Life in K-9 (49)

today, i literally prepared for all kind of news coming to my way..bad, good, i take it in all my stride..

news 01 - i will be transfer to changi sub base this coming shift.. damn fast.. but i will be at there for 3 months before coming back to HQ..

news 02 - guess which team i will get to go to after i come back from changi stint? team A- the team that is famous for the high rate of mc.. i send a warning now, dont play mc if not, all will suffer.. i cant believe that a female staff sgt will want me in her team.. i dont want to blog what she told me.. is damn gross..

news 03 - 1 week never do prison duties due to conversion is a refreshing feeling.. neither do i feel bored, sian or whatsoever..

news 04 - same as news 03.. blacky didnt get to drive around for that duration of time, hence he vomitted along the way to portsdown.. oh well, need to bring him out more now..

at first i was quite sceptical about my most senior ops officer told me that i will be going to csb temporaily.. i cant trust his words at all as i fall into his trap the first time round where i request to take NDD.. he ask me to send an email through my TL help and then he send me for SD training.. once bitten twice shy.. i ask my dy-co and another ops officer.. they both assure me that i will be back once the new SD training team passed out and posted to CSB.. if not, im in for a ride once again..

the most senior ops officer have a new nickname.. and he is called, "mr unreliable singh"..trust me, the experience of fooling around by him is not a nice feeling..

Life in K-9 (48)

conversion course finish and my posting to CSB is like inevitable.. i praying for a miracle..

yah.. i know that i complains alot, talks alot or even make some unnecessary remarks.. in the course of work, we get to face some people who makes our life difficult.. but what im doing is just to relieve stress and not just keep inside my heart.. i still doing my duty as usual.. heck, whatever problem we face, we just speak to our supervisors or the people around us or even friends.. but people seem to think that im overdoing it.. hah.. whatever.. the damage already been done before i came into this unit.. the relation between k-9 and prison will never patch even if both were from the same ministry.. dont wish to blog about this topic anymore, tired is the only word i can describle to all these incident..

on a personal note, i find that most of my dreams are becoming reality.. this is what i notice as if i have been to this place, see this person before or did this action..

take for instance, the girl that my friend want to know.. i thought it was my old friend because they both look alike.. but when i saw the girl again, i was like, "where did i see this girl before?!?"

even for my conversion, i never been to fourth ave before.. but when i went there, again i was like, "eh, this place i got go before leh.." sort of thing..

at this rate, what i dream in becoming reality is coming too fast.. there are some dreams i can remember but im hoping it will not realise, because it will bring back painful memories that i dont want to go through again.. there are some people i really dont wish to see again.. even if it really happen, i dont wish to go through what i saw in my dreams.. but i know that is just defying against own will..

Life in K-9 (47)

two days of driving doesnt really make a story.. just that the weather doesnt really let us learn what we wanted to learn.. what we intend to learn is cornering.. lol..

tomorrow is the last day and we will be driving the land rover off road with different gear conditions.. i dont even know that driving in different gear condition in a terrain will make a difference too.. haha..

Life in K-9 (46)

sorry guys.. as you all know, first day was the assessment.. and i passed.. P-A-S-S-E-D!!! nope, im not happy about it.. 5 guys.. 2 from dog unit and the rest from PCG.. 1 of the PCG guys have to be sent back as he drive and dash across the red-light.. immediate failure.. and he was trying for the 2nd time.. pity him..

i just cant fail on purpose or have the intention to do that.. i really cant do that.. i donno why.. maybe the strict briefing at the start drilled into my head.. the course is tougher than any other driving school as in we have to drive within the limit.. mini-van speed limit is 60 km/h means 60 km/h.. we cant overtake to the centre lane or right lane.. i nearly fall asleep on the way back, but i was not the one driving back.. saloon car is according to the road speed condition..

we have 2 groups with 2 instructor.. one group was PCG and the other was PDU(dog unit).. our instructor is a gurkha.. funny chap with lots of lame jokes.. we are call the SIA.. either we are Speeding In Action or Silent In Action.. the other group was a SI, they say that he was quite strict with them on the road..

after briefing, we have to check the car before driving.. and we drive up to woodlands and have our lunch.. then drive back to the school for break.. after that, we have a lecture on car control.. following that, we drive the mini-van to tuas and have tea-break before heading back again..

Life in K-9 (45)

right!! road hog at the extreme right lane.. drive over the speed limit.. speeding on the left lane.. no signal.. never give way to pedestrians.. worst, knock down pedestrians and drive off.. give the instructor the worst ride ever in his entire life..

as far as i and the other dog handler is concerned, we have no intention of changing places.. we were from the same training team, and i know of his dog pretty much well.. if we get to change, the routine is changed totally, new environment, everything is new.. we also have the same thinking that the distance is not the problem, and that we already used to the environment that we are working at..

Life in K-9 (44)

did i hear wrongly or what.. after my conversion, i have to go to changi sub-base.. seriously, i cant find any logical reason behind it.. i get to hear that one of the dog at there bit the prison warden hand.. this handler have to hand over the dog and take a new one.. further more, he will be transfer back to HQ..

120th intake is here.. new sc are here.. the most is wait for 3 months before there will be people deploy at changi.. what for ask me go there and come back again.. isnt that abit disruptive to the way team is operating.. if anyone is ord, there is at least the replacement to make the transition a smooth one.. but i have to go there because i have a police driving permit and someone dog bit a human hand.. heck, then i rather forego the conversion and stay in HQ.. although i have to go for the course, i can fail it..

Buddies for life

the experience of giving up something willingly in exchange for another which value is much more higher, is beyond this world. Thanks God for giving me this valuable gift in exchange for something which i really dont wish to give up hope on but i have to do it willingly, will i get to see the wonderful feeling.

and also have to thank my buddies whom we share a 9 yr bond.. nothing is able to come between us.. we always have a healthy banter, after that we had a good laugh at it.. movies, play pool, having buffet during lunch, dinner and even supper time.. watch soccer together at CHIJMES and the best part was knowing gals.. cassanova or playboys, they are the ones whom i can related open-minded, with nothing to hide or any secrets to keep..

Life in K-9 (43)

alright man! i'm now famous for the "free food no more" at portsdown.. come on man, since when did i insist on having the food.. Insist as in not heeding the words of the staff and put the food into my mouth or what.. the way the staff tell me off scarstically, i do back the same to him by walking off and putting down the fork and spoon scarstically.. i rather faint than to take the food.. see which responsibility bears the heaviest..

some staff in portsdown may have change their attitude towards me since this incident.. but im glad to say this.. this should be the attitude.. we are providing a service for this prison yet no welfare, no benefits, and on the other hand, have to kana by those staff who determined to eat us.. as long as we are doing our job without interfering the staff, why do we have to be eaten by them.. many people might see that what i did is only to stand up for myself.. in this case, i have to say no.. im helping the other dog handlers as well.. just because the staff at there have a bad day in the office, doesnt mean that we have to go through the same as them.. why not have a change of roles.. i be the staff at prison and the staff be the dog handler for just 6 hrs.. no more no less..

and there are some groups of people will say have your meal outside before going to work lah.. yup, we did that, but after 5-6 hrs, you will going hungry again what.. somemore night shift is 12-13 hrs without food.. you think our stomach wont call for food by growling..

when my most senior ops officer got to hear what i did, i have to defend myself by saying that we are providing them a service but no welfare, this quote was also agree by my colleagues.. guess what he say.. "no, your thinking is wrong.. you are serving for the nation, to secure safety and peace for the public.." this sentence is indirectly telling me that if i faint and die, i will died of a honourable cause.. kns..

this show that k-9 are inviting people to bully them without resistance..HQ staff have requested to leave either to sub-bases or other division when we need people at the moment.. it just give us a bigger headache in searching of more people to enter k-9.. there wont be a doubt if complain letters start coming in..

i can blog about this till the cow comes home.. all the problems that we face during our deployment, be it in HQ, checkpoints, ferry terminals, airport, prisons.. are those senior officers who created them..not even some respect is given.. just literally spit some salivia on to us..

Friends again?

huh.. what the hell.. someone want to be friends with me.. no, is not a stranger but is someone whom i have sever ties for like 7 yrs.. hmm..

i saw his whole profile despite not connected to him in any other way..

"1st things! I treasure my frens ALOT. SO im willing to do
almost anything for frens dat are worth it.. I wont
tolerate any form of betrayal.Step on my tail and i make u
pay for it.. Im the sort who gives alot and hope my frens
reciprocate but if they don't den they are definately a
waste of time and effort.. Along the way i've also realised
frens are not FOREVER? and ya i belive Genuine ones will
stick by me and sucky ones can juz disappear for all i
care..."

do i worth as a friend to him in the first place? didnt i was the sucky friend that disappear for 7 yrs? although i dont have any grudges against him, but this request do need some consideration..

