 dogs been saved will have a nice ending..

recently, i did some mental calculation about how much i use per month.. i was shocked when i saw the figure.. its about 800++++.. i think i need to cut down the costs liao..

things to cut down :-
- transport (especially taxis)
- entertainment ( movies, pool..)

by cutting down on these 2 things, i think i able to save about 300 dollars per month.. in 3 months time, i dont even have any ns allowance coming in.. lucky got the progress package.. hope the money can tide me through while looking for a part time job..

Life in K-9 (71)

i was not prepared for the good news that mdm have in store for me.. Blacky is in the up coming dog trial.. and come out top for this year assessment.. i was flattered to hear that.. now im more prone to anxiety attacks as the dog trial is just round the corner..

and i also know who is the one that tag my message board as "A" : "Try lah".. guess i have underestimated her.. i refrain from saying anything.. think those who read my blog will know who is it..

Driving in the rain

hai.. i hate the weather.. when i want bad weather, they give me hot and humid weather.. when i want hot weather, they give me cold weather instead.. never once in my driving, i ever have a bad weather to drive in.. not even when i went for driving lesson.. not even when im driving when im on duty.. the most i got is a light drizzle.. not heavy rain that last for a few hours..

i love driving during a heavy downpour.. i donno why.. but i just love it.. maybe i drive too long in the sun, and the glare is getting sick of it..

Reservist

hey manpower, how come someone lives in tampines yet can go to A division for his reservist har?? funny leh.. i thought should be in G division or the worst KINS.. but anyway, he sure kana called back for this september World Bank Conference..

on the other hand, i have to thank manpower.. hehe.. they help me to reserve a place in poly lor.. thank you ah.. at least i not afraid of missing my studies while kana called back for the World Bank Conference..

seriously, for someone who thinks that everything is over despite going though the storm, doesnt mean it wont happen again.. he is utterly over-confident about the way it is now.. he is like, someone who got praised too much that he is floating in the sky.. time for some humility lessons..

Life in K-9 (70)

yesterday is a black day.. our team got one new sc who just posted to changi base kana accident.. and is just happened outside our base.. somemore is on the way to work.. he cross the road when he is in front of a bus, a motorbike out of nowhere hit him.. i was at the other side of the road where the accident happened.. another colleague was just infront of the scene.. first time attend accident, straight away call 995.. and not 999.. silly me.. maybe i was too kan cheong and that the accident was minor, hence i call 995 in the first place.. and went to the nearest hospital which is Changi General Hospital..

miracleously, the SC suffered no injuries as he only have abrasions.. while the motorist had a broken collarbone..

oh well.. time for some good news instead.. i received the progess package letter and got $900 from the government..

and Blacky is the first dog to be in the dog trial.. argh..

Wasted trips

damn pissed off today.. i make a total of 2 wasted trips for nothing..

first, went to SOC to collect a letter about my NS status to reserve a place for my studies in poly.. called the person-in-charge.. no answer.. never mind.. called my PNS PO for K-9 and heard that the document is already at his table.. go SOC for nothing, just to come here and see the troopers training..

and so off i went back to HQ.. waited for the PNS PO to come back and collect the document for him.. then went to Ngee Ann Poly to submit the letter in person..

next destination: Ngee Ann Poly.. go up to the admissions office and give the letter.. thought my place will be secured.. who knows the person who received it and say, "this letter is not acceptable as there is no letter head or chop.. i can also just type out the letter like that.." then she called SOC about the lack of letter head of the document and SOC will send the letter on my behalf and Ngee Ann Poly will reply back to me.. wah.. go Ngee Ann poly also for nothing.. go there see girls.. now semester break, no girls to see..

Blacky

Blacky has indeed lived up it name, "SI Chee's Dog.."

i just want a pass on my dog assessment so that i can at least get into ORD mood.. but Blacky dont want me to have that moment so fast.. so he did perfectly good on the assessment that day... argh.. i dont want to go into top 5.. i dont want to carry the Changi Base name alone to HQ..

