Randomness (42)

spoke to three friends about it.. all give different answers to this problem..

- since the feeling is still there, go for it..
- you have to see for yourself, maybe you should take one step at a time..
- give up lah.. since she go back on her words..

i can feel depression is hitting me very hard on this matter.. but i told myself that i cant give up without a fight.. i want to know where i stand.. i dont like to see myself been defeated way before the fight begins..

Reflections 2005

a much needed break for 1 week only to go back to work on the new yr eve.. blah..

2006.. hmm.. what to expect.. for the first half of the yr, nothing much.. have to serve finish before i could get to do anything..

second half of the yr is what im looking for.. i blog in the earlier post about what i plan to do.. i cant wait for the time to come..

recently, i really donno how come my feelings turn out to be like this.. its freaking me out and making me very weird..

for 6 yrs, i have this feelings for this gal.. i tried to go for other gals as well.. so dont say i wasted my entire 6 yrs just for this gal.. she went for overseas studies.. she say that she want to concentrate on her studies, fair enough.. i respect her decision and wanted to maintain a constant communication through msn, but she somehow reject it..

throughout these 6 yrs from what i know, she have been through 3 relationships including now.. now this is the weirdest part, im not angry at all despite finding out from reliable sources.. the feelings is kind of on-off and when she had a failed relationship, it just give me renewed hope.. but i have to admit that i didnt put in efforts.. =
this matter, i only told one of my sister-in-christ (a hint to where i have a feeling to this gal)..

my only question is this (dont think anyone can answer this).. is she the one for me and is it worth giving up once and for all for this girl?

Life in K-9 (61)

is basically the same old stuff.. lol..

saw blacky vomit in front of my very own eyes.. he was standing in the field not doing anything. His body was kind of grumbling then it happened.

i dont think i will go back to HQ anymore. the reason is CSB is welcoming 2 HQ colleagues. both are regulars as one of them is recent signed on. i was so happy to see them on wednesday when they came to our side for training. at least there are HQ colleague which i could really work with them since they coming to CSB..i was so lonely in CSB that i want to go back to HQ..you should know the feeling of been working in HQ and have to go to CSB where people are picking on you.. i will be changing team again, most prob after chinese new yr. im seeing myself working with one of them..hehe..

i have passed my shooting.. so i left with one to go and that is my ippt..

Randomness (41)

i kept my mouth shut too long liao.. need to clarify something.. anyone know about the post where someone say that guys interested in this girl and along the line, i say that this girl's heart is not faithful.. firstly, i didnt jump to conclusions that the couple's relationship was on the rocks because of third parties or because of the girl's will of going through hardship in the relationship.. what i want to say is that the guy's profile in the friendster give me the impression, not that i want to jump to conclusion. people reading it will have this impression.

secondly, the post that i mention about the relationship and now, didnt even mention that the word "break-up" and no, im not having the last laugh over what i say to this girl in the first argument in this past friendship. ever since she ended this friendship, i dont even give a damn about what is going on in her relationship. hopefully this is the last post about her in the year 2005.

now, i find out some friendster profile change coincidentally after i blog about it. "friends are not forever, sucky ones can disappear from my life..." this is the second guy whose friendster profile i mention about it in the earlier post when he request to be my friend.

from these 2 friendster profile show that they are reading my blog.. im not so sure about the first guy.. it could be the ex-female friend reading it..

i also found out some weird behaviours about girls from my female friend.. lol.. when i told her about my ex-friend call me.. she say that this ex-friend could already have feelings for me, and given though the friendship ended, she still kept my hp no.. so, what the use of keeping it?

anyway, hope i have say what i want to say about her..

for me, only thing to blog is i have the intention to buy a car next year end. well, that my ideal time frame to get, but the problem is, i donno what car to get..lol

1) mazda (what i like is the semi auto manual transmission)
2) toyota ( donno.. lol.. maybe is more suitable for family and friends)
3) lexus ( only fancy car is RX300 but too ex at the moment, maybe in the near future..)

after much consideration, i will opt for toyota.. wonder if this brand of car got semi auto manual transmission.. (heard encores of NO!!) ok fine, thank you!!

What to do after ORD

hmm.. what to do after i ord??

some options here -

1) as a driver (reasons: erm, i drive police vehicles..lol.. and already got 3 yrs driving experience)

2) as a dog handler( reason: oh, spend my 1 1/2 yrs in dog unit.. handles quite a number of dangerous dogs.. compare to pet dogs, is nothing)

3) as a bumming around student (further studies for obvious reasons)

4) as a white collar worker (specialise in accounts, tax, audit)

7 more months to ord and no more uniformed groups.. i dont care about where im posted anymore.. be it in HQ, changi or other parts of singapore, i dont give a damn anymore.. as long i did my job, wait for my pay to come on the 12th.. im easily contented.. lol.. what for trying so hard when you cant get the things that you want.. maybe i will take it as a blessing in disguise for the posting to changi.. coming year end, time to review what i have did during this year and making resolution for the new year.. later post then..

The call

0511pm, my hp rings.. 9xxxxxx9.. this no very familiar.. eh, is my ex-friend's hp no.. i didnt pick up the first time as i donno why she called in the first place.. so the phone stop, i heaved a sigh of relief..

0512pm, same no again.. i was feeling very uneasy and piss off seeing the no now.. what does she want? so i took a deep breath and pick up the call..

me: "hello?"
caller: "where are you?"
me: "who is this?"
caller: "NICOLE!! where are you?"
me: "huh?"
caller: "where are you?"
me: "at home.."
caller: "eh..wait a min, hai.. called the wrong gary.."

i end the call without saying anything.. my no is still with her.. is it because i will give a prank call to her.. or sms to her.. i wont do that so long as the friendship is not there.. i have already deleted the no when the friendship is over..

note to someone whom i believe still read my blog.. pls delete the no as i dont want to have anything to do with you..

Donation denied

shit man today.. saw mr ungentleman at PS.. and those girls asking for donations at PS entrance.. picture this.. infront of me there is a group of girls.. and i saw this girl targeting me for my attention.. she never went for that group of girls, she went for me instead.. i saw her coming, but she was too fast.. she plead with me to part my $5 for a key-chain.. call me kor kor.. say she will go down on her knees to beg me and have stand at there for quite long.. in the end, i never give my $5 to her and also apologise to her.. yes, i was alone..

one thing, i never trust in all these surveys, donations or details about me through strangers walk up to me.. i got trick into one.. so if you have to blame, blame that person..

Life in K-9 (60)

just called DY earlier in the evening.. he say he will bring me back on the condition that the new intake undergo SD training for another 3 months.. and i also told him what my mdm have advice me..

i realised alot of things regarding about my transfer to CSB.. firstly, i find the transfer as a blessing in disguise.. so-call a break from the stressful working environment..

secondly, those regulars in HQ have shift all the blame on me where they should be doing part of the security.. now they are suffering.. talking about not doing and now have to force to do it.. but they are not stupid either.. can call up to the prison and say not enough manpower..

i have a point to prove to them when im fully recharged and back to haunt them..

Life in K-9 (59)

im such a bad boy today that i dont deserved to receive any present from Santa this yr.. what did i do? i drive to my deployment and caused Blacky to vomit twice.. this shows that my driving is reckless and aggressive.. or is it Blacky suffer from car sickness..

Blacky: "Grrr...!!"
Me: "NO!!" *stop growling at me..*
Blacky: "..........."

today had a talk with my mdm at her office.. requesting to go back to HQ.. she ask me for a reason which i cant find or either that is she feel that my reason is not strong enough.. she ask me to stay until next feb before she could allow me to go back to HQ.. provided that HQ still wants me and there is a vacancy.. hmm.. sounds very slim hor.. nvm.. still got DY..

seriously, if HQ does want me in the first place, why my mdm is fighting for me to stay at CSB? is it because she know that my heart lies in HQ? hmm..

tomorrow i will get to hear what my DY have to say to me..

Life in K-9 (58)

guys, i really need your help this time.. i in a fix.. today just gone back to HQ for the first time for inservice since transfer to Changi Sub Base.. yesterday i did come back as well, to exchange of vehicles, and dont ever try to drive from Choa Chu Kang to Changi and from Changi to Choa Chu Kang, it is very tiring..

pls give your honest opinion about where should i stay.. too many people saw me today and ask, "so, when you coming back?"
my reply to all, "i donno.." my mind was also saying, "why ask me? you all should be asking the management.." i know now HQ is short of manpower.. CSB also short of manpower.. then what you all want me to do? Cut me into 3 pieces meh.. one in HQ team A.. one in HQ team D.. one in CSB team D.. and besides that after i gone to CSB, now everyone in HQ ask me this qn.. im not that important lah.. life still carry on without me lah.. without me, you all also wont die.. still have to carry on with deployment..

HQ: high-ranking officers gives unneccessary stress.. portsdown is the only hell that i been through.. other places like QRP and CSB prison like Kaki Bukit Centre and Selarang Park is nothing, compared to Portsdown..

CSB: lack of training facilities for both handler and dog.. after deployment, can go and rest and dont have the determination to go and exercise..

both places got its good and bad.. not one place that ive been to is so-call perfect.. so can someone pls give me an answer/advice/suggestion? both places i have been and work before.. so what i given to you is those bad points.. i dont want to give any good points away as CSB doesnt want to have anything to do with HQ..

the deadline is on the 5th of dec.. although i have given my word that i would stay in CSB in an earlier post.. but from that period of time to this current post, something have happen to me in CSB.. is just that someone doesnt want me to have a new start in CSB, been constantly reminded of what i have did in HQ and doesnt really know what i have gone through in HQ.. he simply jumped to conclusions too easily and he only heard a one-sided story from HQ and not from me to make it a whole story.. what i been through in HQ is multiply by 10 fold.. and so to CSB, is already nothing new to me.. this guy, who have not experienced of HQ life, will find life difficult going for him if he use army tactics..

and another thing was, Blacky need training.. only place i could train is in HQ.. and the dog assessment and trial will come in march next yr..

so pls read the whole post very carefully, and give me the opinion/advice/suggestion in the tagboard before 5th of dec.. that where i will call my mdm in CSB and also DY-CO in HQ about the final destination..