Life in K-9 (42)

im very tired, very sian and sick of coming to work.. 2 security dog handlers is not enough in a team.. either portsdown 1st shift or 2nd shift, rotate till a new dog handler comes in.. the breathing space is getting tighter and tighter.. is like just work and work, no fun, no training, no rest, no morale support from team colleague..

there are 2 new dog handlers posted to HQ.. but 1 of them, i feel they put him in the wrong team.. or 2? i donno.. 1 team is play mc till "other-team-know-who-is-going-to-take-mc-the-next-tour" of mentality.. another team, well, short of manpower, got 1 going to ord, so they post him in this team.. hey, how about our team? so-call the most hardworking team, the most stressed team to be in, the lowest rate mc in the team(really??).. if one of our team colleague never opt for base guard just so that he can be contacted(lame excuse) or another one who have leg injury, went for surgery and have a long term mc.. since i came in 4 months ago, i yet to see him reporting for duty..

we (me and my colleague) have to endure for another 3-4 months before someone comes in.. i think my colleague can prepared for his ord liao.. one comes one go where is the replacement..

my ops officer say correctly.. HQ team need at least 20 dog handlers.. but everyone will say, "where to find so many people? space so limited, kennel not enough.."

one thing im very sure of is, if my colleague is not around either on course or report sick.. let just say that i dont want to go through 12 hr of "worse than inmates kind of treatment"

portsdown personnel, minority of them treat us machiam like dogs.. no more food given to us, we have to buy coupons..they rather let the food go into waste or feed the cat.. not even a minimum of welfare is given, big fat mosquitoes is spotted due to their feast on those dog handlers who deployed at there.. hot and humid weather.. limited movement.. officers whose job is only know how to eat up those dog handlers.. discriminate us and treat those CISCO officers better.. prison and police are under the same roof yet CISCO getting the better treatment from them..

what i want is someone to hear our complains, our ill-treatment at there and provide us a win-win solution for the benefit of the prison and dog unit.. i donno why the mentality of those officers only know how to eat us, yet doesnt even have a clue we are suffering mentally.. what i say is no use, just fart and you will feel better.. these complains will still be around after i ord.. the prison will close down in 2012 or only the illegal immigrants will stop coming to singapore then the prison will close, whichever is earlier.. anyone want to bet the day illegal immigrant never come to singapore.. hopefully this someone will know our predicement, close the prison once and for all.. till this day comes, i feeling hard done down here..

people can understand the situation what we went through, but what i want is not just those advice like, "aiya, forget it, serve and go off liao" but rather, "ok, action will be taken against this officer.." lol.. dream on.. i think i need to go somewhere and really shout out loud to empty those negative feelings.. ive been bottling it up since i started as a security dog handler..

Life in K-9 (41)

only one person will know what i want to blog today.. this morning went for duty and bring out blacky to go to portsdown.. before leaving the base, i groom him and spotted something.. a big lump with blood drying up.. the wound is very fresh.. so i call upon the kennel hand and ask, "is this enzyme?"

the answer was, "not so sure.." but i was not convinced and ask the second opinion.. the second answer was, "yup, is enzyme..cut the fur, apply idoine and the powder can liao.." i starting to get worry liao..but i donno why, i seek the third opinion.. no answer given.. if it is really enzyme, the para-vet sure turn me upside down and poke my ass.. 6 hrs of agonising wait while on duty is no joke.. so i quickly came back after duty and ask my colleague.. his answer lifted my mood.. it was a lump.. like pimples.. he help me to squeeze out the white substance and the blood until it dries up.. after that i apply alcohol, idoine and the powder.. i have to do it everyday until it heal.. blacky, drink more water.. or else you will have more popping up from your body and you will look like a polka dog..

i think im caught on camera while buying my dinner at novena square on the way back home.. i saw chew chor meng hosting the show, "where is singapore?" with ezann lee.. wow.. beauty sia..

after that, been approached by a prudential advisor about some savings plan.. was quite interested but abit hard to commit due to some cash flow problems at the moment.. in the end, i didnt reject but once the cash flow have eased, i will sign up for that plan..

Renting car

i feel my anger in this ex-friend is justified afterall.. get to hear some stuff from my friend when we attend our friend's wedding.. PCG at kallang base will move to brani base in november..

yesterday went to rent a car as the family car is needed by my uncle.. first time renting, was quite disappointed in the condition of the car.. i got a car where the battery is weak.. i experience a dead car when we are going back home after all those fun playing pool.. lucky got some helpful gentlemen to help us kickstart the car.. in the future, will rent from the company if possible and as and when i need it.. price reasonable, age limit in renting the car is the lowest i seen in other companies..but not this type of car..

Life in K-9 (40)

i told one of my colleague about my past problem.. can you imagine the horror when he told me to talk to this ex-friend? hell no, man.. that was 6 months ago..the problem never solve, created a molehill into a mountain, no communication, nothing.. i rather let it there and left my anger intact in this matter.. than to talk things out.. it must be the weirdest advice i ever receive..

come on, the anger is still there.. breaking of friendship without saying out anything is the most coward thing to do..

the dinner was so-so only.. 8 dishes of food doesnt really make the stomach goes bloated in an hr..

Life in K-9 (39)

my off days are all taken up.. sigh.. tonight is k-9's dinner at SPANS.. and tomorrow is my in-service.. and have to take Blacky out for a swim.. ahem, i dont want to do the extra job of bringing Blacky back to bathe him after the swim.. hopefully, i will not get to bring Blacky out..

now, i dont want to say anything, or complain anything liao.. feel like cursing some swear words in here.. get to say something about what they say that they will do portsdown, and they aim me.. now, never say anything, also kana aim.. i make this line very clear from now onwards, whatever duties that you assign to me, i just do it without complain.. just my luck that i get to see the true colours of 2 "act hardworking" colleagues.. the meaning of having fun during work is not there anymore and i find it very hard to trust what they say now..

my conversion course is on 11-14 oct.. i dont get to go with the other SC..as the other SC will be taking an earlier date.. donno who is also attending this course at this date from my unit..

i browse through some profiles and pics in friendster.. i get to see Kelvin Tan from PCG is still there.. erm, with this ex-friend of mine and some guys as well.. definitely a team photo.. hmm.. guess he signed on.. the last time i saw him in PCG was during my npcc days.. going on an excursion to PCG and get to ride one of the boats.. he was my secondary school friend.. the world is so small that they are in the same team.. oh well..

Life in K-9 (38)

i feel that whoever passed out from the security dog training and posted to HQ, should do a 12 hr portsdown.. so that he's able to think of something to do during this period of time, and also not to take time for granted.. some may differ from my views as is just, "sit down stay!!" kind of routine.. people might think, why work so hard?

my answer will be, im not the sort of person who sit down and do nothing and let time rot my life away.. i cant do that though i did try.. maybe that my mentality.. i need to do something in order to pass time.. same goes to baseguard.. im not complaining but i have accepted how k-9 HQ and been deployed to prison works.. hence my stand in not signing on earlier in the yr..

after doing 12 hrs of portsdown, once change to a 6 hr, the time pass even faster..

Life in K-9 (37)

i never thought i will get to do 12 hrs portsdown.. but it has to be.. and i join the list of people who did it and leave their sweat on it.. my sweat is on it now.. overall i can say is a priceless experience.. time flew very fast.. i thought i got to stay at the gate for the whole day, but how wrong i am.. i get to stay at dog hut most of the time.. i was thinking quite negatively along the way to portsdown as i was trying to think of how to pass the time faster.. just by staying at dog hut is the best option.. get to sms people, call people without prison officers finding out..

hopefully this is the last time i do a 12 hrs portsdown in the day time.. i donno how to explain it but is not worth it though it is priceless..

lol.. my friend who get to know a gal is labelled as a casanova!!! targeting those aged smaller than him...wahahha..

hai.. donno whether should say this or not.. although i have yet to enter a relationship.. i never feel tired, be it physically or mentally, in pursuing the targets.. irony, the only target i ever feel tired is the ex-friend of mine.. all but she lasted more than 1 yr.. when i told this to my friend, he say that if you experience problems persist in the relationship and feel tired.. there is a need to examine what went wrong.. even if you have goes through a long term relationship and out of sudden, you feel tired.. time to take a step back and look.. and i find it very true according to what he says..

Randomness (37)

i never knew my thinking was coincides with the Singapore Sports Council where they are going to introduce computer gaming as a sport.. this is in today's news.. and further more, i ask some of my working colleagues whether they are interested in my proposal.. and they say anything.. lol.. good good.. but this so-call clan at the moment will only take effect after we ord.. what we able to do now is meet up and slowly play and gel as a team.. yah yah.. now im really thinking quite far already..haha..

today, my friend wanted to know a gal through my help.. well.. get to know her in the end, she's 17 and got tattoo.. she look quite alike to one of my female friends.. hmm.. seperate at birth??

Randomness (36)

boring sunday!! really cant find anything to do.. is been a long time since i sweat out.. but my body just dont let me do it.. hai.. tomorrow have to do it no matter what..

i have a very wildest thought.. to all colleagues who like playing CS, wonder if we could form a clan out of it.. wahaha.. what should we name for the clan?? K-9.. Police.. Dogs.. PDU.. or ORD?? i have the intention to resurrect my playing skills in this game again.. is been a long time since i played this game..i know i know, this game now is only based on those hard-core players who have a clan and a base to support with..those leisure players are gone.. just a thought that all..

Life in K-9 (36)

i was at orchard area this afternoon..lol.. but didnt get to see the commotion at the orchard mrt.. at the time where the guresome find, i was at cineleisure watching movie..

my TL have put up the papers for the conversion..

i dont think anyone will believe this.. have you ever see a dog catch a mouse.. although i never get to see it, but there are photos which convince me that the dog have taken over the cat job.. pls, is not Blacky.. even the sight of coachroaches scared the wits out of him..

hai.. k-9 is a place where you can really let your imagination runs wild.. we have so much time to spare that back-stabbing, gossips, politics are the only things to do.. poor man-management, even those who are holding leadership qualities are questionable.. i dont want to interfere anymore.. what i say now has happened in the past, they dont take the effort to correct the problem afterall.. k-9 is overall a family.. a dsyfunctional family.. some even urge me to sign on in k-9.. i get to see all these, think i will sign on?!?! if i sign on, im nothing but a puppet whose moves are controlled...

Red bomb

RED BOMB COMING!! i never thought i will get this so early in my life.. my secondary school gal friend is getting married this month end.. she is the first i should say..

time flew very fast since we left school and goes our separate ways 5 yrs ago.. it seem like yesterday that we left school..

Randomness (35)

i couldnt give a damn about it that i say directly at someone.. im not afraid to speak out as long as i made my feelings known.. people might think that, "hey, this skinny fella, think i can eat him.." well.. think again..

im also not a person that say sorry or apologise that easily.. so what if my blog contains some so-call over-sensitive issues or some unfounded issues.. im not so much about pride or principle person.. but rather, i let my mind to tell me whether what i did is wrong or right.. in short, my conscience.. if i feel that i have overdid it, fine enough, i apologise..

saying of sorry makes me think back of the past.. well, to cut the story short.. a few months back, get to know this gal.. after that confess to her, everything went downhill since then.. thereafter, she say that i was over-sensitive and break friendship over a comment that i make (entry made on feb 07, 2005).. i have to say sorry about that and i dont even feel guilty commenting that.. kao.. friendship patch after that, and then let her know my blog.. i dont find it a mistake to give it to her after all.. she find fault in the past issue where we settle long ago..is like back to square one.. break friendship again.. i dont fight for it after that..

i also dont care even if my remarks is scarstic or unknowingly hurt people sub-conscious..some people make their comments bluntly to me.. if they can take it, i too can make some blunt comments either.. how people treat me as a friend or whatsoever, i will treat back the same treatment they treat me.. if the value of friendship is not there, what for i fight to increase the value of it..

heard that my dog assessment came in 7th.. to tell you frankly, i dont deserve this placing.. i had to do the revaluation all over again just to please those who voice out for me.. and my performance that day is really sluggish.. imagine hearing those unpleasant stories before the revaluation.. will you have the mood to do it again..