Me: "Blacky, why you never do well in the first round and have to do exceptionally well in the second round?"

Blacky gives me a blank look and wanted to inch forward to lick my face...

oh, Blacky have also learn from my characters liao.. just say that if he doesnt like to do more than what he required to do.. he wont do for you.. he will ignore your commands and just rest at there.. he seem to tell me that i already know what to do, why still ask me to do some more.. and true to his words, he did his best during the assessment..

minci, this world is unfair.. people around us will take advantage.. they are selfish.. they just want their own benefits.. as long as they can get what they intend to get, they will find all kinds of means to get it.. politics, backstabbing, gossip.. i have see majority of them during my ite and also my current workplace.. do you think the vandalism on the wall, "gary is here" is the first time i saw it.. heck, during my ite, people also do that to me.. on both occasions, i dont really bothered about it.. i just concentrate what i need to do and end my day with a smile on my face.. i have no worries, no guilty conscience, no regrets.. haha, shopping therapy is also a good way to relive stress and also able to reap what you have sow.. dont overlimit your budget.. hahaha..

Application to Ngee Ann Poly

the letter is here.. the result of my application will be known in a matter of seconds when i peeled the strips of the seal away.. and i got into the poly and the course that i wanted.. haha.. 1st time i applied for it, i only put this course in.. they reject as the course is popular and reservations is fill up.. never mind.. 2nd time tried again.. with 4 more courses applied again.. and got it.. Thanks God for that..

now come the problem.. they didnt say when i will start the course.. but guess i have to call them and inform that i want to start the course next yr as i ord in jul.. now is the time to find part time job.. any recommendation, lobangs, intro??

oh, in case you didnt know, i succeed in applying for Banking and Finance Services in Ngee Ann Poly..

Life in K-9 (69)

im very tired.. physically tired.. i need a break.. i need a vacation.. the last break was in dec.. but on the other hand, i have planned my ord leave in such a way that im taking during the night shift in jun for the world cup.. guess i have to push myself for the final 4 months..

some updates..
1) i drop the IPPT as i find that i cant run.. well, not that i have illness but is just that im very lazy to exercise.. and no, im not fat.. im still very much the same..

2)apply for poly.. yet to know the results.. either next week or apr.. hopefully could get into Ngee Ann Poly..

3)dog assessment in 3 days time.. been pressure again by the same old people..

my mdm told me this, "the guy that confronted you, admit his mistakes.. he really did not take the incident into heart but other people might not be that forgiving.." TRUE!!! Changi Base have only a small group of people working.. less than 30 people.. yet majority of it are going against him and his colleague for spoilting the market in Changi Base.. i dont want to say what is the market all about.. own team own matters.. why bother about other team matters?? and why am i the only one kana by him?? why other people dont voice out their unhappiness to him??

yes, im the sort of person who dont like, will voice out my opinion.. hey, that is my right to do it.. i feel that i always have trump cards on my sleeve everytime whenever im in a disadvantage.. like secrets, history.. once i say it out, you will see the sudden change of that person's reaction.. those secrets will be safe unless you want to taste your own medicine..

Life in K-9 (68)

during the morning shift, i received a call from the guy who confronted me.. and apologise to me again and also requested me to shake his hands again infront of mdm.. well, to me, im fine with it.. but i think im having a phobia of working with him again.. even my team also have this phobia..

Life in K-9 (67)

yesterday is a day where i feel like been crucified.. firstly, been confronted by the guy who say that i didnt show him respect.. for the whole of 30 mins, he only ask me 2 qns over and over again.. and bring up the past before i come to Changi Base.. when he repeated the qn for the second time, i knew im having a tough time to convince him even though my answer was like foolproof..

1) why you didnt show respect to me? x 4
ans: ever since you comment the last time that i didnt do anything and make you all do like robots, the respect is not there.. this comment show me his anger..haha..
ans: because of the way you planned the deployment.. this comment soften him now..
ans: you never checked the deployment of my current team before you put me for deployment..
ans: i come here to send vehicle for repair and not do deployment for you..