Critic blogger

i think i no need to tell you about why i decided to be a critic for the celebrity blogger..

http://xiaxue.blogspot.com/2005/11/harrys-goblet-and-pot-of-fire.html

people have spoken about how the movie is and shouldnt give a high expectations and also shouldnt follow the book..

i know that we as a critic cant change the way she blog.. but she have done it as if the whole blogging world is to herself.. the theory is the same as to the new dish and food that wanted to try out but yet people say, "it sucks!!"

Randomness (40)

just back from bugis.. went window shopping with my buddies.. it's been a long time since i give my opinions on the clothing that they wanted to buy.. or vice versa..

i think i could be a critic for this celebrity blogger.. is just a matter of time.. details will be reveal later.. tired..

and pls, for the sake of those wanted to try a new dish, meal, food that is on offer or limited time only.. dont give comments.. you dont like then dont like.. dont say sucks and make me thinking, "if really not nice, what for they make the effort to make the new dish to let us try.." different people got different taste, some might like it, some might not.. everytime hear it, i will be very reluctant to try it out.. and everytime the result i taste the food is different.. either is nice or not nice.. at least hearing not nice gives you the urge wanting to try the new food even more..

Randomness (39)

woohoo.. saw chio bu when deployed at selarang park DRC.. not ordinary chio bu.. but girls who committed minor offences from girls home.. they and those boys from boys home came to the prison for an excursion.. i donno what is their visit here for.. i just take my dog and off to my designated area..

i had the most irritating people just now while watching movie, Harry Potter and the Goblet of Fire.. why i say irritating? that easy, because those people just stand up and walk up and down along the aisle just to go to the toilet.. i cant even have the peace to see the whole show without any people moving around.. not only that, there are some people who are late for the show, have to obstruct our view while checking whether they are getting the right seats.. argh.. the movie atmosphere is ruined by those people..

seriously, i cant understand why some people's blog got so much attention that they are literally falling into critics trap.. i dont wish to say who is it but from the initials (XX) you will know.. critics have been constantly cast an eye at her blog.. no doubt that she is a celebrity for blogging.. but the way she is handling now is a problem.. she laugh at what the critics say.. she think that the critics are childish.. she dont wish to talk about it and yet she blog about it in a long post.. i can understand other people's blog been shoved into the limelight out of a sudden through newspaper.. some cant take it, some can take it.. and i have utmost respect for them.. notice the difference here.. whatever critics throw at them, they just keep quiet.. but as for XX's blog, she throw back what critics have throw and causes critics to throw even more at her..

XX's popularity isnt that hot as in 2 yrs ago.. her posts are not that interesting anymore.. im not a critic for her..

Life in K-9 (57)

the question came inevitable this morning.. "do you want to stay in CSB..?"

i hesitated for awhile before adding, "erm, i think i stay in CSB.." i know, i wanted to go back to HQ initially.. but in my mind, i have a thousand and one reason to give.. the environment is really sucks.. you got to face those unreasonable officers.. doing 12hrs portsdown.. dont wish to see someone.. the list goes on.. but ultimately, life in CSB is a new start for me.. no stress.. no need to see those officers' face..

i donno whether those officers will play another trick on me again.. asking me to return after a 3 month stint at there..

Life in K-9 (56)

call my friend in SOC who happen to be a physical trainer and help me to check my IPPT results again.. i told my supervisor and friends about my result but fail, they all got shocked.. hopefully it is a mistake.. but it was not to be.. just receive a call from him that i have to retake all over again.. argh.. nvm.. just take it as a one off exercise..

and another thing will like to add is i finally got my police driving permit (PDP).. and got a taste of sending deployment as a driver.. haha.. Blacky, you dont have a choice now.. *Blacky glups*

think i need to take a pic of Blacky in case anything happen.. an obituary pic.. lol.. nah.. will take some pic with my best partner in crime for the last half a yr and post the best in Friendster.. i think i fallen in love with Blacky.. his eyes.. his look as a wolf.. his black muscular body..im so used to those prison warden say, "wah..like wolf.. so black, at night cannot see.." the way he falls when going up on vehicle is so clumsy that you say, "orh-bi good.." he also wont scold back to you.. Blacky is so well loved in this unit that everyone want to play with him and shake hands with him.. feel so jealous.. "Paws? Blacky.."

one thing i find it interesting to share that Blacky is scared of insects.. either he will hide behind me when the insect is infront of me or he will look as if the insect is new to this world when he is lying down..

Life in K-9 (55)

hai.. pass all my station in IPPT but still fail.. why.. because the min passing rate is 18 points while i got 16.. sigh.. and i have to do it all over again..

pull up - i did 6.. so is 2 pts
sit up - 45.. 5 pts
standing board jump - 232.. 3 points
shuttle run - 9.8 sec.. 5 points
2.4km run -12.35 - 1 points..

either i do more pull up to gain more points.. or i run faster a bit in my 2.4km run.. haha..

Randomness (38)

argh, i miss the match of the season due to shift work.. but im damn happy to see my favourite team beat Chelsea 1-0.. i will be watching the repeat telecast though.. hopefully they have turn the corner and go on a winning run..

Life in K-9 (54)

seriously, i cant believe what the management is doing.. wheeling and shifting personnel here and there as if it is like a playground.. send someone back to sembawang DRC.. send me to changi.. regulars asking to post to changi or even transfer out..

i think i will make a final decision about whether to stay at CSB until i ord or coming back to HQ after my IPPT.. Of all the stations i fear most, chin-up is a big headache.. if i could just nick a pass, i will stay at CSB.. if i fail, then i have to see what my ops officer have to say when i laid all my aces down with a telephone call to him..

why have to wait until IPPT? for now, my main worry is only IPPT.. once i clear it, i will have a crystal clear idea where i will be..

the politics is too much to bear.. do we SC really have to keep our mouth shut and just serve for them.. i admired my former team colleague who did that to them and he is still attached to HQ..

my IPPT is just five days away.. at the moment, i can only do 3 chin up.. and i have to do another 3 in order to pass..

Life in K-9 (53)

now i know why those who been to CSB called this place a heaven.. no doubt about it.. no stress.. no eyes watching what you doing even when you are in locker.. now i donno whether i should go back to HQ or stay at CSB.. both places want me.. not that im trying to be proud, but my humble reply is, "i have no power to say where i want to go or stay.. is the management.. even i try to stay in HQ also no use.. if they give me a choice, i will like to stay now, not because i starting to like this place, but is because of one person that i dont want to see, and that is my former TL..if after 3 months, they want me back to HQ, i also cant argue back.."

the people seem to trust me alot.. even understudy for selarang park just need one shift, after that you are on your own.. the foot patrol at there is legendary.. i finish it in about 15 mins.. is like tracking with your dog on a path to find criminals..fast pace..

Confused decisions

woohoo.. some one is angry that his ideal partner is been snatched by other guys.. this guy in the first place, shouldnt be angry with those guys who are trying to woo her.. he should be angry is his gf.. if her heart is faithful, she will stay with her bf no matter how hard the trial is or how long the trial is.. no prizes for guessing who this girl is, she is none other than my ex-friend..

even when i meet her for the first time and the last time at her birthday celebration.. she say that she will patch up with this current bf.. i was like, "huh.. just because some guys like her, she have to break up with her bf.. and after the situation settled in her own way, she patch back.."

so can anyone feel my anger back then.. thank you.. the anger no longer exists, the wound is slowing healing.. all thanks to God.. for taking away this bad feeling by giving me love, care and concern by my friends, colleague and family..

Life in K-9 (52)

first tour in selarang park DRC was in a workshop where those inmates are pouring cement to make into a brick.. and i have to be there due to a fighting case earlier in the day.. luckily there is a shelter for us or else i will faint to the hot and humid weather.. i was dehydrated.. even one water bottle also not enough.. after that, went to the dog hut and rest there.. because of dehydration, i feel sick and endure till the end.. the best thing was that i have yet to went for the prowling that last 1 hr due to raining.. so you could imagine the distance and the area of selarang park..

last sat i saw jamie teo while playing pool with my friends.. and also saw my squad mate when my duty at selarang park finishes.. he was downgrade to VC due to AWOL.. he have to serve extra in NS, the day he went AWOL till the day he finish his course in VC.. we going to ORD soon, he still serving ns in vc uniform..

Life in K-9 (51)

life begins in changi now.. ulu.. and have to wait for a bus is like waiting for money to drop from the sky..

some very weird rules in changi sub base..
- one week must work at least 44 hrs.. more than that considered EHO.. if this rule is implemented in HQ, i donno got how many hours to claim..

-go to prison must wear beret and salute the duty officers.. i dont see myself doing this in portsdown or qrp.. only applied to selarang park..

the price of taking transport from my home to changi sub base is more than what the price i took to yew tee..

HQ: take bus and a direct train to yew tee..
CSB: take bus to kallang and board the train to tanah merah before taking bus to sub base..

is this justified to go back to HQ now.. wahaha..

oh, about how k-9 work ah.. lol.. well, when you see k-9 HQ exterior (buildings, field, kennel, training room, briefing room), it can consider the best.. manpower wise, let just say that those senior ranking officers only think for themselves, but never really give a consideration about the way we work, lack of manpower, and just because some dog teams began with the word EDD or GPGD doesnt mean that they can neglect secondary duties like base guard.. they only think of attending emergency cases.. since in HQ the time is so free, why cant help out in base guard, instead go and take a rest in the lounge.. so much of free time that k-9 is receiving complaint letters or petition letters..

you know what, my team in HQ have only one SD personnel left.. talk about someone replacing me.. lol.. yah.. a new GPGD personnel taking over.. but his main roles as a GPGD is not used at all till this team get another SD..

they even dare to say this, "once we clear THESE shit for this 3 months, things will then start to improve.."

so that means during this 3 months, everything will go haywire lah.. and im foreseeing it.. who ask them not to clear the shit that lies there for donno how many donkey years..

during these 3 months, i will blog about the life in changi sub base so as to let HQ personnel read about it..