People that i disliked

i hate two types of people.. one is putting words into my mouth where i didnt say it at all.. and another one is say something but didnt meant it.. yet i have a colleague who did both to me..

damn pissed off upon hearing what he did.. dont even have the morale to go to work anymore..

Life in K-9 (35)

i requested to my TL whether i could go for conversion.. lol.. he talk to the driver pool in charge and agree to let me go.. except that he have yet to put up papers.. i shall wait for the day to come..

imagine im driving with Blacky on board..corner here.. corner there..i make sure he will get the hell of the ride.. make sure that he ride until vomit out everything.. until he waves a white flag to surrender.. until he no longer get car-sickness.. wahaha.. kua zhang..

the photo below was taken one yr back.. and im experimenting my blog site with the addition of photo..

Church Wedding

One of my brethen's wedding in the church!!

Life in K-9 (34)

damn it.. i got to do the revaluation all over again just for the sake of pleasing those people who voice it out for me.. the result is still the same, abit better that all..

hmm, money seem to have the power to unlock those ambitions that we want to do in our mind.. fame, success, power.. just to name these where all aiming to have.. im not an exception either..

money, well, make the world goes round.. but on the other hand, money is the root of all evils..

Life in K-9 (33)

i made an enquiry regarding about yesterday's assessment.. i find it very unfair that other HQ teams get to assess the dog handlers at base while our team have to be assessed at choa chu kang cemetary..

hence i have to meet the chief trainer this tues..

i not really particular about entering the annual dog trial but the place to assess should be at the same place.. not one at choa chu kang cemetary.. the others at HQ..

i thought about it after the assessment.. and this came to my mind when i was outside.. lol.. and ask my team colleagues to enquire for me..

i think in term of fairness, no one can really win me.. even the problem where EDD personnel resting where they should helping out in the base guard.. after i voice it out to the TL, the EDD personnel now have 2 in base guard..

Life in K-9 (32)

today i have my dog handling assessment.. boy, wish i could have more surprises install for me..

firstly, the weather.. fine, cloudy, windy and no sun.. "out of sight" full marks..

secondly, off leash heeling work.. Blacky didnt lag behind me.. instead he was beside me all the time.. another bonus..

but here come the disappointment..

distance control.. before i could give any command, Blacky did it already.. so i have to do it more than twice..

sent away.. as expected, Blacky did go away upon hearing the command, but not even to the half way mark..

others like on-leashing heeling and baiting.. all turn out to be okay..

passed can already.. was kind of pressurised by CSO Tiger.. because he expect me to be in the Top 5.. but well, it was not meant to be.. well, as long i did my best and pass can liao..

Life in K-9 (31)

i was not very comfortable with the sight of my rank along my shoulders.. lol.. some people promoted already.. arms spread big big as if they walk must have winds.. i still need to get used to it..

today is the first time Blacky didnt vomit in one of the longest trip.. not in distance but the time that we are travelling in the car.. hmm.. can i push him for patrol now.. lol.. will give him some treats..

tomorrow die die must do "send away" at portsdown's dog hut.. even if to the extent of waking the inmates up, i still have to do it.. i could imagine SI Chee reaction if he sees Blacky looking at me blur blur instead of going away upon hearing the command..

exactly 1 week to go for the assessment.. argh.. been getting nervous or not really in the mood.. once the dog can sense the moodliness in the handler, he will go moody as well..

lol.. everybody is asking me when is my team dog assessment.. they seem more nervous than me..

i have called mcdonalds 24hr twice within a week.. food served is still hot.. great customer service..within 20 mins the food have arrived.. but customer record should have been better and not repeating everytime when i make an order..

Multi-level marketing

minci, actually i work in this line before.. the market itself is too saturated.. once your closed one know that you work in this line, they will avoid you as a plague.. but on the other hand, you now have 2 offers.. your dad's fren wife and the designer job..

this market is either you call your friends to join you or sell product to earn commission.. this is what they call multi-level marketing.. i experience it before.. not my cup of tea..

as for your relationship problem, does these 2 guys from your current workplace? if yes, perhaps they are trying to sweet talk you..

if there is anything i could help you, dont hesitated.. my msn is always on..

Randomness (34)

these 2 days, the topic seem to be this ex-friend of mine.. friends who know about this friendship, ask me how does it goes.. the answer was, "well, not friends anymore.." all were shocked but not surprised either.. hmm.. how long was that? 5 months ago..

this is the best kept secret.. lol.. get to know her in my training ground despite my squad mates all wanting to know her.. friendship was a low-profile.. only a selected few know about this friendship.. even when the friendship broke off, no one knows either.. and i have been keeping my anger in silence as well..

one of them even told me this, "well, she seem to be getting help from nowhere in her workplace.. some of my squadmates was disgusted that she always able to get out of those sticky situation.. since i have know her for 1 yr.. i find that she isnt that mature as i expected.."

another one say this, "just treat her as a kid lah.. or a kid that doesnt want to grow up.." this remark tickled my funny bones..lol..

i was not surprised about what he say to me.. it like been hitting the nail on the coffin..

get to know other things about her as well.. such as she change team from Charlie to Alpha.. her Alpha schedule is the same as my schedule.. she work i work.. i off she off as well..

so to those who know about this friendship but doesnt know that it didnt last, i will be happy to say this, "we are not friends anymore.."

Life in K-9 (30)

hai.. i seem to be the storage room for all the problems that my team face.. my team, to those people who know, are so-called the best team.. to let the other teams see how our team should be run.. but behind the smoke-screen, problems seem to be surfacing every now and then..

base guard.. yesterday's tour, manpower was stretched to the max.. yup, is the weekend.. we got 3 base guard, 2 regulars and 1 ns personnel.. so after i was done with my prison duty(p1)..i claim EHO and inform my DTL and team members.. but to my horror, the DTL say that if enough man, then can claim.. but i reiterated by saying that my team members say ok already.. then the DTL LL, and let me claim.. but can you imagine my look in the face when i saw EDD personnel resting after their ops.. are they not your men, DTL? cant they help out in the base guard?

well, if that the case, i might as well sign on as a regular.. why.. because regular get to rest after their ops.. while the ns personnel work for 12 hrs.. training then go for prison duty.. or after prison duty come back and do base guard..

our team is so divided.. playing a game of politics between GPGD and EDD personnel.. hence, even we SD are not spared.. we are always on our toes especially while working..

further more, our TL suggestion was so cute and funny that we felt that he has shot himself in the foot.. he say that the deployment will rotated each month so as to let those in GPGD learn..

im sick and tired of it.. even one of the member want to quit this team and join other team.. and rumors have been circulating that another member will be kick out.. hai..

Sick like a dog

yesterday doesnt seem to go right for me.. firstly, missed the first bus.. afraid of been late, took a cab to yishun before taking the train to work.. the ride in the cab was the most scary experience for me.. the driver can sleep while driving.. and occupy 2 lanes..

after that went out for training from base.. caught in the rain before heading back to do portsdown 2nd shift duty.. once i caught in the rain without bathing..i will get sick.. see how i got sick in the end..

at portsdown, got to do a riot exercise.. after the exercise, my head feel heavy and my mind seem to be spinning around me.. finish the 6 hr of duty, and head back to base..

feel better after vomitted.. and head home with the long MRT trip.. the driver of that particular train was damn playful.. like to play with the brakes.. kao.. was jerking from left to right..

lucky got out of the designated station(novena) in time, before doing a merlion.. took the bus home and had a hot shower.. before heading to bed..

overall, my whole body was reacting hot and cold towards me.. breaking out in hot sweats in an air-conditioned room.. and feel cold at the mrt platform waiting for the train to arrive..

now feeling better.. will be heading to work later..

Life in K-9 (29)

yesterday night deployment at khalsa crescent prison was the best.. lol.. got there at about 12am.. went for foot patrol around the perimeter of the prison.. and then go and sleep liao..

after that back to base in the morning.. and received news that 116th intake promotion.. oh well, got promoted to corporal.. but, at the same time, we have to wear the new uniform.. how concidence can it be..

bloggers, blogs have been in the news lately.. been hacked kind of stuff.. about how their blogs are self-centred, vain, etc.. but bloggers dont even care about the news reports.. well, they just want to get the msg across even to the extent of getting hate mails, anti-fans of the blogger.. heck, even my blog isnt spared as well.. friendship broke citing my blog as the reason.. even if she continued reading my blog despite breaking of friendship, i have one word for her.. and that is "CHILDISH!!"

from my own opinion, what we write, what we think, what we see as stated in the blog, is better to just read it and shrug it off rather than making a big hooha about it.. i dont understand why people have to make a big fuss about it.. so what if our opinion are wrong.. we get to learn from the mistakes as well..

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yesterday went to jurong east to patrol.. did some mini-ops with the npco.. and then activated at tampines rd.. but nothing was found.. was abit boring throughout the patrol.. nothing to see.. the only consolation was when we are been activated, we get to dash red traffic light, with blinkers on and cruising along the expressway at 100 km/h.. seeing the expression of passer-by, motorists watching the vehicle dash across was a priceless moment for me..

1 yr have passed since i was enlisted for NS.. and 1 more yr to go.. it has been a bitter sweet experience throughout this 1 yr..