2) why you rest more than the required time? x 4
ans: mdm briefed me on it.. and she was the one that say ok with it.. x 4

the confrontation settled and shake hands.. i just take whatever he gives.. and i find that the whole confrontation was nothing at all.. because someone else was making comments about me covering in his team.. this person hated me even when i was in HQ.. guess this person must have a good night sleep over the weekend.. but not for long..

now the second one where i went for deployment.. guess what i found? vandalism on the dog hut wall.. the writings were, "gary is here" "ord" "no more delta"
im not that stupid to write on the wall and report to mdm.. this is just like shooting your own self in the foot..

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wahahaha.. someone indirectly told me that i didnt show him respect.. guess that person only heard a part of me about the problems in HQ.. i cant be bothered about it as for me, i dont give a damn about ranks..

hello, im unique.. im one of a kind.. there is no way others can do it the way i want it to be..
if someone say 2, i dare to say 1..
if someone say 1, i go for 2 instead..

this incident happen when i cover for my old team.. as long as i did my deployment, i do my own things.. i rest how long i want.. mdm didnt even question me..

this person have nothing to do, find unnecessary things to play.. this is the second time he is doing it to me.. the first time he did it to me, the respect is gone..

"why you never do anything? make us do like robots.." does deploy as a driver and send people for deployment not doing anything?? i was shocked when he say to me.. after that my impression towards him change for the worse and then he added on, "eh, dont take my comments to heart.. take it easy ok.." that comment make me determined to change team..

if regulars want to be "siao on".. then do it yourself.. dont drag those people who are serving ns be "siao on".. this is not our permanent job neither is our rice bowl..

1 million dollars

hmm.. what will i do if i have 1 million dollars? anyone have this thought of been a millionaire overnight and not knowing what to do with the money??

-clear debts
-buy clothing, shoes
-x-box games
-buy a car
-put the minimum amount in every bank's fixed deposit account and collect interest
-buy a air ticket to australia and surprise someone
-treat friends to a feast and fun
-the rest give to my family

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chinese new yr have not passed even one week, and we have 3 major cases liao.. 1 armed robbery, 1 murder and 1 mafia styled killing.. not bad, either our authorities are slacking or we are going back to olden times..

im not trying to be a bastard as to how those people have treated me.. im not trying to get back to them by plotting revenge on them.. by doing so, im just taking things into my own hands and in return, i suffered the most.. what i do believe is that God will melt out the consequences by many fold to these kind of people.. is my answer satisified to you.. hehe..

Real drama

ok.. so today is the o level results.. and my block got some drama going on.. dont think there is a link between the release of o level result and drama going on in my block..

well, apparently, there is a girl who failed her o level and wanted to jump down at my block.. heck, she doesnt even live in my area.. police and civil defence were called in and put out the inflated bed.. ok, im not going to add salt to her wounds.. but all i can say is people take failure differently.. and she is taking it too seriously..

i heard johnny is going to be the Security Dog assessor.. wah.. i hear his name, i sian 1/2.. he was the one that transferred me out to Changi Base.. well, civil servants have to protect their rice bowl.. hence they can do anything as long as it is legal, within their authority just to pissed us off while serving our NS..

i think i should list out some rights for myself..
- people who take me for granted.. out you go..
- people who treat me as an ATM machine.. out you go..
- people who treat me as a vending machine only exception is buddies and gf.. out you go..
- people who cant accept me for who i am.. out you go..
- people whose mouth is full of crap but no action (been boastful).. out you go.. this is what i called them, "empty vessels make the most noise"

all i can say is that i taken too much crap from all these kind of people for the last 2 yrs.. i have enough of it.. anymore from these kind of people, just once will do the trick.. i just dont have the patience to play this kind of game anymore..