Life in K-9 (50)

i never expect this kind of news coming to my way.. someone who is close to me, will backstab me.. here is how the incident unfold..

upon hearing that i will be posted to CSB temporaily, the second in command of ops officer told me, "even if you were to come back to HQ, you wont get to work with your team again.. the team doesnt want you.." this direct way of saying it to me was a hit to my heart.. and i began to wonder who was the one that doesnt want me in his team.. i narrowed down to 2 guys.. one from GP who is overall in charge of GP and SD.. and the other one was the team leader.. both give different opinion about me.. i even pleaded with the team leader to help me stay in the team.. but he help also dont want to help, go one big round saying that, "he can take over CO so as to let me stay in his team.." at first i thought he was joking with me but when i receive word that he was the one that transfer me out.. i feel that he was scarstic in the way he was telling me.. "yah, im the one who ask to transfer you out.. i cant stand your stubborness.." a stab at the back and the trust is no more there.. the talking term is no more there.. even as he tried to tell me something this morning, i turn a deaf ear..

there are many reasons as to why i get to transfer out..
1) due to my stubborness
2) due to my cousin who worked in dog unit before
3) due to another handler whose dog bit a prison warden
4) due to my conversion
5) due to my distance to Changi is nearer
6) due to lack of man-power in CSB
7) due to other factors which was not told to me

any one or everyone could be the reason.. i will blog another time about the way k-9 works..

Life in K-9 (49)

today, i literally prepared for all kind of news coming to my way..bad, good, i take it in all my stride..

news 01 - i will be transfer to changi sub base this coming shift.. damn fast.. but i will be at there for 3 months before coming back to HQ..

news 02 - guess which team i will get to go to after i come back from changi stint? team A- the team that is famous for the high rate of mc.. i send a warning now, dont play mc if not, all will suffer.. i cant believe that a female staff sgt will want me in her team.. i dont want to blog what she told me.. is damn gross..

news 03 - 1 week never do prison duties due to conversion is a refreshing feeling.. neither do i feel bored, sian or whatsoever..

news 04 - same as news 03.. blacky didnt get to drive around for that duration of time, hence he vomitted along the way to portsdown.. oh well, need to bring him out more now..

at first i was quite sceptical about my most senior ops officer told me that i will be going to csb temporaily.. i cant trust his words at all as i fall into his trap the first time round where i request to take NDD.. he ask me to send an email through my TL help and then he send me for SD training.. once bitten twice shy.. i ask my dy-co and another ops officer.. they both assure me that i will be back once the new SD training team passed out and posted to CSB.. if not, im in for a ride once again..

the most senior ops officer have a new nickname.. and he is called, "mr unreliable singh"..trust me, the experience of fooling around by him is not a nice feeling..

Life in K-9 (48)

conversion course finish and my posting to CSB is like inevitable.. i praying for a miracle..

yah.. i know that i complains alot, talks alot or even make some unnecessary remarks.. in the course of work, we get to face some people who makes our life difficult.. but what im doing is just to relieve stress and not just keep inside my heart.. i still doing my duty as usual.. heck, whatever problem we face, we just speak to our supervisors or the people around us or even friends.. but people seem to think that im overdoing it.. hah.. whatever.. the damage already been done before i came into this unit.. the relation between k-9 and prison will never patch even if both were from the same ministry.. dont wish to blog about this topic anymore, tired is the only word i can describle to all these incident..

on a personal note, i find that most of my dreams are becoming reality.. this is what i notice as if i have been to this place, see this person before or did this action..

take for instance, the girl that my friend want to know.. i thought it was my old friend because they both look alike.. but when i saw the girl again, i was like, "where did i see this girl before?!?"

even for my conversion, i never been to fourth ave before.. but when i went there, again i was like, "eh, this place i got go before leh.." sort of thing..

at this rate, what i dream in becoming reality is coming too fast.. there are some dreams i can remember but im hoping it will not realise, because it will bring back painful memories that i dont want to go through again.. there are some people i really dont wish to see again.. even if it really happen, i dont wish to go through what i saw in my dreams.. but i know that is just defying against own will..

Life in K-9 (47)

two days of driving doesnt really make a story.. just that the weather doesnt really let us learn what we wanted to learn.. what we intend to learn is cornering.. lol..

tomorrow is the last day and we will be driving the land rover off road with different gear conditions.. i dont even know that driving in different gear condition in a terrain will make a difference too.. haha..

Life in K-9 (46)

sorry guys.. as you all know, first day was the assessment.. and i passed.. P-A-S-S-E-D!!! nope, im not happy about it.. 5 guys.. 2 from dog unit and the rest from PCG.. 1 of the PCG guys have to be sent back as he drive and dash across the red-light.. immediate failure.. and he was trying for the 2nd time.. pity him..

i just cant fail on purpose or have the intention to do that.. i really cant do that.. i donno why.. maybe the strict briefing at the start drilled into my head.. the course is tougher than any other driving school as in we have to drive within the limit.. mini-van speed limit is 60 km/h means 60 km/h.. we cant overtake to the centre lane or right lane.. i nearly fall asleep on the way back, but i was not the one driving back.. saloon car is according to the road speed condition..

we have 2 groups with 2 instructor.. one group was PCG and the other was PDU(dog unit).. our instructor is a gurkha.. funny chap with lots of lame jokes.. we are call the SIA.. either we are Speeding In Action or Silent In Action.. the other group was a SI, they say that he was quite strict with them on the road..

after briefing, we have to check the car before driving.. and we drive up to woodlands and have our lunch.. then drive back to the school for break.. after that, we have a lecture on car control.. following that, we drive the mini-van to tuas and have tea-break before heading back again..

Life in K-9 (45)

right!! road hog at the extreme right lane.. drive over the speed limit.. speeding on the left lane.. no signal.. never give way to pedestrians.. worst, knock down pedestrians and drive off.. give the instructor the worst ride ever in his entire life..

as far as i and the other dog handler is concerned, we have no intention of changing places.. we were from the same training team, and i know of his dog pretty much well.. if we get to change, the routine is changed totally, new environment, everything is new.. we also have the same thinking that the distance is not the problem, and that we already used to the environment that we are working at..

Life in K-9 (44)

did i hear wrongly or what.. after my conversion, i have to go to changi sub-base.. seriously, i cant find any logical reason behind it.. i get to hear that one of the dog at there bit the prison warden hand.. this handler have to hand over the dog and take a new one.. further more, he will be transfer back to HQ..

120th intake is here.. new sc are here.. the most is wait for 3 months before there will be people deploy at changi.. what for ask me go there and come back again.. isnt that abit disruptive to the way team is operating.. if anyone is ord, there is at least the replacement to make the transition a smooth one.. but i have to go there because i have a police driving permit and someone dog bit a human hand.. heck, then i rather forego the conversion and stay in HQ.. although i have to go for the course, i can fail it..

Buddies for life

the experience of giving up something willingly in exchange for another which value is much more higher, is beyond this world. Thanks God for giving me this valuable gift in exchange for something which i really dont wish to give up hope on but i have to do it willingly, will i get to see the wonderful feeling.

and also have to thank my buddies whom we share a 9 yr bond.. nothing is able to come between us.. we always have a healthy banter, after that we had a good laugh at it.. movies, play pool, having buffet during lunch, dinner and even supper time.. watch soccer together at CHIJMES and the best part was knowing gals.. cassanova or playboys, they are the ones whom i can related open-minded, with nothing to hide or any secrets to keep..

Life in K-9 (43)

alright man! i'm now famous for the "free food no more" at portsdown.. come on man, since when did i insist on having the food.. Insist as in not heeding the words of the staff and put the food into my mouth or what.. the way the staff tell me off scarstically, i do back the same to him by walking off and putting down the fork and spoon scarstically.. i rather faint than to take the food.. see which responsibility bears the heaviest..

some staff in portsdown may have change their attitude towards me since this incident.. but im glad to say this.. this should be the attitude.. we are providing a service for this prison yet no welfare, no benefits, and on the other hand, have to kana by those staff who determined to eat us.. as long as we are doing our job without interfering the staff, why do we have to be eaten by them.. many people might see that what i did is only to stand up for myself.. in this case, i have to say no.. im helping the other dog handlers as well.. just because the staff at there have a bad day in the office, doesnt mean that we have to go through the same as them.. why not have a change of roles.. i be the staff at prison and the staff be the dog handler for just 6 hrs.. no more no less..

and there are some groups of people will say have your meal outside before going to work lah.. yup, we did that, but after 5-6 hrs, you will going hungry again what.. somemore night shift is 12-13 hrs without food.. you think our stomach wont call for food by growling..

when my most senior ops officer got to hear what i did, i have to defend myself by saying that we are providing them a service but no welfare, this quote was also agree by my colleagues.. guess what he say.. "no, your thinking is wrong.. you are serving for the nation, to secure safety and peace for the public.." this sentence is indirectly telling me that if i faint and die, i will died of a honourable cause.. kns..

this show that k-9 are inviting people to bully them without resistance..HQ staff have requested to leave either to sub-bases or other division when we need people at the moment.. it just give us a bigger headache in searching of more people to enter k-9.. there wont be a doubt if complain letters start coming in..

i can blog about this till the cow comes home.. all the problems that we face during our deployment, be it in HQ, checkpoints, ferry terminals, airport, prisons.. are those senior officers who created them..not even some respect is given.. just literally spit some salivia on to us..

Friends again?

huh.. what the hell.. someone want to be friends with me.. no, is not a stranger but is someone whom i have sever ties for like 7 yrs.. hmm..

i saw his whole profile despite not connected to him in any other way..

"1st things! I treasure my frens ALOT. SO im willing to do
almost anything for frens dat are worth it.. I wont
tolerate any form of betrayal.Step on my tail and i make u
pay for it.. Im the sort who gives alot and hope my frens
reciprocate but if they don't den they are definately a
waste of time and effort.. Along the way i've also realised
frens are not FOREVER? and ya i belive Genuine ones will
stick by me and sucky ones can juz disappear for all i
care..."

do i worth as a friend to him in the first place? didnt i was the sucky friend that disappear for 7 yrs? although i dont have any grudges against him, but this request do need some consideration..