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man, i have the sudden craving for ice cream.. the vanilla flavoured ice cream coated with chocolate.. i ate 3 at one go..

our team dog trial is on 25 aug.. exactly one month from now.. when i heard about the procedures about it, im kind of worry about it.. because there is one i didnt get to do it.. and that is 'out of sight'.. dog is in down position and we ask them to stay, while we are out of their sight.. dog must not move or crept forward during the stipulated time..

as for 'send away', i need to give Blacky more independent.. because he is relying on my layout now rather than just hearing the command 'away' and go away from me.. i donno whether i will get to do extra like 'over' because Blacky is a dog that is train by the Senior Trainer SI Chee.. and Blacky is also his favourite dog.. hai..

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The island rocks!! great storyline.. but if only the camera could be more steady and more focused.. i could have give 4/5.. but i settled for 3.5/5..

moral of this movie(spoiler): dont kill clones.. for goodness sake, they have life too, they could think, speak, eat, run like a normal human being.. so what if their knowledge of knowing who they are increases as the day goes by.. even the clone, so-called insurance policy, outwit the sponsor.. no matter how perfect you create a clone, you can never outdone God, for He has even put down in finest details such as DNA..

by the way, do you have any idea that our body, have DNA from our grandparents, our parents? dont be surprised if you happen to have the same thinking as your grandparents or did something similar as your parents.. well.. just a thought to spare.. in case you donno..

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well well.. at least you have tried and know the answer sooner than later.. if not your misery will be even worse.. when you told me everything about it, from the day you know her till now, it was 50-50.. so i just ask you to give it a shot.. well, hope you are better now knowing the answer.. and also dont lose heart that you quit midway through the so-call "hell-week".. you know your limits whereas i dont even dare to give it a try.. lol..

anyway, hope to see you soon handling your dog.. dog trial is coming.. argh.. im very scared and nervous.. Blacky is perfect in everything except that he dont like to do heeling work.. and i also crop out in "send away".. damn.. need to do more practices before the actual day.. hope all the other Security Dogs will not able to do.. wahahaha.. =P

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a few days back, i was taken aback while chatting with my colleague on msn.. he say this to me, "given your sensitivity, you will make a good bf..."

firstly, i will like to ask some questions to understand myself better..

- to which extent, where does sensitivity stands? or should i say where is the line drawn between sensitive and over-sensitive or even insensitive..?

- or do i have to see how high is the tolerance to the people around me? well, as for this qn, the answer could well be, "it's varies.."

secondly, i donno whether i was deem as controversial or not.. like what i say in the past, it did happen in a few days time.. i dont really want to say that im over-sensitive.. but rather, i like to observe people.. i did blog about this issue some time back.. i use mind-mapping to observe people.. take for an instance, if this particular guy did something, and what will he do next? i will explore all possible actions that he will do.. even to the finest details.. that's why im not surprised if he did something extraordinary out of the blue..

lol, maybe im kay-poh in another angle.. maybe girls who are reading this post will get turn off... im not bothered about it.. well, im one of a kind.. hehe..

Life in K-9 (27)

im very pissed off but yet very happy about last night's shift.. well.. one of my team members, NS man, reported sick and i have to cover for him as a base guard. If he had not report sick, i would have tasted the feeling of been activated during patrol.. i could have go for patrol yesterday.. argh..

text of msg: "PCG sighted a sampan heading towards singapore land. Give chase, upon reaching shore at tuas south ave 7(reclaim land), they seek J division for help, yet J division activated us.."

1 dog team not enough..call for the 2nd dog team.. area quite big.. forested area..

both of our dog teams captured 5 illegal immigrants.. credit to them and the dogs.. but i missed all the actions.. staying up the whole night at the duty office waiting for the good news..

lol, my team all want to sabo my team member who report sick.. wahaha.. ever since he came to our team, we find him to be a little too boastful.. claim to know everything in the base at the back of his hand.. but yet, always kana scolded.. he wanted to sign on as a regular, but all of us give the thumbs down as we find him not mature for the job at the moment.. maybe 3-4 yrs time..

Happy Birthday 2005

today is a special day to begin with.. it's my birthday..haha.. old liao old liao.. 22 yrs in this world.. thank you everyone for the warm wishes and greetings..

now to start off with, the london bombings.. i donno whether i should thanks the bombers or curse them.. now we have an additional ops to do.. patrol at the mrt station.. raffles place, city hall, outram park, chinatown, yishun, woodlands.. different places but all doing at the same time.. hai.. we are facing a shortage of manpower..

yesterday i got the shock of my life.. my friend gamble on soccer.. win some money and hence, over-confident comes in and play 2 matches for 150 each.. both lost.. yet he risk the wrath of losing more money by punting more money in another match.. this time 300.. and he win.. so never win.. never lose.. but what if he lost.. he have to pay 600 at one shot.. where can he find that sum of money.. until now, im still in a daze about what he had done.. i would have died of heart attack if he had lost.. better kill the habit or risk been killed..

this yr, i didnt celebrate the way i wanted.. having a buffet at Pariss International Restaurant.. but change to a more cheaper place.. the Hokkiado Hot Pot Restaurant.. not bad.. price reasonable..

i will be going out later with my friends to see movie..

Life in K-9 (26)

yesterday went to bugis.. wow.. so many people went there for the food festival.. people mountain people sea.. i have to walk crab style..

mito is in my team kennel.. that means the handler is in my team now.. hai.. those who know, will know what are the difficulties between the former handler and the present handler..

ssgt teo, service no 3120.. an officer from portsdown.. stop abusing your authority.. have a chat with most of the guys at there.. all hate you... now you have one more in the list.. and that me.. you dont deserve the rank.. only know how to carry balls.. yet on the other hand, eat up those low-ranking than you..

i was coming in for portsdown shift 2.. ever since i came in from day 1, we dont need to report to the main gate.. even if those officers ask, they ask in a welcome, friendly tone.. guess what tone he use on me? he use a scolding tone on me.. here goes the conversation:

Teo: "hello!! what is your name ah!!"
Me: "Gary"
Teo: " Can you report to the main gate first before you put your things!!"
Me: "huh?"
Teo: "Gary what!!"

i got no time to shoot back before another officer stop me and ask me to go in.. is like been scolded for no reason.. argh.. one more time he did this again.. i make sure my complain goes up to the authority.. fellow humans been treated like this.. only know how to use rank.. pls use your basic social manners.. such a disappointment..

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Sembawang DRC now ranked the last place i will go if i were to deployed there.. Portsdown is better than this DRC.. i donno how to put it, but given a choice, i rather deployed at Portsdown..

went there on the last night shift as there is no manpower.. every hour from 8pm to 1am, except 10pm, have to go for prowling and sign the book.. fair enough, i do as instructed.. the next morning, after escorting teaboys to tearoom, went to open office and wait for the morning personnel to take over duty since there is no more escort.. the kennel at there is full, only can house 6-8 dogs.. so for 1 hr(0700hrs - 0800 hrs) i leave Blacky in the air conditioned office while waiting for them to come..i cant let loose a dog at an unfamiliar enviroment.. i donno whether they are on the dot or whatever, once the clock strike at 8am sharp.. they force me to leave.. prison warden ask me to leave hurriedly because the vehicle is here.. as so i thought.. but i have to pass down any instructions to the next shift before making a leave.. haven even hand over, the warden already kpkb at the walkie talkie.. i make a quick hand over and run towards the main gate.. but to my surprise, the vehicle isnt there.. my day is ruined.. my mood is ruined as well..

there are other factors contributing as to why i ranked Sembawang DRC as last.. i only listed out the obvious ones..

for the benefit, i rank all those places that i have been deployed according to my preference;

1. Queenstown Remand Prison
2. Portsdown Centre
3. Sembawang DRC

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she is back!! she is back for holidays..!! so happy to see her..but now in different class already..

erm..right.. got to keep composed.. minci.. should i call you minci auntie or auntie minci.. lol.. i also never play IRC already.. you sound so old leh.. what generation gap...lol.. erm, anyway, dont sound as if you are so old.. just go along with the flow and you will be with the trend in no time..hehe..

QRP wardens so funny.. to those SD handlers, whenever we need to escort those inmates who help out in the admission back to the cell.. we will stop along this corridor.. the length is about 1 and 1/2 shoulder.. enough for you and your dog to walk.. so the inmates will stop infront of their cell and strip naked.. given this kind of space there is no way to bend and open your arsehole and let the warden see.. but the chief warden say is big enough and show us.. lol.. somemore he is fat.. i was controlling my laughter in front of the inmates..

this is my first time going through 2 admission at one go.. kao.. the 2nd admission was so late.. by the time it finish, the last admission comes in already.. i stand there for about 3 hrs.. hai..

oh and one more thing.. i might be pick to patrol with the SOC troopers in town.. i hope not because i need to roll down my sleeves in this hot weather.. i dont want.. aaaahhh... even Blacky also dont want.. he say, "siao ah.. the weather so hot.. somemore im black.. what if i faint how.. so ma lu.." lol..

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yesterday deployment at queenstown was a mixed feelings..

- an inmate report sick.. but the reason given literally left me rolling on the floor laughing.. he sprain his hands while sneezing!?!?! *ah-choooo..* god bless you..

- another inmate was mistaken for another inmate due to a mixed up identity.. hence need me to escort him.. Blacky and i didnt do anything to provoke him.. yet he want to show an angry face to Blacky.. not once but 2-3 times.. by the second time, i was ready to scold back at him or diary it down to make a complaint.. maybe he heard my thoughts.. he stop it.. after that he did it again.. damn it.. i wanted to let go the leash and rouse Blacky..

- CISCO officers.. damn good.. complain to prison just because we, k-9 officers are getting free meals.. hello, how many personnel you have at prison compared to us? you have 6-7 personnel while we have only 2.. the least we get is leftover dinner, that why we no need to pay.. just because we are getting free dinner and you have to pay for it.. so? compared to our pay.. i believe your pay is able to pay $2 meal... what kind of policy is that? different organisations.. different policies.. different services.. we are just ns men been deploy there to help them.. you all are regulars deploying there from the first admission till the last admission.. anyway, this complain is under review.. even if we have to pay for the meals..is fine with me.. but to buy outside for our meals just to let the CISCO officers see us eat, i will rather die of hunger..
anyway.. where can we get a $1 meal? rice with 2 fried chicken wings and fried potatoes.. where else but portsdown? haha..

just because of meals.. instructions between officers in charge of the menu to inmates/warden officers/k-9 officers are not clear.. is coupons needed? or is it provided? portsdown have this problem initially but we have given up asking for it to solve.. because we find out only the morning shift 1 is affected.. while the shift 2 and night shift, dinners are provided.. now queenstown.. hai.. dinner should also be provided as the CISCO officers will only be there till the last admission.. argh..