Life in K-9 (65)

5 more months to ORD.. and i already have this mood.. but somehow Blacky sensed it and do badly in the obedience exercise.. see lah.. now i have to pretend to shower him with lots of love and care to do well especially the dog assessment is just round the corner..

one funny incident to share.. a few days back, i went to cineleisure to watch movie.. i queued up for the tickets.. for the next 10-15 mins, the queue didnt moved at all due to a lady who bought tickets with her visa card.. i was reading my newspaper and was also been distraughted by those ang moh boys making fun of the jack neo movie poster.. and guess what, my friends was just infront of me in the queue..and we didnt see each other for that duration of time.. and end up discovering about it during MSN chat.. tsk tsk..

minci.. your dream, i roughly know what is it.. is it you will be risen to the top and cant handle the pressure.. you will fall greatly??

Life in K-9 (64)

yesterday drove a brand new Toyota Altis as i signed up for the NTUC Carsharing Scheme.. worth much cheaper than in a car rental company.. you pay what you use.. they only ask you to pay for the time you used, and the mileage that you drove.. as for petrol, you use their account to pay for it..

the car width was much bigger than my uncle's car that i drove.. the interior itself is like a luxury to me.. to go down in a spiral way just to look for a parking lot, my friend have to help me before i get used to handle the car..

i used the car yesterday for the SOC D&D.. pretty much so-so..

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is been a long time since i blog.. if i keep on blogging the same old things, it might be very boring..

now that i have changed to team Alpha, all i can say is the best i have ever work in a team that suited my style. as long as you have done your duty, you can do anything you want without the interference of others, that's so cool.. team Bravo in HQ and team Delta in Changi Base dont give me this kind of working lifestyle.. i dont like to work where i have done my duty yet having someone to cut into my "idling time" to help them to do something..

hmm, NS personnel getting a one-off bonus and allowances is also increasing.. to be a regular better or NS personnel better.. hahaha..

im counting down to the day i ORD now.. hahaha.. 6 months and 1 week to go.. damn.. why must i ord after the World Cup? lucky im not a person who play MC or take leave regularly.. i have planned my ORD leave in such a way im only working day during the world cup.. and after the world cup, i can clear about 3-4 tours of shift before shouting "ORD!!"

due to some unforseen circumstances, the time of getting a new car might be delayed.. i hope to have these circumstances clear by Jun, hopefully..

Civil Defence Exercise

this morning explosion exercise, i guessed correctly 3 stations.. only marina bay station stop me from getting full marks.. haha.. the 3 stations are toa payoh, raffles and dhoby ghaut..

the earliest indication that the exercise going to be underway was on the way to work.. saw several Civil Defence vehicles drove passed with the blinkers on..

another indication was a few days back when i went to Plaza Singapura to shopping.. saw a new white SOC vehicle at dhouby ghaut mrt station..

lucky i never late for work or in a way affect my timing to work.. if i still posted to HQ, either i will be late for work or no need to go as it could be my off day..

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for a change, i spoke to one of my christian friend about it.. and her views was exactly the same as what i expected.. and the way i see it, believers and non-believers, the thinking is very different.. non-believers will say to me, "give up.." while believers will say, "maybe the timing is not right yet, as God's timing is the best.."

i will be changing to team Alpha on the 16th.. right after my refresher training in HQ which runs from 9th to 13th..

Randomness (43)

seriously, i cannot understand why girls have to go for other guys when there is a guy standing infront of her confessing his love for her and been kept waiting for no reason..

there are alot of reason girls want to keep the guys waiting..
- not fit to be a boyfriend
- both are stubborn in nature
- lonely in other countries
- studies come first
- wrong timing
the list goes on..

guy like girl.. guy confess to the girl and the girl say other reason than "i dont like you.." guy thought got hope.. find out girl already in relationship.. in the end, wait for so long still no answer.. give up and blame the girl for giving false hopes.. in the end, both also suffer.. find this scenerio very familiar??

as for my own situation, i got 2 options..
- give up (most of my friends all suggest to me..)
- dont care about the situation at the moment and concentrate on other things like studies and career.. in other words, not the right time yet..