Life in K-9 (42)

im very tired, very sian and sick of coming to work.. 2 security dog handlers is not enough in a team.. either portsdown 1st shift or 2nd shift, rotate till a new dog handler comes in.. the breathing space is getting tighter and tighter.. is like just work and work, no fun, no training, no rest, no morale support from team colleague..

there are 2 new dog handlers posted to HQ.. but 1 of them, i feel they put him in the wrong team.. or 2? i donno.. 1 team is play mc till "other-team-know-who-is-going-to-take-mc-the-next-tour" of mentality.. another team, well, short of manpower, got 1 going to ord, so they post him in this team.. hey, how about our team? so-call the most hardworking team, the most stressed team to be in, the lowest rate mc in the team(really??).. if one of our team colleague never opt for base guard just so that he can be contacted(lame excuse) or another one who have leg injury, went for surgery and have a long term mc.. since i came in 4 months ago, i yet to see him reporting for duty..

we (me and my colleague) have to endure for another 3-4 months before someone comes in.. i think my colleague can prepared for his ord liao.. one comes one go where is the replacement..

my ops officer say correctly.. HQ team need at least 20 dog handlers.. but everyone will say, "where to find so many people? space so limited, kennel not enough.."

one thing im very sure of is, if my colleague is not around either on course or report sick.. let just say that i dont want to go through 12 hr of "worse than inmates kind of treatment"

portsdown personnel, minority of them treat us machiam like dogs.. no more food given to us, we have to buy coupons..they rather let the food go into waste or feed the cat.. not even a minimum of welfare is given, big fat mosquitoes is spotted due to their feast on those dog handlers who deployed at there.. hot and humid weather.. limited movement.. officers whose job is only know how to eat up those dog handlers.. discriminate us and treat those CISCO officers better.. prison and police are under the same roof yet CISCO getting the better treatment from them..

what i want is someone to hear our complains, our ill-treatment at there and provide us a win-win solution for the benefit of the prison and dog unit.. i donno why the mentality of those officers only know how to eat us, yet doesnt even have a clue we are suffering mentally.. what i say is no use, just fart and you will feel better.. these complains will still be around after i ord.. the prison will close down in 2012 or only the illegal immigrants will stop coming to singapore then the prison will close, whichever is earlier.. anyone want to bet the day illegal immigrant never come to singapore.. hopefully this someone will know our predicement, close the prison once and for all.. till this day comes, i feeling hard done down here..

people can understand the situation what we went through, but what i want is not just those advice like, "aiya, forget it, serve and go off liao" but rather, "ok, action will be taken against this officer.." lol.. dream on.. i think i need to go somewhere and really shout out loud to empty those negative feelings.. ive been bottling it up since i started as a security dog handler..

Life in K-9 (41)

only one person will know what i want to blog today.. this morning went for duty and bring out blacky to go to portsdown.. before leaving the base, i groom him and spotted something.. a big lump with blood drying up.. the wound is very fresh.. so i call upon the kennel hand and ask, "is this enzyme?"

the answer was, "not so sure.." but i was not convinced and ask the second opinion.. the second answer was, "yup, is enzyme..cut the fur, apply idoine and the powder can liao.." i starting to get worry liao..but i donno why, i seek the third opinion.. no answer given.. if it is really enzyme, the para-vet sure turn me upside down and poke my ass.. 6 hrs of agonising wait while on duty is no joke.. so i quickly came back after duty and ask my colleague.. his answer lifted my mood.. it was a lump.. like pimples.. he help me to squeeze out the white substance and the blood until it dries up.. after that i apply alcohol, idoine and the powder.. i have to do it everyday until it heal.. blacky, drink more water.. or else you will have more popping up from your body and you will look like a polka dog..

i think im caught on camera while buying my dinner at novena square on the way back home.. i saw chew chor meng hosting the show, "where is singapore?" with ezann lee.. wow.. beauty sia..

after that, been approached by a prudential advisor about some savings plan.. was quite interested but abit hard to commit due to some cash flow problems at the moment.. in the end, i didnt reject but once the cash flow have eased, i will sign up for that plan..

Renting car

i feel my anger in this ex-friend is justified afterall.. get to hear some stuff from my friend when we attend our friend's wedding.. PCG at kallang base will move to brani base in november..

yesterday went to rent a car as the family car is needed by my uncle.. first time renting, was quite disappointed in the condition of the car.. i got a car where the battery is weak.. i experience a dead car when we are going back home after all those fun playing pool.. lucky got some helpful gentlemen to help us kickstart the car.. in the future, will rent from the company if possible and as and when i need it.. price reasonable, age limit in renting the car is the lowest i seen in other companies..but not this type of car..

Life in K-9 (40)

i told one of my colleague about my past problem.. can you imagine the horror when he told me to talk to this ex-friend? hell no, man.. that was 6 months ago..the problem never solve, created a molehill into a mountain, no communication, nothing.. i rather let it there and left my anger intact in this matter.. than to talk things out.. it must be the weirdest advice i ever receive..

come on, the anger is still there.. breaking of friendship without saying out anything is the most coward thing to do..

the dinner was so-so only.. 8 dishes of food doesnt really make the stomach goes bloated in an hr..

Life in K-9 (39)

my off days are all taken up.. sigh.. tonight is k-9's dinner at SPANS.. and tomorrow is my in-service.. and have to take Blacky out for a swim.. ahem, i dont want to do the extra job of bringing Blacky back to bathe him after the swim.. hopefully, i will not get to bring Blacky out..

now, i dont want to say anything, or complain anything liao.. feel like cursing some swear words in here.. get to say something about what they say that they will do portsdown, and they aim me.. now, never say anything, also kana aim.. i make this line very clear from now onwards, whatever duties that you assign to me, i just do it without complain.. just my luck that i get to see the true colours of 2 "act hardworking" colleagues.. the meaning of having fun during work is not there anymore and i find it very hard to trust what they say now..

my conversion course is on 11-14 oct.. i dont get to go with the other SC..as the other SC will be taking an earlier date.. donno who is also attending this course at this date from my unit..

i browse through some profiles and pics in friendster.. i get to see Kelvin Tan from PCG is still there.. erm, with this ex-friend of mine and some guys as well.. definitely a team photo.. hmm.. guess he signed on.. the last time i saw him in PCG was during my npcc days.. going on an excursion to PCG and get to ride one of the boats.. he was my secondary school friend.. the world is so small that they are in the same team.. oh well..

Life in K-9 (38)

i feel that whoever passed out from the security dog training and posted to HQ, should do a 12 hr portsdown.. so that he's able to think of something to do during this period of time, and also not to take time for granted.. some may differ from my views as is just, "sit down stay!!" kind of routine.. people might think, why work so hard?

my answer will be, im not the sort of person who sit down and do nothing and let time rot my life away.. i cant do that though i did try.. maybe that my mentality.. i need to do something in order to pass time.. same goes to baseguard.. im not complaining but i have accepted how k-9 HQ and been deployed to prison works.. hence my stand in not signing on earlier in the yr..

after doing 12 hrs of portsdown, once change to a 6 hr, the time pass even faster..

Life in K-9 (37)

i never thought i will get to do 12 hrs portsdown.. but it has to be.. and i join the list of people who did it and leave their sweat on it.. my sweat is on it now.. overall i can say is a priceless experience.. time flew very fast.. i thought i got to stay at the gate for the whole day, but how wrong i am.. i get to stay at dog hut most of the time.. i was thinking quite negatively along the way to portsdown as i was trying to think of how to pass the time faster.. just by staying at dog hut is the best option.. get to sms people, call people without prison officers finding out..

hopefully this is the last time i do a 12 hrs portsdown in the day time.. i donno how to explain it but is not worth it though it is priceless..

lol.. my friend who get to know a gal is labelled as a casanova!!! targeting those aged smaller than him...wahahha..

hai.. donno whether should say this or not.. although i have yet to enter a relationship.. i never feel tired, be it physically or mentally, in pursuing the targets.. irony, the only target i ever feel tired is the ex-friend of mine.. all but she lasted more than 1 yr.. when i told this to my friend, he say that if you experience problems persist in the relationship and feel tired.. there is a need to examine what went wrong.. even if you have goes through a long term relationship and out of sudden, you feel tired.. time to take a step back and look.. and i find it very true according to what he says..

Randomness (37)

i never knew my thinking was coincides with the Singapore Sports Council where they are going to introduce computer gaming as a sport.. this is in today's news.. and further more, i ask some of my working colleagues whether they are interested in my proposal.. and they say anything.. lol.. good good.. but this so-call clan at the moment will only take effect after we ord.. what we able to do now is meet up and slowly play and gel as a team.. yah yah.. now im really thinking quite far already..haha..

today, my friend wanted to know a gal through my help.. well.. get to know her in the end, she's 17 and got tattoo.. she look quite alike to one of my female friends.. hmm.. seperate at birth??

Randomness (36)

boring sunday!! really cant find anything to do.. is been a long time since i sweat out.. but my body just dont let me do it.. hai.. tomorrow have to do it no matter what..

i have a very wildest thought.. to all colleagues who like playing CS, wonder if we could form a clan out of it.. wahaha.. what should we name for the clan?? K-9.. Police.. Dogs.. PDU.. or ORD?? i have the intention to resurrect my playing skills in this game again.. is been a long time since i played this game..i know i know, this game now is only based on those hard-core players who have a clan and a base to support with..those leisure players are gone.. just a thought that all..

Life in K-9 (36)

i was at orchard area this afternoon..lol.. but didnt get to see the commotion at the orchard mrt.. at the time where the guresome find, i was at cineleisure watching movie..

my TL have put up the papers for the conversion..

i dont think anyone will believe this.. have you ever see a dog catch a mouse.. although i never get to see it, but there are photos which convince me that the dog have taken over the cat job.. pls, is not Blacky.. even the sight of coachroaches scared the wits out of him..

hai.. k-9 is a place where you can really let your imagination runs wild.. we have so much time to spare that back-stabbing, gossips, politics are the only things to do.. poor man-management, even those who are holding leadership qualities are questionable.. i dont want to interfere anymore.. what i say now has happened in the past, they dont take the effort to correct the problem afterall.. k-9 is overall a family.. a dsyfunctional family.. some even urge me to sign on in k-9.. i get to see all these, think i will sign on?!?! if i sign on, im nothing but a puppet whose moves are controlled...