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well.. look like i have something to say regarding about police and security..

let's take for an example: someone who work in the police force for so many yrs, has been fired/resigned from the organisation.. what will he look for a job next? finding work where his expertise is required, or finding work where his diploma in certain fields are meet whereas he have lost touch with it or even forgotten about it? find work in CISCO or Prison? how about working as an accountant, banker, engineer, IT, business? will he forgot the foundation of the required field? im not trying to pinpoint that "im-totally-correct-and-that-you-are-wrong" kind of attitude.. is just from my point of view and not trying to get into an argument.. maybe some questions to pondered on.. feel free to share your point across..you know who you are..

lol.. i read some blog where guys and gals quarrel over a relationship, misunderstanding one another.. kind of like an enactment to my past situation.. boy.. the way this ex-friend of mine reply back to this poor boy is very pretentious.. the way she comments is pure concern but her heart is thinking otherwise.. split personality.. spot on!!

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sat.. 24 hrs of activity.. by the time i reach home.. i head to my bed.. 12 hrs of duty at k-9.. followed by friend's birthday.. then ask my buddies to go and play pool and see movie in the morning.. by 3 am.. i dont have mood to play pool already.. my eyes want to close already.. i want to go back home.. but my buddies suggest to go and watch "Mr and mrs smith".. well.. i did go with them.. the show suxs.. the moral of the story is if you are in a marriage break down, try to solve the problem by knowing each other better..

my buddies say i trained to stay up awake all night..yet still feel so tired.. and i have to explain to them that before meeting them, i had work in a 12 hr shift..

my team have literally solve half of the problem.. regarding about our SD.. there is this guy who have personal problem, hence cannot take arms and have to deploy for security coverage.. our deployment have already planned 2 tours(1 tour is 1 day and 1 night) before hand.. so he know the deployment but somehow, he abused it.. abused it by throwing MC.. and we have to take his place.. now at last he's gone.. to changi sub base.. another half we have to wait until july then we know whether another guy in our team is leaving or not..

for the whole of last week, i been thinking of one gal.. though i had given up on her, but my heart is still miss her.. 4 yrs of wonderful memory.. maybe her presence in my heart have helped me to soften the blows that i had earlier on..

now, the television series "lost" have really glued me to the screen.. i cant wait for the next episode to be screen..

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does anyone saw the series, "Lost"? im wondering how could an 8-month pregnant woman get to sit in an aeroplane, going through turblence at 10000 ft, and yet able to survived an air crash? wow, that is one hell of a superwoman.. i dont think any pregnant lady will survived this ordeal in the first place.. let alone sitting in an aeroplane..

two of my friends are going to serve the nation tomorrow.. wish jimmy and tehao all the best.. haha.. cant wait to see their head bald..

seem like i have run out of topics to blog.. though i still got a final part of reflection to blog about.. i dont think i will be able to do it..i will try my best to get it blog..

anyway.. will be blogging lesser and lesser.. will blog if there is anything interesting.. hehe..

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patrolling was so much fun.. i was sent to Echo divison at Bishan area.. that sector is way too quiet and too small.. we have to patrol the same area twice at different times.. hmm.. oh well.. and guess what..i get to spot checked one of the FI.. he is none other than Fazli.. he was at bishan park with his gf.. and he say to me, "i remember you.." i was dumbfounded.. he could still remember me out of so many trainees in PA..

at the start of the patrol, i bought Blacky along.. but he vomitted due to my colleague who like to cornering while driving.. poor him.. he have to send back to base before proceeding on.. other people who drive with Blacky on board, Blacky doesnt vomitted at all..

we went to those places where couples like to go there for hanky panky.. Macritchie reservoir.. Bishan park.. the cars parked with the engines on and the windows were densed at the powerful air con.. lol.. we use the headlights of our vehicle to give out some warning.. but didnt go out to be near of the vehicle to catch the action..
oh well, that will be a long time before i get to go out to patrol again.. although there wasnt any msg or COR to attend to, it was an eye-opening for me..

Reflection on life part 1..

wow.. i didnt realised that i have blog this for 1 yr.. happy, sad, angry, everything is inside.. i get to know myself better through reading my past thoughts, past emotions and past events.. certain things came to my mind when i read all the posts..

- i get to know one and only bimbo in this 21 yrs.. no prize for guessing who is it.. ex-bimbo i should say..

- am i more equipped to handle those incidents, that i have went through, in the future? i donno.. only those who experienced it with me, those faithfully readers will have the say.. or maybe God?

- we have so many aspects of life.. relationship, work, family, religion, character, etc.. so which part of it i have grown..which part i need to improve on?

- when i read those posts, my mind have lots of thoughts but little answers.. i could have done this instead of that.. i could have say that instead of this..

- no regrets for what i have done except for one.. reconciling with her as friends.. i like what i have say on 16th april.. that post really say something that could have been done.. maybe she isnt really open or really frank with me?

- overall, how do i fare in this pathetic injustice world? fail? poor? average? who truly understand me? Me, friends or God? Do i change for the better or for the worse?

all these things could come to me as bad or good.. i donno.. but at the end of the day, i have to account for myself all the actions, speech, thoughts, interaction, feelings, everything.. not to human beings.. but God.

i come to this world alone.. alone too i leave this world..

ive learnt alot through this one yr.. and one of the lesson is friends aint forever.. if only i could turn back the time.. or start life as a perfect person.. wishful thinking..lol..

will blog about it another day..

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sian sian sian.. sian x 100.. nothing to do leh.. play games.. go out with friends.. watch tv.. watch movies.. yesterday also the same.. nothing to do play with the tagboard..haha..

sigh.. today cannot go to PDP because it require tickets to go.. lucky i ask people or else i make a wasted trip..

i really want to tear myself up in this boredom.. time move so slow.. argh..

let see.. what movies is on offer now.. unleashed.. monster-in-law.. hitchhiker's guide to galaxy.. cursed.. ghost train.. 2nd off is on monday where tickets sold are at the cheapest.. $7 i guess.. hmm..

tomorrow training.. then after that patrol at Echo division.. i dont want to expect too much or else people might play MC and i could be deployed some where else.. even if they do that, i also cant complain much.. just have to wait for the chance to come..

Sianzation!!

Life in K-9 (22)

today totally shagged out.. Blacky feel the full blunt of shift work in HQ.. first half was posted to portsdown.. little did i know that i and Blacky will be sitting at a shady area seeing inmates exercising!!! after that escort inmates out to throw rubbish and area cleaning for 2 hrs under the hot sun.. the worst is yet to come.. when it time to go back to base, he dont want to go back.. lol..

second half of the shift was getting activated by admiralty west prison due to a fire and riot exercise.. Blacky been black.. imagine the sun putting the spotlight on him for 1 hr.. and he nearly fainted due to heat stroke.. lucky i went back to base to play with him and splash some cooling water on him.. i think he feel shiok after a hot day work.. and also prehaps that he is also first time work full 12 hrs..

this is what i expect to do when im more familiar with my job scope.. still getting the hang of it.. out of nowhere getting a COR.. working in extreme weather..

Blacky has been working in changi sub base for the last 5 yrs where is a heaven to him.. so that why he find the going get tough when been activated in HQ..

i found an old passion been ignited in me.. that is reading comics.. im now reading slam dunk english version comics.. vcds stop at where they won the inter-school championship.. now the comics is continue on where they go on to win the national championship.. i cant stop ever since i bought the first book under the recommendation from my team-mate..

and finally, i got the china-con msg this morning.. this msg comes a little too late where the news reported about it yesterday night..

signing off with bolster hugging and salivia drooling in action................

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i just received an email from my brother in christ regarding one of our church member was in overseas to attend a theology studies for 3 yrs..i was amazed at how other christians despite their disabilities, their shortcomings able to serve the God, whom they feared so much, faithfully with a breeze!! im utterly ashamed that i thought i have done my best to serve.. but these people exceed above their limits.. their actions make me think twice about my faith in God.. and making me realise that i have more to serve God in the coming yrs..

my friend told me that i only served the nation for 1 yr!! how could this be? well, our working life is work 2 days off 2 days.. 1 yr working.. the other yr is off.. you get off without telling the supervisors.. neither does the supervisor call you to report back to work or rush a report through.. but ever since i returned back to the team, i got more than what i bargained for.. i can claim extra hours off as i need to report early for my night duty at queenstown remand prison.. i get to work 6 hrs in portsdown before coming back to base to do anything you like..sleep, training with Blacky, bathe Blacky, wash kennel..

for the last 2 weeks, i sleep more than i work.. not that im complaining about my work scope is boring but my duty revolve around prison premises.. sit down stay.. get to doze off if i can.. hehe.. but as a result, i sleep too much that i donno what i need to do.. i think i need to tune my sleeping habit to a more regular time than sleeping irregularly.. not a very good habit to pick up though..

and i get to patrol this coming weekend.. saturday.. hehehe.. at Echo.. dont think will go to orchard.. most prob will be at bukit timah where most rich people live..

hmm.. my tagboard dont seem to be working despite asking for views and opinion regarding to my last post.. but there is an increase of people viewing my blog though.. haha.. oh well.. never mind..

Girls been princess while guys been whiny..?1?!

first off today..but im not tired.. donno why.. still as fresh as ever.. hmm.. yesterday at portsdown.. just by lying on a foldable chair in an open but enclosed area, mosquitoes begin their feast on me..

few days back, there is a survey been polled by the newspaper regarding about how girls think about guys and vice versa.. both sexes say that 70% of the women are behaving like princess while guys are whiny.. and the remaining 30%, half of them say that both sexes are mature..

now, been a neutral to this survey.. i will like to say to both of the sexes that took part in this survey.. dont expect too high to the other counterparts.. i wonder does this survey affect the thinking of the young singaporeans of watching a movie where the character act in a perfect role where personality and looks are click together? im kind of putting this example indirectly.. where people seem to have high expectation where looks are concerned.. "hey, look, chio bu coming!!" but we didnt know what her weakness are until we get to know her.. it seem to me that singaporeans are choosy.. be it in jobs, schools and especially people like girls.. i definitely have no exception.. even in my workplace, i tend to work with those people where i have worked before..

but if i were to take the poll, i will have side the guys side.. girls nowadays are acting like princess.. pardon me if is because of the recent situation.. girls score points on looks..but if character fails where they can take the easy way out by ignoring the person or avoid the problem completely.. will people accept this girl as a true princess? princess, no doubt, are also human beings who are imperfect, whose wrong decision could be condemned by the villagers..

guys been whiny.. is time for guys to say it out instead of keeping their mouth shut.. where do we get to see this kind of guys back in the day of our grandfather, great-grandfathers' times? whenever they get scolded, they just keep their mouth shut and carry on with work..

this post no doubt will open for debate or critics sharpening their knives on me.. there is no wrong or right answer to it.. everyone is entitled to their opinion.. im quite open about it.. time to let my tagboard work abit.. hehe.. kind of tired seeing those comments that been say 1 month ago..

Life in K-9 (21)

from a mere listener in a conversation to a person caught between two sides.. i and my colleague are caught in a dilemma.. hai..donno what to say.. out of sudden, my team have an internal conflict.. have to wait for the Team Leader to come back to restore the peace before cracks are too obvious for the other people to see..

yesterday duty was a 6 hr duty at portsdown centre.. it was really a sit down stay.. no escort.. nothing..but lucky i bring something to read to kill time..

hai.. these days doesnt seem to have any nice movies that attract my attention.. star wars, an x-rated documentary "inside deep throat"..and other horror movies.. so off days are just sleep and sleep and sleep.. no activities.. call friends also have to wait until weekend.. as some of them are working, serving nation or studying.. sian!!

Life in K-9 (20)

yesterday night was the most du lan night i ever had.. cant even sleep peacefully.. imagine an officer who is sick.. who is trying to switch off or trying to adjust the air con.. i dont mind he do that..but the worst is he did it when he have to switch on and off the lights.. 3 times no least.. kao..

first time saw people been sentenced to queenstown remand prison.. have to strip naked.. to search for drugs.. do some squatting to see whether they hid anything in their asshole.. and to do administration work, fully clothed of course.. when they strip naked, Blacky was looking at me, i looked back at him.. "why, dont tell me you also first time see people naked?"

Life in K-9 (19)

argh.. 12 hrs without a hp? is like something part of me been missing.. but to substitute with an air-conditioned room with tv, radio make me forget about my hp..

this is what my 12 hrs shift in queenstown remand prison.. not much to do either.. have a free dinner at the tea-room.. watch tv till midnight.. and sleep the remaining of the time.. lol..

before the shift start, i was frantic to hear that hp cannot bring in.. but somehow my instincts kick in where my hp and wallet is in the locker to my room is just 2 metal gates away.. one of the metal gate is not lock.. as for the other metal gate i have to wait for the prison officer to unlock it before i can reach to my hp.. all in a legal way..and a truly give and take manner..

that all i have to say about my first 12 hr shift at queenstown.. back to dreamland..

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why do people have to tell lies just to let others have the doubt? does telling lies able to get them out of trouble? or does it help to get the happiness that they want? i wonder by telling lies, what gain do they get to stand?

A quote by Mark Twain, "When in doubt, tell the truth"

hai.. by end of this month, every cinema will increase their ticket prices.. but i can consider myself lucky again that i work 2 days off 2 days.. so i can watch movie during weekdays..

these few days been dreaming about the same thing.. is like kinda of a nightmare to me.. is about a gathering where i get to see all the people that i dont wish to see.. i was very uptight, was looking for someone to talk, but wherever i turn, those people just look at me and smile.. yucks!! yucky!! yuckiest!!

someone ask me this, "what is your dream car?"

Me: "Toyota Rav 4 or Lexus RX 300.."

Him: "why not Ferrari or Lamborghini?"

Me: "siao.. how to speed? go abit only traffic light liao.. singapore max speed is 160.. and i think Ferrari or Lamborghini min required speed is 160 lor.."

Him: "no lah..not asking you to speed.. maybe drive around Orchard to show off mah.."

Me: "lol..do you think im a person who likes to show off.. drive this type of car in Orchard is like a sore thumb sticking out because other cars are all ordinary..moreover, who will really go and see on the road what car im driving.."

Him: "erm..whatever..no comments......"

Life in K-9 (18)

wow..first day back to the team.. do base guard for half a day before taking Blacky out for Portsdown shift 2 duty.. in the morning shift, portsdown got 2 shift.. shift 1 is 0800-1400.. and shift 2 is 1400-2000.. the duty is just sit down stay for me.. lol.. half of the 2nd shift i was dozing off..

wonder why so many people sign on for police knowing that at the end of the day, the job scope is the same as security guard.. is it because of their passion to catch criminals? is it because of the job scope? or is it because of how they see people behave in the day time or night time? or is it because they want to see how people react with or without the presence of people wearing blue? or maybe is the ambition to be a law-enforcer? well, the list goes on..

as for me, this job is definitely not for me.. so pls stop asking me about signing on.. no matter how much MHA going to give me for my salary.. i will still say no.. is not the amount of money that able to keep me contented.. is the challenges that counts..

by jun, the whole deployment team A-D will be reshuffled.. even an ordinary SC like me not spared either.. to me, any team is fine with me as long as dont play fire with me by putting deployment at the same place.. i can work with anyone but dont create a profile that so-and-so are known to "eat" SC.. some names are been forward to me about this trend.. lol.. well, better to be safe than sorry..

i think im having memory loss.. is like seeing this person so familiar at some places, but yet have no memory where i have seen this person before.. it took me about 5-10 mins before i knew who that person is.. lol.. same goes to my church people.. they know my name but i totally forgotten about their names as i seldom come to church even since i posted to dog unit.. maybe im too preoccupied about current affairs in dog unit.. hehe..

oh well.. going to take a rest now.. tomorrow will be the night shift and will be doing portsdown the whole 12 hr shift..

Life in K-9 (17)

yes.. oh yeah.. im indeed posted back to HQ and also back to my team.. haha.. cant wait to work with them again..

i will be doing prison duty at portsdown, queenstown remand prison, and occasionally ops javalin and division rounds.. im looking forward the last 2 duties.. haven really got a chance to wear uniform in town and a dog on leash..wahahha.. anyway there will be a chance..

hai.. guess those who particpating in Police Day Parade already get to see what my unit is doing.. though im not physically there, but i do know what is happening.. hehe.. i will definitely be there on the actual day cheering my unit on..

Inflation

golden village!! stop killing us with those price increase.. 9.50 for a weekend ticket.. you are the only one who increase the prices.. the others have not.. no wonder i saw so few people at golden village than other cinemas like cathay cineplex..

i think i have to watch movie at other cinemas than golden village.. golden village will be the last cinema in my mind..

tomorrow is the day where i will be posted.. hopefully i will get HQ and go back to my former team.. i not asking much..

i did some soulful thinking over the last 2 days.. and i feel that my NS life isnt that bad at all.. after i posted to k-9, i should considered myself lucky not to see some of my squadmates or posted to SOC.. and to be a dog handler put some icing on the cake.. at least it gives me some challenges.. i feel that God have reserve me for the best in terms of the treatment from my former team and my training team.. thanks God..

Growing up is a phrase of life

watch coach carter today.. very nice show i should say.. i like the way he quoted this, "growing up is about making decision and to live with the consequences.."

in my friendster profile, i wrote that im against procrastinating.. i think i no need to go through history or archives to know what im trying to refer to.. once is enough or will i get to see a second one? i donno.. but i hope not.. previously i have all the patience in the world.. but now is very difficult.. maybe is the way how singaporeans want it fast.. how i have come to terms about the corporate working world is really like that in such a way, im influenced to it.. or is it that i waited too long for an answer that never came? or is it i do really have the patience to go and wait?

well, as my officer has say when im still training to be a full-pledged policeman, do everything in moderation.. know the limits..

am i digging up the past? prob yes.. why.. because first time round was a question asked "what if you did something halfway and you dont have the confidence to carry on?" and hence, friendship was broke.. second time round was about what i blog, not even clarifying with me which part i was wrong and again friendship broke..

did i do something that is repeating itself.. or someone else is repeating the action? i think i let you, the readers, to judge for yourself..

Life in K-9 (16)

Passed out lor..!! But still donno posted to where.. either HQ or changi.. monday then will know..

today went to changi village and have a swim with Blacky.. of course with my team as well.. sort of like a pass out celebration..hehe..

oh well.. anything i blog later.. going out now.. chaoz..!!

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bad news isnt really a bad news after all.. i email back to enquire about reserving a place in it on the advice from my buddy.. they replied back to tell me try again next yr..

lol, my friend's dad bring back a dog and her sister bring it for a walk and for no reason, after coming back from the walk, the dog bite her sister.. well, the dog is still adapting to the new environment and have to familiarise the surrounding.. as a result, they are now scared of the dog.. dont ever let the dog sense that you are afraid of the dog or else, the temperment will grow to such an extent visitors dont dare to come to her house..

this week weather is like a drought to me.. i have to bathe in cold water to feel the shiokness in it..haha..

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argh.. send an email out to everyone in my contact list even to her.. hai.. an oversight.. need to do some cleaning up to my contact list..

got some good news and bad news to report..

first, the bad news, my appeal for entering poly is rejected as the course is quite popular and my results didnt meet the requirement of it.. oh well, will try again next yr with more choices now.. lol.. my buddy ask me to try again with the same course, same poly again..plus more choices lah..haha..

secondly, good news is that i might be passing out as a dog handler as early as this week.. due to my trainer is going for a study visit to other country for "cadavar dog" who are trained to sniff out dead bodies..

have anyone tried play FM2005 with editor? wow, it's damn cool.. i got 653 million dollars to spend on players.. and have all the best players in my team.. an unbeatable team with all the superstars.. season unbeaten, win trophies like having meals... lol..

these few days need to go to SOC for PDP rehearseal.. not really involved lah.. i know.. someone is involved what.. so what.. i wont indulge details as to what our unit will be doing.. or else not nice to see the performance already..