Red bomb

RED BOMB COMING!! i never thought i will get this so early in my life.. my secondary school gal friend is getting married this month end.. she is the first i should say..

time flew very fast since we left school and goes our separate ways 5 yrs ago.. it seem like yesterday that we left school..

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i couldnt give a damn about it that i say directly at someone.. im not afraid to speak out as long as i made my feelings known.. people might think that, "hey, this skinny fella, think i can eat him.." well.. think again..

im also not a person that say sorry or apologise that easily.. so what if my blog contains some so-call over-sensitive issues or some unfounded issues.. im not so much about pride or principle person.. but rather, i let my mind to tell me whether what i did is wrong or right.. in short, my conscience.. if i feel that i have overdid it, fine enough, i apologise..

saying of sorry makes me think back of the past.. well, to cut the story short.. a few months back, get to know this gal.. after that confess to her, everything went downhill since then.. thereafter, she say that i was over-sensitive and break friendship over a comment that i make (entry made on feb 07, 2005).. i have to say sorry about that and i dont even feel guilty commenting that.. kao.. friendship patch after that, and then let her know my blog.. i dont find it a mistake to give it to her after all.. she find fault in the past issue where we settle long ago..is like back to square one.. break friendship again.. i dont fight for it after that..

i also dont care even if my remarks is scarstic or unknowingly hurt people sub-conscious..some people make their comments bluntly to me.. if they can take it, i too can make some blunt comments either.. how people treat me as a friend or whatsoever, i will treat back the same treatment they treat me.. if the value of friendship is not there, what for i fight to increase the value of it..

heard that my dog assessment came in 7th.. to tell you frankly, i dont deserve this placing.. i had to do the revaluation all over again just to please those who voice out for me.. and my performance that day is really sluggish.. imagine hearing those unpleasant stories before the revaluation.. will you have the mood to do it again..

People that i disliked

i hate two types of people.. one is putting words into my mouth where i didnt say it at all.. and another one is say something but didnt meant it.. yet i have a colleague who did both to me..

damn pissed off upon hearing what he did.. dont even have the morale to go to work anymore..

Life in K-9 (35)

i requested to my TL whether i could go for conversion.. lol.. he talk to the driver pool in charge and agree to let me go.. except that he have yet to put up papers.. i shall wait for the day to come..

imagine im driving with Blacky on board..corner here.. corner there..i make sure he will get the hell of the ride.. make sure that he ride until vomit out everything.. until he waves a white flag to surrender.. until he no longer get car-sickness.. wahaha.. kua zhang..

the photo below was taken one yr back.. and im experimenting my blog site with the addition of photo..

Church Wedding

One of my brethen's wedding in the church!!

Life in K-9 (34)

damn it.. i got to do the revaluation all over again just for the sake of pleasing those people who voice it out for me.. the result is still the same, abit better that all..

hmm, money seem to have the power to unlock those ambitions that we want to do in our mind.. fame, success, power.. just to name these where all aiming to have.. im not an exception either..

money, well, make the world goes round.. but on the other hand, money is the root of all evils..

Life in K-9 (33)

i made an enquiry regarding about yesterday's assessment.. i find it very unfair that other HQ teams get to assess the dog handlers at base while our team have to be assessed at choa chu kang cemetary..

hence i have to meet the chief trainer this tues..

i not really particular about entering the annual dog trial but the place to assess should be at the same place.. not one at choa chu kang cemetary.. the others at HQ..

i thought about it after the assessment.. and this came to my mind when i was outside.. lol.. and ask my team colleagues to enquire for me..

i think in term of fairness, no one can really win me.. even the problem where EDD personnel resting where they should helping out in the base guard.. after i voice it out to the TL, the EDD personnel now have 2 in base guard..

Life in K-9 (32)

today i have my dog handling assessment.. boy, wish i could have more surprises install for me..

firstly, the weather.. fine, cloudy, windy and no sun.. "out of sight" full marks..

secondly, off leash heeling work.. Blacky didnt lag behind me.. instead he was beside me all the time.. another bonus..

but here come the disappointment..

distance control.. before i could give any command, Blacky did it already.. so i have to do it more than twice..

sent away.. as expected, Blacky did go away upon hearing the command, but not even to the half way mark..

others like on-leashing heeling and baiting.. all turn out to be okay..

passed can already.. was kind of pressurised by CSO Tiger.. because he expect me to be in the Top 5.. but well, it was not meant to be.. well, as long i did my best and pass can liao..

Life in K-9 (31)

i was not very comfortable with the sight of my rank along my shoulders.. lol.. some people promoted already.. arms spread big big as if they walk must have winds.. i still need to get used to it..

today is the first time Blacky didnt vomit in one of the longest trip.. not in distance but the time that we are travelling in the car.. hmm.. can i push him for patrol now.. lol.. will give him some treats..

tomorrow die die must do "send away" at portsdown's dog hut.. even if to the extent of waking the inmates up, i still have to do it.. i could imagine SI Chee reaction if he sees Blacky looking at me blur blur instead of going away upon hearing the command..

exactly 1 week to go for the assessment.. argh.. been getting nervous or not really in the mood.. once the dog can sense the moodliness in the handler, he will go moody as well..

lol.. everybody is asking me when is my team dog assessment.. they seem more nervous than me..

i have called mcdonalds 24hr twice within a week.. food served is still hot.. great customer service..within 20 mins the food have arrived.. but customer record should have been better and not repeating everytime when i make an order..

Multi-level marketing

minci, actually i work in this line before.. the market itself is too saturated.. once your closed one know that you work in this line, they will avoid you as a plague.. but on the other hand, you now have 2 offers.. your dad's fren wife and the designer job..

this market is either you call your friends to join you or sell product to earn commission.. this is what they call multi-level marketing.. i experience it before.. not my cup of tea..

as for your relationship problem, does these 2 guys from your current workplace? if yes, perhaps they are trying to sweet talk you..

if there is anything i could help you, dont hesitated.. my msn is always on..

Randomness (34)

these 2 days, the topic seem to be this ex-friend of mine.. friends who know about this friendship, ask me how does it goes.. the answer was, "well, not friends anymore.." all were shocked but not surprised either.. hmm.. how long was that? 5 months ago..

this is the best kept secret.. lol.. get to know her in my training ground despite my squad mates all wanting to know her.. friendship was a low-profile.. only a selected few know about this friendship.. even when the friendship broke off, no one knows either.. and i have been keeping my anger in silence as well..

one of them even told me this, "well, she seem to be getting help from nowhere in her workplace.. some of my squadmates was disgusted that she always able to get out of those sticky situation.. since i have know her for 1 yr.. i find that she isnt that mature as i expected.."

another one say this, "just treat her as a kid lah.. or a kid that doesnt want to grow up.." this remark tickled my funny bones..lol..

i was not surprised about what he say to me.. it like been hitting the nail on the coffin..

get to know other things about her as well.. such as she change team from Charlie to Alpha.. her Alpha schedule is the same as my schedule.. she work i work.. i off she off as well..

so to those who know about this friendship but doesnt know that it didnt last, i will be happy to say this, "we are not friends anymore.."

Life in K-9 (30)

hai.. i seem to be the storage room for all the problems that my team face.. my team, to those people who know, are so-called the best team.. to let the other teams see how our team should be run.. but behind the smoke-screen, problems seem to be surfacing every now and then..

base guard.. yesterday's tour, manpower was stretched to the max.. yup, is the weekend.. we got 3 base guard, 2 regulars and 1 ns personnel.. so after i was done with my prison duty(p1)..i claim EHO and inform my DTL and team members.. but to my horror, the DTL say that if enough man, then can claim.. but i reiterated by saying that my team members say ok already.. then the DTL LL, and let me claim.. but can you imagine my look in the face when i saw EDD personnel resting after their ops.. are they not your men, DTL? cant they help out in the base guard?

well, if that the case, i might as well sign on as a regular.. why.. because regular get to rest after their ops.. while the ns personnel work for 12 hrs.. training then go for prison duty.. or after prison duty come back and do base guard..

our team is so divided.. playing a game of politics between GPGD and EDD personnel.. hence, even we SD are not spared.. we are always on our toes especially while working..

further more, our TL suggestion was so cute and funny that we felt that he has shot himself in the foot.. he say that the deployment will rotated each month so as to let those in GPGD learn..

im sick and tired of it.. even one of the member want to quit this team and join other team.. and rumors have been circulating that another member will be kick out.. hai..

Sick like a dog

yesterday doesnt seem to go right for me.. firstly, missed the first bus.. afraid of been late, took a cab to yishun before taking the train to work.. the ride in the cab was the most scary experience for me.. the driver can sleep while driving.. and occupy 2 lanes..

after that went out for training from base.. caught in the rain before heading back to do portsdown 2nd shift duty.. once i caught in the rain without bathing..i will get sick.. see how i got sick in the end..

at portsdown, got to do a riot exercise.. after the exercise, my head feel heavy and my mind seem to be spinning around me.. finish the 6 hr of duty, and head back to base..

feel better after vomitted.. and head home with the long MRT trip.. the driver of that particular train was damn playful.. like to play with the brakes.. kao.. was jerking from left to right..

lucky got out of the designated station(novena) in time, before doing a merlion.. took the bus home and had a hot shower.. before heading to bed..

overall, my whole body was reacting hot and cold towards me.. breaking out in hot sweats in an air-conditioned room.. and feel cold at the mrt platform waiting for the train to arrive..

now feeling better.. will be heading to work later..