Life in K-9 (15)

did anyone drive before a "semi-auto, semi-manual" transmission car? our dog unit have this kind of car.. lol.. although i dont have the license to drive, i will like to have this type of car.. you can use manual transmission but when stopping or going off is auto-geared.. cool is it..

the new SOC uniform sucks.. sucks to the core.. sleeves cannot fold.. hai.. weather so hot already still want us to wear until like that..

this morning, our former president Mr Wee Kim Wee pass away.. may his name pass on from generation to generation..

Life in K-9 (14)

these few days been quite busy as our training team have to go to airport to see new dogs.. 11 dogs..i could only name some like Rocky, Swift, Lara, Kyra and one very funny name, Anus.. lol.. then another 3 hardcore dogs.. bring them out to de-kit.. first time i saw one dog who pee is like turning on the tap.. i was waiting there for 40 secs and the pee was so much that it take some time for it to sink to the exercise area. same dog again, who decided to shit also.. the shit was like a big bubble gum.. blue greenish brown..

got one dog..walk very gracefully.. like a horse.. the tail is up as the dog walk.. quite a beauty to see..

still got some more coming in.. overall there will be 35 new dogs coming in.. 14 have came..

yesterday did baiting.. overall experience was quite fun.. but been a first timer was quite scary... my right hand is very numb because i have to push the dog but the dog go against it..

Life in K-9 (13)

Monday blues!! sigh.. let's put it this way, today is not my day..

two trainers, K and L.. im putting their initials here.. stop picking on me just because im slow, stubborn or so-call showing attitude to you two.. you did not explain your instructions fully..expect me to take initiative.. if you had explain it fully, it wont have happen this way.. well, you have given me the feedback indirectly.. and im going to show you my baddest self just to you two indirectly as well..

i wont have say anything if i really in a way ignore the instructions.. K, you are too serious in the training that why im lacking behind in training.. why other people who conduct training doesnt have a problem with me?

some officers who know me just by looking the way i work previously as base guard, as long as there is fun, freedom in it, i can assure them of a duty that i have done my utmost respect in it.. well, initally i was new to the job scope, i have nothing to say..but as time pass.. they let me work the way i wanted to.. without giving problems..

if you two want to show me that racist is also another way of going against me..i will make sure my "wings" is also slowly growing.. no one is going to benefit from it..

im not saying that i should have a say in the training.. how the way it conducted.. but rather how the way you can conduct the training in a more creative, fun way that we can absorb more.. how to absorb when you are so serious? even playing soccer also want to be serious.. just a game leh..

i feel that K is worse than me.. yup, at times i can be serious..but i know the limit.. i know when to have fun, when to be serious..

and i also going to prove both of you wrong in what you have suggested about me.. so long as i do well in the training, i cant be bothered about it.. i rather let others who are in a better position to have a say about me.. dont judge..

Life in K-9 (12)

i couldnt blog yesterday as the main site is down..

yesterday was a day full of fun and laughter to me..if only everyday is like this.. went back to TRACOM in the afternoon to attend a swimming carnival just to support our colleagues.. but boredom get the interests of us that we left the place quickly..

after that had a soccer game at base with my colleagues.. when the time to go home, our legs just dont want us to left the field because we had so much fun.. whenever a goal is scored, some people will say, "last goal, last goal.." so as to extend the game.. that how exciting the game was..

on the way back home, i was laughing myself non-stop even on the mrt.. lol.. people think im a lunatic escaped from hougang chalet.. because the officers told me that some of our dogs have this instinct to smell "gals who are having period".. whenever our female colleagues who having that thing of the month, some of the dogs will stop infront of her just to smell it.. i not been dirty-minded..but the way my officers make the action where the dogs' noses stick at that area.. i was laughing as if nobody's business.. it was indeed a day to keep my worries and problems away..

does friendship have conditions to meet and to keep? if i doesnt get to meet any of it, am i still a friend? does friends that go through thick and thin, only to be deserted by that person later? is this the way to pay back what they have gone through?

today not much of happening.. maybe later going out with friends for a movie marathon..lol.. movie freaks.. hmm.. that means i cant go for ubin tomorrow liao.. too tired to go liao.. sigh.. nvm.. another time also can.. hehe..

Urine test

initially i was thinking of deleting the posts that are relating to her.. but i dont intend to do that, because i want to keep it so that when i go through a new phrase of life, i able to know what i have done, my thoughts..

sigh.. today got a surprise urine test.. first time got it.. first time fail.. my urine got substances of "opium"..woo.. hold your horses.. yesterday report sick so my family doctor give me flu tablets, antibotics and cough mixture. the last medicine is the cause of it.. i was kind of anxious and also at the same time, experiencing something that those drug addicts will do.. i was like a drug addict for half a day.. holding a bottle and waiting for my urine to come out and at the same time, someone was watching you.. how to pee in peace?!?!

have to go down to J division for a statement.. kind of funny.. own collegues going after just for your urine samples.. but in the end is nothing lah.. not going to get charged or what.. i was on medication.. hmm.. wonder what happen if those people who are clubbing and then police come in and say, "everyone, dont leave, pls give your urine samples.." ok..i saw some eyebrows been raised.. just a thought..

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wah.. government very greedy leh.. ask whether want to open a casino or not.. they go ahead and open 2.. one at marina bay..one at sentosa.. cannot blame lah ah.. singapore are known to be kiasu.. one not enough..must have at least 2 then shiok.. tsk tsk..

police to patrol in mrt station and the trains... even our unit also not spared.. my mind is thinking of something funny here.. imagine a SC policeman patrolling in the train and happen to see his friends.. and just stop there to chit chat.. hmm.. not very funny but rather amusing..

i feel that i really cant stop getting back at this person.. im like a person who been sent to jail not knowing what offence i have been committed..

Judge: I hereby sentenced you to life imprisonment for the offences you have committed..
Me: What offences did i committed, Your Honour?
Judge: Based on your character, your blog and your sensitivity.
Me: erm, are all these things also considered offences that i committed? Your Honour?
Judge: ......!!!
Me: did i committed murder? did i kidnap people to consititute a life imprisonment? Your Honour, even you also donno what offences i have committed, you sentenced me to life imprisonment!!

ive make someone sound so bad.. again not a fair or a justified verdict i have received.. but im not appealing.. i wanted to carry on listing down what she have done, her actions, the way she contradicts... but i stop short of saying it.. yup, i know it wont end even the cow has come home.. well, i have to remind myself not to blog about this person again.. oh another thing, the most regret action i have ever done is to reconcile with her as friends..because more problems are added to it..rather than solving it..

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I have taken the pictures of the dogs under my care.. i only uploaded some onto friendster.. not all.. i taken about 20 odd pictures..hehe.. i put up Mito, Blacky and a trick dog called Aiko.. i also have a dumb-looking rottweiler named Barney, Kim, Zeb..

The picture that i put up as current is the trick dog, Aiko doing a bow.. I cant put the captions.. sigh.. as i pressed the button, it will lead me to another page and not friendster..

i find this yr NKF show is much more nicer than the previous ones.. maybe the effort is there.. maybe the team work is there.. but whatever it is, their efforts have been paid off..

argh.. i really cant be bothered about it anymore.. though i maybe stubborn, but i still willing to go and listen what is happening.. yet she doesnt even want to give it a try.. citing my character, my blog, my sensitivity and the last of all, breaking off friendship.. do you think this will improve the situation?? im not a perfect person.. to some, my character could be a weakness... to other, it could be a strength.. what i blog, certain people might not like it, some might encouraged from it.. i seem to repeating it again and again that in such a way, i really dont wish to say it again.. i very sian already.. my points cant seem to get across..

Final words

lol.. how much have you know me so far? let's be frank.. or should i say how much i have know you so far? basically nothing.. just problems of your own.. does it serve any purpose in truly knowing you? i wouldnt have mind if you solve it before breaking it.. but your actions seem to suggest otherwise..

why should i be afraid of the comments that i make when no one seeks to clarify with me? i mean come on, prove me wrong.. let me have this guilty conscience.. you are giving me the upper hand on it.. waste of time!! wow, do you ever take time out to tell me what going on? i was in the dark all the time..

deriving my character in this blog.. lol.. what if i put on a smokescreen? what if i dont want to reveal all about myself? does reading my blog makes you understand more about me? does it make any sense here?

oh, so if i tell my friends about the strain, problems that we had, and my friends agree to what i say..that means im not the only one thinking this way.. mind you..i didnt make up any story to make you feel bad..

did we have a nice chat over the problems that you are facing? or are you trying to implied that i give you this blog at the wrong time hence dont want to tell me.. i say chat on the msn.. i was online all the time.. i give you ample chances and time.. but i didnt see "dualism" online at all.. only once..that it.. my phone is 8 numbers away, 24/7.. is it really tat difficult?

erm..so you have an idea why people reject me as friend or as a potential bf? because of my character? or do you have any idea what the other party's story? not every friendship that doesnt go right have to really based on my character.. it can be other reason.. but i dont see fit telling you why my other 3 targets reject me.. or my squad mates doesnt like me what i have did.. to them, they want to have fun.. to me, i want to be serious.. different people have different agendas..to me, they are my squadmates..nothing else.. i dont wish to change in such a way people change me to what they like.. if every people were to do this.. where am i going to show my true self? i might as well be an actor and act other people's character.. if given a choice..i will like to act in your character.. did i give you a very satisified answer?

all in all.. you only given me doubts.. i dont wish to carry on where friendship isnt there, where we have different agendas.. as you zooming in my character, while i was trying to know your problems.. look im happy with what i used to be right now..but you are adding salt to the injury by breaking off friendship based on my character.. i was like, "huh..2 weeks never communicate also can break friendship? just because of what i blog and doesnt clarify with me.. think that im too stubborn to listen.. because of my character and my over-sensitive.." is that consider a valid reason to do it?

i know i have no right to say that your ex-bf or your current bf aint suitable to guide you.. but just as an ex-friend of yours.. you want it your own way..you want it just for your own gain/profit, without considering other people's feeling.. i think you better stay single.. enuff saying!!