Life in K-9 (29)

yesterday night deployment at khalsa crescent prison was the best.. lol.. got there at about 12am.. went for foot patrol around the perimeter of the prison.. and then go and sleep liao..

after that back to base in the morning.. and received news that 116th intake promotion.. oh well, got promoted to corporal.. but, at the same time, we have to wear the new uniform.. how concidence can it be..

bloggers, blogs have been in the news lately.. been hacked kind of stuff.. about how their blogs are self-centred, vain, etc.. but bloggers dont even care about the news reports.. well, they just want to get the msg across even to the extent of getting hate mails, anti-fans of the blogger.. heck, even my blog isnt spared as well.. friendship broke citing my blog as the reason.. even if she continued reading my blog despite breaking of friendship, i have one word for her.. and that is "CHILDISH!!"

from my own opinion, what we write, what we think, what we see as stated in the blog, is better to just read it and shrug it off rather than making a big hooha about it.. i dont understand why people have to make a big fuss about it.. so what if our opinion are wrong.. we get to learn from the mistakes as well..

Life in K-9 (28)

yesterday went to jurong east to patrol.. did some mini-ops with the npco.. and then activated at tampines rd.. but nothing was found.. was abit boring throughout the patrol.. nothing to see.. the only consolation was when we are been activated, we get to dash red traffic light, with blinkers on and cruising along the expressway at 100 km/h.. seeing the expression of passer-by, motorists watching the vehicle dash across was a priceless moment for me..

1 yr have passed since i was enlisted for NS.. and 1 more yr to go.. it has been a bitter sweet experience throughout this 1 yr..

Randomness (33)

man, i have the sudden craving for ice cream.. the vanilla flavoured ice cream coated with chocolate.. i ate 3 at one go..

our team dog trial is on 25 aug.. exactly one month from now.. when i heard about the procedures about it, im kind of worry about it.. because there is one i didnt get to do it.. and that is 'out of sight'.. dog is in down position and we ask them to stay, while we are out of their sight.. dog must not move or crept forward during the stipulated time..

as for 'send away', i need to give Blacky more independent.. because he is relying on my layout now rather than just hearing the command 'away' and go away from me.. i donno whether i will get to do extra like 'over' because Blacky is a dog that is train by the Senior Trainer SI Chee.. and Blacky is also his favourite dog.. hai..

Randomness (32)

The island rocks!! great storyline.. but if only the camera could be more steady and more focused.. i could have give 4/5.. but i settled for 3.5/5..

moral of this movie(spoiler): dont kill clones.. for goodness sake, they have life too, they could think, speak, eat, run like a normal human being.. so what if their knowledge of knowing who they are increases as the day goes by.. even the clone, so-called insurance policy, outwit the sponsor.. no matter how perfect you create a clone, you can never outdone God, for He has even put down in finest details such as DNA..

by the way, do you have any idea that our body, have DNA from our grandparents, our parents? dont be surprised if you happen to have the same thinking as your grandparents or did something similar as your parents.. well.. just a thought to spare.. in case you donno..

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well well.. at least you have tried and know the answer sooner than later.. if not your misery will be even worse.. when you told me everything about it, from the day you know her till now, it was 50-50.. so i just ask you to give it a shot.. well, hope you are better now knowing the answer.. and also dont lose heart that you quit midway through the so-call "hell-week".. you know your limits whereas i dont even dare to give it a try.. lol..

anyway, hope to see you soon handling your dog.. dog trial is coming.. argh.. im very scared and nervous.. Blacky is perfect in everything except that he dont like to do heeling work.. and i also crop out in "send away".. damn.. need to do more practices before the actual day.. hope all the other Security Dogs will not able to do.. wahahaha.. =P

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a few days back, i was taken aback while chatting with my colleague on msn.. he say this to me, "given your sensitivity, you will make a good bf..."

firstly, i will like to ask some questions to understand myself better..

- to which extent, where does sensitivity stands? or should i say where is the line drawn between sensitive and over-sensitive or even insensitive..?

- or do i have to see how high is the tolerance to the people around me? well, as for this qn, the answer could well be, "it's varies.."

secondly, i donno whether i was deem as controversial or not.. like what i say in the past, it did happen in a few days time.. i dont really want to say that im over-sensitive.. but rather, i like to observe people.. i did blog about this issue some time back.. i use mind-mapping to observe people.. take for an instance, if this particular guy did something, and what will he do next? i will explore all possible actions that he will do.. even to the finest details.. that's why im not surprised if he did something extraordinary out of the blue..

lol, maybe im kay-poh in another angle.. maybe girls who are reading this post will get turn off... im not bothered about it.. well, im one of a kind.. hehe..

Life in K-9 (27)

im very pissed off but yet very happy about last night's shift.. well.. one of my team members, NS man, reported sick and i have to cover for him as a base guard. If he had not report sick, i would have tasted the feeling of been activated during patrol.. i could have go for patrol yesterday.. argh..

text of msg: "PCG sighted a sampan heading towards singapore land. Give chase, upon reaching shore at tuas south ave 7(reclaim land), they seek J division for help, yet J division activated us.."

1 dog team not enough..call for the 2nd dog team.. area quite big.. forested area..

both of our dog teams captured 5 illegal immigrants.. credit to them and the dogs.. but i missed all the actions.. staying up the whole night at the duty office waiting for the good news..

lol, my team all want to sabo my team member who report sick.. wahaha.. ever since he came to our team, we find him to be a little too boastful.. claim to know everything in the base at the back of his hand.. but yet, always kana scolded.. he wanted to sign on as a regular, but all of us give the thumbs down as we find him not mature for the job at the moment.. maybe 3-4 yrs time..

Happy Birthday 2005

today is a special day to begin with.. it's my birthday..haha.. old liao old liao.. 22 yrs in this world.. thank you everyone for the warm wishes and greetings..

now to start off with, the london bombings.. i donno whether i should thanks the bombers or curse them.. now we have an additional ops to do.. patrol at the mrt station.. raffles place, city hall, outram park, chinatown, yishun, woodlands.. different places but all doing at the same time.. hai.. we are facing a shortage of manpower..

yesterday i got the shock of my life.. my friend gamble on soccer.. win some money and hence, over-confident comes in and play 2 matches for 150 each.. both lost.. yet he risk the wrath of losing more money by punting more money in another match.. this time 300.. and he win.. so never win.. never lose.. but what if he lost.. he have to pay 600 at one shot.. where can he find that sum of money.. until now, im still in a daze about what he had done.. i would have died of heart attack if he had lost.. better kill the habit or risk been killed..

this yr, i didnt celebrate the way i wanted.. having a buffet at Pariss International Restaurant.. but change to a more cheaper place.. the Hokkiado Hot Pot Restaurant.. not bad.. price reasonable..

i will be going out later with my friends to see movie..

Life in K-9 (26)

yesterday went to bugis.. wow.. so many people went there for the food festival.. people mountain people sea.. i have to walk crab style..

mito is in my team kennel.. that means the handler is in my team now.. hai.. those who know, will know what are the difficulties between the former handler and the present handler..

ssgt teo, service no 3120.. an officer from portsdown.. stop abusing your authority.. have a chat with most of the guys at there.. all hate you... now you have one more in the list.. and that me.. you dont deserve the rank.. only know how to carry balls.. yet on the other hand, eat up those low-ranking than you..

i was coming in for portsdown shift 2.. ever since i came in from day 1, we dont need to report to the main gate.. even if those officers ask, they ask in a welcome, friendly tone.. guess what tone he use on me? he use a scolding tone on me.. here goes the conversation:

Teo: "hello!! what is your name ah!!"
Me: "Gary"
Teo: " Can you report to the main gate first before you put your things!!"
Me: "huh?"
Teo: "Gary what!!"

i got no time to shoot back before another officer stop me and ask me to go in.. is like been scolded for no reason.. argh.. one more time he did this again.. i make sure my complain goes up to the authority.. fellow humans been treated like this.. only know how to use rank.. pls use your basic social manners.. such a disappointment..

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Sembawang DRC now ranked the last place i will go if i were to deployed there.. Portsdown is better than this DRC.. i donno how to put it, but given a choice, i rather deployed at Portsdown..

went there on the last night shift as there is no manpower.. every hour from 8pm to 1am, except 10pm, have to go for prowling and sign the book.. fair enough, i do as instructed.. the next morning, after escorting teaboys to tearoom, went to open office and wait for the morning personnel to take over duty since there is no more escort.. the kennel at there is full, only can house 6-8 dogs.. so for 1 hr(0700hrs - 0800 hrs) i leave Blacky in the air conditioned office while waiting for them to come..i cant let loose a dog at an unfamiliar enviroment.. i donno whether they are on the dot or whatever, once the clock strike at 8am sharp.. they force me to leave.. prison warden ask me to leave hurriedly because the vehicle is here.. as so i thought.. but i have to pass down any instructions to the next shift before making a leave.. haven even hand over, the warden already kpkb at the walkie talkie.. i make a quick hand over and run towards the main gate.. but to my surprise, the vehicle isnt there.. my day is ruined.. my mood is ruined as well..

there are other factors contributing as to why i ranked Sembawang DRC as last.. i only listed out the obvious ones..

for the benefit, i rank all those places that i have been deployed according to my preference;

1. Queenstown Remand Prison
2. Portsdown Centre
3. Sembawang DRC

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she is back!! she is back for holidays..!! so happy to see her..but now in different class already..

erm..right.. got to keep composed.. minci.. should i call you minci auntie or auntie minci.. lol.. i also never play IRC already.. you sound so old leh.. what generation gap...lol.. erm, anyway, dont sound as if you are so old.. just go along with the flow and you will be with the trend in no time..hehe..

QRP wardens so funny.. to those SD handlers, whenever we need to escort those inmates who help out in the admission back to the cell.. we will stop along this corridor.. the length is about 1 and 1/2 shoulder.. enough for you and your dog to walk.. so the inmates will stop infront of their cell and strip naked.. given this kind of space there is no way to bend and open your arsehole and let the warden see.. but the chief warden say is big enough and show us.. lol.. somemore he is fat.. i was controlling my laughter in front of the inmates..

this is my first time going through 2 admission at one go.. kao.. the 2nd admission was so late.. by the time it finish, the last admission comes in already.. i stand there for about 3 hrs.. hai..

oh and one more thing.. i might be pick to patrol with the SOC troopers in town.. i hope not because i need to roll down my sleeves in this hot weather.. i dont want.. aaaahhh... even Blacky also dont want.. he say, "siao ah.. the weather so hot.. somemore im black.. what if i faint how.. so ma lu.." lol..