All over again

yes..thank you very much.. i already knew that person will do that again.. no way will i go and plead with her and ask her to be friends again.. from today onwards, we will be strangers.. although i didnt notice it 3 days ago.. but at least it now or never..2nd time she did that.. but this time..i have to say a thank you to her.. not sorry.. sound scarastic? think again.. and using friendster as a program to break off friendship..

dont you people find it funny when she got something to tell me, yet she expect me to make the initiative first.. ex: msn chat or sms.. 7 months of friendship and getting 2 breakup of friendship.. i wont risk myself going back again.. once confess feelings for her.. it totally went downhill all the way.. when facing problems as friends, give excuses like busy, with bf.. doesnt even wish to solve it at all.. or trying to divert to other topics..

give her this blog add.. first she say my comments were very wrong.. after that she say im half wrong half right.. what next? even without this blog, she still doesnt want to clarify with me..

oversensitive.. im touching on it right now.. that person didnt even tell me her problems..but her past problems.. and i was left guessing here and there, hence coming up with all these comments.. all i know im in the dark most of the time.. im not going to blame her or anyone.. i mean is this the only way to get to know a person better through talking majority of it on problems..nothing but problems..i dont even have a single clue about other things about her..

think about this.. give her a chinese new yr greeting card through snail mail with my address written at the back of the envelope.. then she break off friendship.. after that reconcile again as friends, she ask me where i stay.. i dont think i need to say anymore about what she did to the card.. neither am i going to say about the birthday present as well..

a note to her: dont mislead people if you cant do it.. not every problem that you face, is able to come to a solution just based on you..think for the others as well.. pls, dont be so self-centered.. you are creating more than solving it.. the situation for you is win-lose.. while for me is a lose-lose situation..

someone, pls oh that someone.. someone who is strong enough to wake her up.. strong enough to scold, tell, guide, whatever it is.. i dare to say that her ex-bf or current bf is not strong enough to do that..

and again, i correctly know that my trainer will go tough on me when it's just the first day handling Blacky. I cant "check" him 100% or else he dont want to do with me.. what the hell.. attitude dog.. pls.. i still need more time to rapport with the dog..dont expect me to build a rapport at such a short time..

time to play game lor..

Life in K-9 (11)

Today is a mourning day for K-9.. one of our collegue pass away due to a traffic accident.. and this is the first time i witnessed a state funeral minus the rifle firing in the air.. we stand along side of the road when the hearse pass, we give a salute.. after the service, we give another salute to him..

may his soul rest in peace.. and three salute to him..

today is practically a sad day for me.. i was assigned to another dog named Blacky.. as Mito is now back to his previous handler to train him for tracking.. a method only found in General Purpose Guide Dog. Now i got 5 dogs to visit whenever im free or after training.. 3 from my previous team.. 1 is Mito and another one is Blacky.. now i have to build up the rapport again.. and again my affection for Mito has just began to develop and have to do it again for Blacky.. overall it back to square 1.. argh.. i hate that..

if my trainer blames me that Blacky didnt listen to my commands.. i will shoot back stating back that the rapport is not there yet..

this saturday going back to base to do kennel duty.. will definitely take all the 5 dogs out to take photo.. or else i might not have the chance again.. i will only take 4 dogs.. the other dog is Bobby.. not really that close to him..

Life in K-9 (10)

oopsy.. it should be lim chu kang cemetery.. got a mix up.. hai.. too tired liao..

last time work as base guard get to wake up early only about twice a week.. now learn how to handle dog have to wake up early for 5 days week.. after that post out to sub base, will be again work 2 days off 2 days.. hai.. adjust here and there.. i donno whether my body can take it or not..

i think i really need a holiday.. destination: australia..
ive been to malaysia donno how many times liao.. been there for leadership camp, npcc tour, buy vcd and bubble gum.. the furthest i ever went is china.. to accompany my grandma and family visit her siblings..

4 yrs ago..i did intend to go and to go alone.. i got everything ready.. budget, places of interest to visit.. but not the plane tickets.. my friends cautioned me about going there alone and might even get kidnapped.. kao.. just that caution prevent me from going..

erm.. i have no idea what i want to do after i ord.. either studies if my appeal is successful or go for a holiday.. whatever it is at this moment of time, i dont want to think so much.. i want to recharge my body now..

BED, PILLOW, BOLSTER and BLANKET.. here i come..

Accident in Ubin

woohoo.. today go out for training.. anyone dare to guess where is the place? it's choa chu kang cemetery... lol..

erm.. i donno whether i should blog it out or not after seeing something disappear within a day itself.. hai..better not lah.. certain things are better left unsaid..

eh, anyone want to go cycling at ubin or go for the Big Walk? just want to take time out to relax my mind.. most prob i will do both..hehe.. cycling is 23/4/05.. while the Big Walk is in May.. i going to sign up for it.. got goodies bag as well..hehe.. oh anyone seeing this blog, and want to accompany me.. msg me.. my msn address is there..

speaking of ubin, i have an unforgettable experience months before i enlisted to police.. i have just completed my studies and waiting to enlist.. after that, my church organised a "teens-and-youth fellowship" at ubin.. two groups.. i lead the cycling group while another brother lead the hiking group.. the unfortunate events happened.. and it was going to be the end of trip.. i was cycling side by side with another brother in christ and he decided to have some fun by trying to crash my bicycle with his.. he got too close that i have no choice but to apply brakes on my bicycle.. and that is the first time i see myself flying.. my church friends saw it too.. the impact will have been much worse if not for my hands.. i landed in such a way my hands are ready to take the impact.. went to tan tock seng hospital with two friends.. took x-ray..and inject painkillers.. the worse is not over yet.. i know that im allegy to painkillers..but somehow i donno why i let the nurse to inject me.. from an outpatient to a drug allegy patient staying back in hospital for observation.. as my eyes were bloated.. from then onwards, my wallet carry a card about my allegies.. lucky i recovered fast enough that my hands are able to do the push-ups..if not i might be on medical review..

hai.. enough of blogging already..going to play games now..

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bloody kasey.. do you have to tell everyone that once i encountered a problem in my way or other people's way, i will hell bend to solve it once and for all.. and still dare to say that i dont even know my father's surname when im in the midst of solving problem.. hey..that is too far-fetched or should i say you are too exaggerating..

i can only vertify that it is true to an extent.. when facing a problem, i have to solve it so that i can learn.. but you are putting me in a bad light.. argh.. lucky you dont have friendster..or else you will not get anything good from me.. you better know what to do hor..

wow.. blogging seem to be the "in" thing right now.. friendster also want to be part of this pie.. with photoblog and astrology.. too many of it in the long run doesnt look appealing.. friendster should have just stick to one..

training is now in the second week.. well..learn alot of new things.. get to play with voices as in how to be stern when the dog did wrong or praise him when he did a good one.. that a hard one for me but im getting the hang out of it.. basic commands with hand signals like SIT, DOWN, STAY and STAND.

Answer from the Bible

minci.. i got the answer for your friend.. donno whether you want to let him know about it..

both Jesus and the serpent didnt lie.. what the serpent merely did was to create doubt to Adam and Eve.. the serpent ask this qn to them, "did God ever say this.. did God ever say that.." the serpent want them to have this doubt.. nowadays, i have people telling me how they wish they could scold the couple foolish and stupid.. but try stepping into their shoes and get to hear this qn.. will you too have this doubt?

about drinking.. the bible is silent about it.. the bible didnt tell us when we can drink or how much we can drink.. but we are a living testimonial for God..we shouldnt drink to such a manner that is in a drunken state.. once we are drunk, we donno which hand is left..which leg to move..utter words that normal people dont get to hear.. i admit im a christian who drinks occasionally.. God warned us about the consequences being drunk.. not telling us about how drinking can drown our sorrow..

i hope i have answer his doubt..

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frankly speaking, i really got nothing to blog..donno what to blog.. my mind is literally a blank now.. dont ask me why.. i really donno.. maybe im sick.. running nose, sore throat, cough, slight fever..

went to my friend's birthday today..at changi.. drove there and after that went on a driving spree to nowhere.. was on expressway most of the time.. hehe..

now i know where to buy the durian puff.. yup..is at katong..but to exact is at joo chiat..

oh..she is online.. since the last chat with her was 19/03/05.. but i dont have anything to talk to her.. on the other hand, she got something to tell me which until now..haven even get to heard it.. not that i waiting eagerly to hear it..

i feel like meeting new people.. is like my life isnt complete with these "weird" people.. weird as in the way regliously people doing things.. be it habits, lifestyle, the way they think..

these are the people whom i really like to know..
-a christian who smokes..
-a christian who go clubbing..
-a christian who flirts..
-a christian who goes with every girl that she is the one for him but yet not to be..
-a christian who thinks that money can buy everything..

if there is anyone that fits the bill, pls dont be shy.. i will really like to know these people..

Life in K-9 (9)

end of april?!?! my goodness, end of april then i could know the result of my appeal.. oh well, at the very least i can concentrate on my new found love, Mito..

He likes to walk into my path.. hmm.. spoke to the previous handler.. he say that by the end of the course or after i ord, my left leg will pick up a habit.. and that is kicking while walking.. and Mito likes to walk ahead of his handler.. time to "check" him.. in order to make him walk side by side with the handler..

erm, i donno how many times did my blog, what i say today and got an indirect form of answer the very next day? this is not the first time im seeing this or experiencing it.. lucky im mentally prepared.. as a saying goes, "the best form of defence is attack" but as for me is the other way round.. "the best form of attack is defence"

too tired to blog.. going to dreamland soon.. tomorrow will be another day to build rapport with Mito.. i should say a very special day to remember for me and for him.. he gonna to be a superstar..lol..nah..