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yesterday deployment at queenstown was a mixed feelings..

- an inmate report sick.. but the reason given literally left me rolling on the floor laughing.. he sprain his hands while sneezing!?!?! *ah-choooo..* god bless you..

- another inmate was mistaken for another inmate due to a mixed up identity.. hence need me to escort him.. Blacky and i didnt do anything to provoke him.. yet he want to show an angry face to Blacky.. not once but 2-3 times.. by the second time, i was ready to scold back at him or diary it down to make a complaint.. maybe he heard my thoughts.. he stop it.. after that he did it again.. damn it.. i wanted to let go the leash and rouse Blacky..

- CISCO officers.. damn good.. complain to prison just because we, k-9 officers are getting free meals.. hello, how many personnel you have at prison compared to us? you have 6-7 personnel while we have only 2.. the least we get is leftover dinner, that why we no need to pay.. just because we are getting free dinner and you have to pay for it.. so? compared to our pay.. i believe your pay is able to pay $2 meal... what kind of policy is that? different organisations.. different policies.. different services.. we are just ns men been deploy there to help them.. you all are regulars deploying there from the first admission till the last admission.. anyway, this complain is under review.. even if we have to pay for the meals..is fine with me.. but to buy outside for our meals just to let the CISCO officers see us eat, i will rather die of hunger..
anyway.. where can we get a $1 meal? rice with 2 fried chicken wings and fried potatoes.. where else but portsdown? haha..

just because of meals.. instructions between officers in charge of the menu to inmates/warden officers/k-9 officers are not clear.. is coupons needed? or is it provided? portsdown have this problem initially but we have given up asking for it to solve.. because we find out only the morning shift 1 is affected.. while the shift 2 and night shift, dinners are provided.. now queenstown.. hai.. dinner should also be provided as the CISCO officers will only be there till the last admission.. argh..

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well.. look like i have something to say regarding about police and security..

let's take for an example: someone who work in the police force for so many yrs, has been fired/resigned from the organisation.. what will he look for a job next? finding work where his expertise is required, or finding work where his diploma in certain fields are meet whereas he have lost touch with it or even forgotten about it? find work in CISCO or Prison? how about working as an accountant, banker, engineer, IT, business? will he forgot the foundation of the required field? im not trying to pinpoint that "im-totally-correct-and-that-you-are-wrong" kind of attitude.. is just from my point of view and not trying to get into an argument.. maybe some questions to pondered on.. feel free to share your point across..you know who you are..

lol.. i read some blog where guys and gals quarrel over a relationship, misunderstanding one another.. kind of like an enactment to my past situation.. boy.. the way this ex-friend of mine reply back to this poor boy is very pretentious.. the way she comments is pure concern but her heart is thinking otherwise.. split personality.. spot on!!

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sat.. 24 hrs of activity.. by the time i reach home.. i head to my bed.. 12 hrs of duty at k-9.. followed by friend's birthday.. then ask my buddies to go and play pool and see movie in the morning.. by 3 am.. i dont have mood to play pool already.. my eyes want to close already.. i want to go back home.. but my buddies suggest to go and watch "Mr and mrs smith".. well.. i did go with them.. the show suxs.. the moral of the story is if you are in a marriage break down, try to solve the problem by knowing each other better..

my buddies say i trained to stay up awake all night..yet still feel so tired.. and i have to explain to them that before meeting them, i had work in a 12 hr shift..

my team have literally solve half of the problem.. regarding about our SD.. there is this guy who have personal problem, hence cannot take arms and have to deploy for security coverage.. our deployment have already planned 2 tours(1 tour is 1 day and 1 night) before hand.. so he know the deployment but somehow, he abused it.. abused it by throwing MC.. and we have to take his place.. now at last he's gone.. to changi sub base.. another half we have to wait until july then we know whether another guy in our team is leaving or not..

for the whole of last week, i been thinking of one gal.. though i had given up on her, but my heart is still miss her.. 4 yrs of wonderful memory.. maybe her presence in my heart have helped me to soften the blows that i had earlier on..

now, the television series "lost" have really glued me to the screen.. i cant wait for the next episode to be screen..

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does anyone saw the series, "Lost"? im wondering how could an 8-month pregnant woman get to sit in an aeroplane, going through turblence at 10000 ft, and yet able to survived an air crash? wow, that is one hell of a superwoman.. i dont think any pregnant lady will survived this ordeal in the first place.. let alone sitting in an aeroplane..

two of my friends are going to serve the nation tomorrow.. wish jimmy and tehao all the best.. haha.. cant wait to see their head bald..

seem like i have run out of topics to blog.. though i still got a final part of reflection to blog about.. i dont think i will be able to do it..i will try my best to get it blog..

anyway.. will be blogging lesser and lesser.. will blog if there is anything interesting.. hehe..

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patrolling was so much fun.. i was sent to Echo divison at Bishan area.. that sector is way too quiet and too small.. we have to patrol the same area twice at different times.. hmm.. oh well.. and guess what..i get to spot checked one of the FI.. he is none other than Fazli.. he was at bishan park with his gf.. and he say to me, "i remember you.." i was dumbfounded.. he could still remember me out of so many trainees in PA..

at the start of the patrol, i bought Blacky along.. but he vomitted due to my colleague who like to cornering while driving.. poor him.. he have to send back to base before proceeding on.. other people who drive with Blacky on board, Blacky doesnt vomitted at all..

we went to those places where couples like to go there for hanky panky.. Macritchie reservoir.. Bishan park.. the cars parked with the engines on and the windows were densed at the powerful air con.. lol.. we use the headlights of our vehicle to give out some warning.. but didnt go out to be near of the vehicle to catch the action..
oh well, that will be a long time before i get to go out to patrol again.. although there wasnt any msg or COR to attend to, it was an eye-opening for me..

Reflection on life part 1..

wow.. i didnt realised that i have blog this for 1 yr.. happy, sad, angry, everything is inside.. i get to know myself better through reading my past thoughts, past emotions and past events.. certain things came to my mind when i read all the posts..

- i get to know one and only bimbo in this 21 yrs.. no prize for guessing who is it.. ex-bimbo i should say..

- am i more equipped to handle those incidents, that i have went through, in the future? i donno.. only those who experienced it with me, those faithfully readers will have the say.. or maybe God?

- we have so many aspects of life.. relationship, work, family, religion, character, etc.. so which part of it i have grown..which part i need to improve on?

- when i read those posts, my mind have lots of thoughts but little answers.. i could have done this instead of that.. i could have say that instead of this..

- no regrets for what i have done except for one.. reconciling with her as friends.. i like what i have say on 16th april.. that post really say something that could have been done.. maybe she isnt really open or really frank with me?

- overall, how do i fare in this pathetic injustice world? fail? poor? average? who truly understand me? Me, friends or God? Do i change for the better or for the worse?

all these things could come to me as bad or good.. i donno.. but at the end of the day, i have to account for myself all the actions, speech, thoughts, interaction, feelings, everything.. not to human beings.. but God.

i come to this world alone.. alone too i leave this world..

ive learnt alot through this one yr.. and one of the lesson is friends aint forever.. if only i could turn back the time.. or start life as a perfect person.. wishful thinking..lol..

will blog about it another day..

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sian sian sian.. sian x 100.. nothing to do leh.. play games.. go out with friends.. watch tv.. watch movies.. yesterday also the same.. nothing to do play with the tagboard..haha..

sigh.. today cannot go to PDP because it require tickets to go.. lucky i ask people or else i make a wasted trip..

i really want to tear myself up in this boredom.. time move so slow.. argh..

let see.. what movies is on offer now.. unleashed.. monster-in-law.. hitchhiker's guide to galaxy.. cursed.. ghost train.. 2nd off is on monday where tickets sold are at the cheapest.. $7 i guess.. hmm..

tomorrow training.. then after that patrol at Echo division.. i dont want to expect too much or else people might play MC and i could be deployed some where else.. even if they do that, i also cant complain much.. just have to wait for the chance to come..

Sianzation!!

Life in K-9 (22)

today totally shagged out.. Blacky feel the full blunt of shift work in HQ.. first half was posted to portsdown.. little did i know that i and Blacky will be sitting at a shady area seeing inmates exercising!!! after that escort inmates out to throw rubbish and area cleaning for 2 hrs under the hot sun.. the worst is yet to come.. when it time to go back to base, he dont want to go back.. lol..

second half of the shift was getting activated by admiralty west prison due to a fire and riot exercise.. Blacky been black.. imagine the sun putting the spotlight on him for 1 hr.. and he nearly fainted due to heat stroke.. lucky i went back to base to play with him and splash some cooling water on him.. i think he feel shiok after a hot day work.. and also prehaps that he is also first time work full 12 hrs..

this is what i expect to do when im more familiar with my job scope.. still getting the hang of it.. out of nowhere getting a COR.. working in extreme weather..

Blacky has been working in changi sub base for the last 5 yrs where is a heaven to him.. so that why he find the going get tough when been activated in HQ..

i found an old passion been ignited in me.. that is reading comics.. im now reading slam dunk english version comics.. vcds stop at where they won the inter-school championship.. now the comics is continue on where they go on to win the national championship.. i cant stop ever since i bought the first book under the recommendation from my team-mate..

and finally, i got the china-con msg this morning.. this msg comes a little too late where the news reported about it yesterday night..

signing off with bolster hugging and salivia drooling in action................

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i just received an email from my brother in christ regarding one of our church member was in overseas to attend a theology studies for 3 yrs..i was amazed at how other christians despite their disabilities, their shortcomings able to serve the God, whom they feared so much, faithfully with a breeze!! im utterly ashamed that i thought i have done my best to serve.. but these people exceed above their limits.. their actions make me think twice about my faith in God.. and making me realise that i have more to serve God in the coming yrs..

my friend told me that i only served the nation for 1 yr!! how could this be? well, our working life is work 2 days off 2 days.. 1 yr working.. the other yr is off.. you get off without telling the supervisors.. neither does the supervisor call you to report back to work or rush a report through.. but ever since i returned back to the team, i got more than what i bargained for.. i can claim extra hours off as i need to report early for my night duty at queenstown remand prison.. i get to work 6 hrs in portsdown before coming back to base to do anything you like..sleep, training with Blacky, bathe Blacky, wash kennel..

for the last 2 weeks, i sleep more than i work.. not that im complaining about my work scope is boring but my duty revolve around prison premises.. sit down stay.. get to doze off if i can.. hehe.. but as a result, i sleep too much that i donno what i need to do.. i think i need to tune my sleeping habit to a more regular time than sleeping irregularly.. not a very good habit to pick up though..

and i get to patrol this coming weekend.. saturday.. hehehe.. at Echo.. dont think will go to orchard.. most prob will be at bukit timah where most rich people live..

hmm.. my tagboard dont seem to be working despite asking for views and opinion regarding to my last post.. but there is an increase of people viewing my blog though.. haha.. oh well.. never mind..

Girls been princess while guys been whiny..?1?!

first off today..but im not tired.. donno why.. still as fresh as ever.. hmm.. yesterday at portsdown.. just by lying on a foldable chair in an open but enclosed area, mosquitoes begin their feast on me..

few days back, there is a survey been polled by the newspaper regarding about how girls think about guys and vice versa.. both sexes say that 70% of the women are behaving like princess while guys are whiny.. and the remaining 30%, half of them say that both sexes are mature..

now, been a neutral to this survey.. i will like to say to both of the sexes that took part in this survey.. dont expect too high to the other counterparts.. i wonder does this survey affect the thinking of the young singaporeans of watching a movie where the character act in a perfect role where personality and looks are click together? im kind of putting this example indirectly.. where people seem to have high expectation where looks are concerned.. "hey, look, chio bu coming!!" but we didnt know what her weakness are until we get to know her.. it seem to me that singaporeans are choosy.. be it in jobs, schools and especially people like girls.. i definitely have no exception.. even in my workplace, i tend to work with those people where i have worked before..

but if i were to take the poll, i will have side the guys side.. girls nowadays are acting like princess.. pardon me if is because of the recent situation.. girls score points on looks..but if character fails where they can take the easy way out by ignoring the person or avoid the problem completely.. will people accept this girl as a true princess? princess, no doubt, are also human beings who are imperfect, whose wrong decision could be condemned by the villagers..

guys been whiny.. is time for guys to say it out instead of keeping their mouth shut.. where do we get to see this kind of guys back in the day of our grandfather, great-grandfathers' times? whenever they get scolded, they just keep their mouth shut and carry on with work..

this post no doubt will open for debate or critics sharpening their knives on me.. there is no wrong or right answer to it.. everyone is entitled to their opinion.. im quite open about it.. time to let my tagboard work abit.. hehe.. kind of tired seeing those comments that been say 1 month ago..

Life in K-9 (21)

from a mere listener in a conversation to a person caught between two sides.. i and my colleague are caught in a dilemma.. hai..donno what to say.. out of sudden, my team have an internal conflict.. have to wait for the Team Leader to come back to restore the peace before cracks are too obvious for the other people to see..

yesterday duty was a 6 hr duty at portsdown centre.. it was really a sit down stay.. no escort.. nothing..but lucky i bring something to read to kill time..

hai.. these days doesnt seem to have any nice movies that attract my attention.. star wars, an x-rated documentary "inside deep throat"..and other horror movies.. so off days are just sleep and sleep and sleep.. no activities.. call friends also have to wait until weekend.. as some of them are working, serving nation or studying.. sian!!

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yesterday night was the most du lan night i ever had.. cant even sleep peacefully.. imagine an officer who is sick.. who is trying to switch off or trying to adjust the air con.. i dont mind he do that..but the worst is he did it when he have to switch on and off the lights.. 3 times no least.. kao..

first time saw people been sentenced to queenstown remand prison.. have to strip naked.. to search for drugs.. do some squatting to see whether they hid anything in their asshole.. and to do administration work, fully clothed of course.. when they strip naked, Blacky was looking at me, i looked back at him.. "why, dont tell me you also first time see people naked?"

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argh.. 12 hrs without a hp? is like something part of me been missing.. but to substitute with an air-conditioned room with tv, radio make me forget about my hp..

this is what my 12 hrs shift in queenstown remand prison.. not much to do either.. have a free dinner at the tea-room.. watch tv till midnight.. and sleep the remaining of the time.. lol..

before the shift start, i was frantic to hear that hp cannot bring in.. but somehow my instincts kick in where my hp and wallet is in the locker to my room is just 2 metal gates away.. one of the metal gate is not lock.. as for the other metal gate i have to wait for the prison officer to unlock it before i can reach to my hp.. all in a legal way..and a truly give and take manner..

that all i have to say about my first 12 hr shift at queenstown.. back to dreamland..

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why do people have to tell lies just to let others have the doubt? does telling lies able to get them out of trouble? or does it help to get the happiness that they want? i wonder by telling lies, what gain do they get to stand?

A quote by Mark Twain, "When in doubt, tell the truth"

hai.. by end of this month, every cinema will increase their ticket prices.. but i can consider myself lucky again that i work 2 days off 2 days.. so i can watch movie during weekdays..

these few days been dreaming about the same thing.. is like kinda of a nightmare to me.. is about a gathering where i get to see all the people that i dont wish to see.. i was very uptight, was looking for someone to talk, but wherever i turn, those people just look at me and smile.. yucks!! yucky!! yuckiest!!

someone ask me this, "what is your dream car?"

Me: "Toyota Rav 4 or Lexus RX 300.."

Him: "why not Ferrari or Lamborghini?"

Me: "siao.. how to speed? go abit only traffic light liao.. singapore max speed is 160.. and i think Ferrari or Lamborghini min required speed is 160 lor.."

Him: "no lah..not asking you to speed.. maybe drive around Orchard to show off mah.."

Me: "lol..do you think im a person who likes to show off.. drive this type of car in Orchard is like a sore thumb sticking out because other cars are all ordinary..moreover, who will really go and see on the road what car im driving.."

Him: "erm..whatever..no comments......"

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wow..first day back to the team.. do base guard for half a day before taking Blacky out for Portsdown shift 2 duty.. in the morning shift, portsdown got 2 shift.. shift 1 is 0800-1400.. and shift 2 is 1400-2000.. the duty is just sit down stay for me.. lol.. half of the 2nd shift i was dozing off..

wonder why so many people sign on for police knowing that at the end of the day, the job scope is the same as security guard.. is it because of their passion to catch criminals? is it because of the job scope? or is it because of how they see people behave in the day time or night time? or is it because they want to see how people react with or without the presence of people wearing blue? or maybe is the ambition to be a law-enforcer? well, the list goes on..

as for me, this job is definitely not for me.. so pls stop asking me about signing on.. no matter how much MHA going to give me for my salary.. i will still say no.. is not the amount of money that able to keep me contented.. is the challenges that counts..

by jun, the whole deployment team A-D will be reshuffled.. even an ordinary SC like me not spared either.. to me, any team is fine with me as long as dont play fire with me by putting deployment at the same place.. i can work with anyone but dont create a profile that so-and-so are known to "eat" SC.. some names are been forward to me about this trend.. lol.. well, better to be safe than sorry..

i think im having memory loss.. is like seeing this person so familiar at some places, but yet have no memory where i have seen this person before.. it took me about 5-10 mins before i knew who that person is.. lol.. same goes to my church people.. they know my name but i totally forgotten about their names as i seldom come to church even since i posted to dog unit.. maybe im too preoccupied about current affairs in dog unit.. hehe..

oh well.. going to take a rest now.. tomorrow will be the night shift and will be doing portsdown the whole 12 hr shift..

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yes.. oh yeah.. im indeed posted back to HQ and also back to my team.. haha.. cant wait to work with them again..

i will be doing prison duty at portsdown, queenstown remand prison, and occasionally ops javalin and division rounds.. im looking forward the last 2 duties.. haven really got a chance to wear uniform in town and a dog on leash..wahahha.. anyway there will be a chance..

hai.. guess those who particpating in Police Day Parade already get to see what my unit is doing.. though im not physically there, but i do know what is happening.. hehe.. i will definitely be there on the actual day cheering my unit on..

Inflation

golden village!! stop killing us with those price increase.. 9.50 for a weekend ticket.. you are the only one who increase the prices.. the others have not.. no wonder i saw so few people at golden village than other cinemas like cathay cineplex..

i think i have to watch movie at other cinemas than golden village.. golden village will be the last cinema in my mind..

tomorrow is the day where i will be posted.. hopefully i will get HQ and go back to my former team.. i not asking much..

i did some soulful thinking over the last 2 days.. and i feel that my NS life isnt that bad at all.. after i posted to k-9, i should considered myself lucky not to see some of my squadmates or posted to SOC.. and to be a dog handler put some icing on the cake.. at least it gives me some challenges.. i feel that God have reserve me for the best in terms of the treatment from my former team and my training team.. thanks God..

Growing up is a phrase of life

watch coach carter today.. very nice show i should say.. i like the way he quoted this, "growing up is about making decision and to live with the consequences.."

in my friendster profile, i wrote that im against procrastinating.. i think i no need to go through history or archives to know what im trying to refer to.. once is enough or will i get to see a second one? i donno.. but i hope not.. previously i have all the patience in the world.. but now is very difficult.. maybe is the way how singaporeans want it fast.. how i have come to terms about the corporate working world is really like that in such a way, im influenced to it.. or is it that i waited too long for an answer that never came? or is it i do really have the patience to go and wait?

well, as my officer has say when im still training to be a full-pledged policeman, do everything in moderation.. know the limits..

am i digging up the past? prob yes.. why.. because first time round was a question asked "what if you did something halfway and you dont have the confidence to carry on?" and hence, friendship was broke.. second time round was about what i blog, not even clarifying with me which part i was wrong and again friendship broke..

did i do something that is repeating itself.. or someone else is repeating the action? i think i let you, the readers, to judge for yourself..